Elliot sat at her bedside, Cragen sat bedside him watching Olivia. She was so pale and thin you could break her in two with bare hands. Cragen looked around and regretted it everyone looked fearful no-one had faith. Cragen refused to look at Elliot but his eyes found him, Elliot sat still holding Olivia's fragile hand you could see the tear marks on his face he looked so broken. Cragen's eyes found peace on the white tiles of the hospital.

Elliot found himself in a world that was surrounded by nothing but pain! He wanted to shake her until she woke up, but he knew that it wasn't going to happen, he released her cold hand from his grasp and stood, he shook his head and walked out. Nicolett was behind him. "Don't follow me!" Elliot barked and ran down the corridor and into the waiting elevator. Elliot fought a losing battle with the elevator door. The door opened and there stood Olivia's little brother his eyes filled with tears. "Hey" Elliot managed; walking out the elevator Simon didn't respond he just entered the elevator. Elliot felt more horrible than he ever felt in his life; he walked home trying to clear his mind, but how could he? Every time he closed his eyes he saw her face that look in her eyes when he told her those horrible things. His apartment felt empty, he walked to the kitchen and found the pack of beer he had bought, Elliot sat in the family room and picked up the stack of letter he did a double-take when he realized one was from Olivia, Elliot ripped it open and began

Dear Elliot,
You were my best friend, my confidant and my partner. It's really funny I never thought our partner ship would have ended this way. I actually thought it would last until we were too old to work anymore. Though I never told you before I love you, I really do and I will not pretend that the things you said to me were hurtful they cut me so deep that I find it impossible to breathe. You were the greatest friend one could wish and also the best lover I ever knew. I do hope that the young lady treats you exceptionally well and may all you dreams come true though mine are dead. I wanted to love you the way no one else could, I wanted you to be the father of my children. But I guess it wasn't meant to be and nothing last forever though I thought we would after nine years.
Wow you were right you are the longest relationship I had with a man. Not even my brother SAM, and I haven't known each other that long. Well I'm writing to say good bye sorry I slapped you.
Good Bye Elliot I loved you, my heart and love will be with you always.
-Liv

The tears were flowing and he felt like jumping off the highest building so that the pain would end.

Cragen was behind his desk all hope was lost, he couldn't stand to watch her suffer he had found his way to the office and drown himself inpaper work, but he felt responsible for it all wasn't he the one who asked her to go. There was a letter on the desk, he thought he was going to have a heart attack when he realized the sender, he ripped it over and began to read.
Dear Captain,
I don't think I can stay there anymore.
Cragen eyes were filled with tear and he almost cursed when the phone rang. "Hello!" he barked into the receiver not caring who it was. "Yes, are you serious?" he asked in disbelief!

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AN: I'll be away for awhile school starts Wednesday. I will update asap. Thanks again for reading and I hope u enjoyed.

Ali