I was walking on the pathway towards our school building, alone. This keeps on repeating everyday since my brother died. He was supposed to be graduating college now but until that unfaithful day happened, his dreams end and was buried with soil. He was supposedly dreaming of becoming a successful doctor. He was supposed to be dad's successor but he rejected the offer that's why dad has n other choice but to put it upon me. My dad would rather choose to where we are happy than seeing us doing what he wants us to do but us not wanting it even a bit. But my brother promised me that he will help me but....I'm on my own now. But I know my best friend, Hotaru Imai, since birth and she swears that she will help me in life struggles. Now she was standing next to me with same emotions. She was as silent as ever, ever since. She was the only person who understand me. No one would understand me, not even my mother. As we were walking people was staring at us, as usual. They would always call us as the ice queens. But they just don't understand.
"Mikan," she started, I turn face to her.
"What is it?"
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, why?
"You've been silent since you've went in the car." she said, "What's wrong?"
"They're on a vacation again."
"Where?"
"London, they're wasting money again. Money from my father's income." I started to cry.
"Mikan don't cry."
"I know I can do this, they better be ready for the outcome."
"I'll be by your side Mikan."
Classes started and Mr. Narumi was talking about this festival thingy but then....
"Sorry i'm late Mr. Narumi." the king of the class showed up. He is Natsume Hyuuga, a new transferred student, he was cheerful as ever and he even tried to get my attention. He has this joyous aura and a sweet smile that makes everyone smile, specially to me. Whenever he was doing something there's this thing in me that reacts and connect to my nerves and makes me give a smile. Good thing nobody would notice. "Ohayoo Mikan," he said to me and sat beside me, where seat mate I tell you. I looked at him, "Ohayoo." was all I ever said. I looked behind and smile a little. Then I realize Hotaru was looking at me and she smiled at me. I think she saw my smile, how can I explain this to her now.
"Mikan, why don't you try to smile." he said.
"I don't want to."
"Why is that?"
"It's none of your business."
"C'mon, I know how you feel, and it's not going to take you to what you've dreamed of. You will end up nothing if you keep on doing that." he got his point.
"You would never understand, no one would understand me."
"I know someone who will listen and understand you," I know that he means is he.
"You can't understand."
"I can Mikan, trust me. I want to know why you are like that."
"Why are you interested anyway?"
"I'm worried about you Mikan, I don't want you to be like....." he stopped, what did he meant.
"Be like?"
"Nothing, just trust me."
"I'll try."
"Okay class," Narumi started. "About the festival...." he was speaking like word-to-word. "we are going to.."
"C'mon Mr. Narumi, stop the drama, just get to it." Mochu said.
"Okay, okay we are handling the food court. We are going to open up food houses and stuffs." Mr. Narumi said.
"Phew, good thing it's not a drama." I said, I look at Natsume beside me he was staring at me like there's a dirt in my face.
"What's wrong? Is there something in my face?"
"No, nothing, it's just that."
"Just what?"
"I can see in your eyes, a little girl, she was so happy whenever this man is with her but later it all turns out to darkness, when this man was gone, am I right Mikan?" his words, he, he knew it, how did he know all about it. I just didn't mind him ,instead I stared down crumpling my skirt uniform. "Mikan?" he said again.
"Ho-how did you know about that?" I asked him and a teardrop.
"So you really don't remember."
"Remember? What do you mean?"
"I was the son of your mother's best friend. I think because of all those things that happened to you in the past, you forgot all about me."
"Who-who are you? And how are you related to my past?"
"I'm Natsume Hyuuga, the only heir of the Hyuuga Corporation. We were friends since child and so with Hotaru. After a year your father died we move to Chicago for business, you know what I meant, and now we came back here."
"I-I don't remember."
"I know, how could you remember me when all those things happen in your life and I moved to Chicago. I remember it very well how much he had loved you. When we play together, and if you just get scratched or something will happen to you, it's like everything to him."
"Dad," was all I could say at that time, I cried. We were left all alone in the room coz everyone went out to see the area we will be constructing our booth. All I know is that I am crying so hard, and I was in his warm hands. He was hugging me calming me down and comforting me. He was the first guy-friend I ever cried on. I know that he's uniform is now wet from my tears but he don't mind. It's like i'm hugging my father. Now I remember, he was that little boy I used to play with when I was young. He used to care for me whenever my dad is not around. And when I cried he was there to make me smile. My memories are coming back to me slowly all because of him. Just because of all I was thinking about was those bastards, I kinda forgot all my precious memories with my dad. Natsume was stroking my hair, and playing with my ears. The way he do it, he was, now I remember, he was my first love when I was a kid. He was the one who hugged me when my father died, he was there, he also saw the murder I saw.
"Natsume...."
"What is it?" how am I going to tell him...
"Never mind." I said and wipe all my tears.
"How are you?"
"Fine."
"You don't look like fine." he said..i smiled, what a relief. I feel better now.
"You smiled."
"Huh?" I smiled?yeah I smiled, because of him. He made me smile, he really did understand me. "Natsume..."
"What is it? And don't give me nothing for an answer." he said, I laughed.
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"For understanding me, making me smile and laugh, and for teaching me. Can you be my tutor?"
"Tutor for what?"
"The meaning of life." I know it's kinda useless but all I want is to be with him. I just don't want him to go away again. He is like my brother, but more, I love him, a love as a love and now I realized i've learn how to love because of him.
Lax: okay that was the first chappie of this,,,REVIEW ANYONE?arigatooo:]
