I don't own twilight and the characters. I really hope your enjoying the story. I kind of don't know if its good because all the other stories I read on fanfic they have alike a billion reviews and I know I don't update that much…so I guess that's why…and im happy I at least have 7 …but please? Ill update real soon if I get maybe 15 reviews(or close) thanks

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About a week later Edward took me to our hill again. Everything was so gorgeous, from the vibrant colored flowers, to just having the most handsome boyfriends next to me.

I was finally getting used to the fact that my boyfriend was not human. At first I was a little scared but how could I feel like that when we love each other so much. He told me a lot about his past, his family, and I was getting to be a vampire genius.

The one thing he didn't speak much of was his immortality. I knew he was staying seventeen forever. But I was kind of upset that he didn't want me to be like that too; doesn't that mean he doesn't want me forever?

I knew this afternoon was so perfect, but I just had to finally bring up what was on my mind.

I got a little nervous at first because what if he really didn't want me forever? So I ended up saying, "I…I… um.."

Edward looked up and into my eyes, "What's wrong Bells? What happened?" he placed his cold arm around my waist and moved a little closer.

"I have a question for you. Please don't be afraid to tell me the truth," I sighed, "If you love me as much as you say you do, why haven't you suggested…my having immortality like you have?"

I gulped slightly loud. I was kind of nervous to here his answer. Edward and I were very close but may be he really didn't want me forever.

"Oh, Bella, I can't give you such a life. I can't bring myself to give you so much pain. Me being a vampire is like a monster- actually- I am a monster. I certainly not make you a monster like me."

His liquid topaz eyes dropped from mine. For a minute or so there was complete silence. All I heard were the happy birds chirping.

Then I got the courage to talk, "I-I don't understand. Yes, that's what you think of being a vampire but wont it be better if you have someone who loves you by your side the rest of your life? I mean, you do love me still right?"

Unwanted tears were coming out of my eyes. I knew there was a chance he wouldn't want me forever, I just kind of thought he wouldn't pick that choice.

"Bella, don't cry," he pushed my tears that were now streaming down my face, away. "No-no Bella it is not that I don't love you. Don't question that. But I don't want to damn your life. You have so much potential to be such a great person, to grow, to marry, to have children. Yes I can marry you in the future, but I cant give you the others. If you become what I am that'll never happen."

"NO. if you truly loved me you would do anything to keep me for ever. Instead I will have to suffer getting older while my boyfriend is a seventeen year old teenager!" I almost screamed. I had never been upset with Edward since we have been together.

But I couldn't just live my life looking like an old lady standing next to a gorgeous teenager. Its not fair to me.

He took my hand into his but I quickly pulled away. He lifted my chin and we were trapped in the looking-into-each-other's-eyes stage again.

One part of me was saying don't do this. He means so much to you. But the other side was saying he doesn't want me forever.

I broke the silence with my whispers, "you know, I don't know if I told you this, but my father died recently and I was never the same. You mean so much to me I don't want to die someday and not have you anymore. I can't get hurt like that again….I can't" tears were streaming down my face and I got up and started walking back to the car.

The next second Edward was next to me and he said, "I am sorry. I am sorry that your father died. I'm sorry that I'm hurting you by saying this. But I really can not bring myself to biting you. Because I know once you have turned, you will realize that you didn't want this life in the first place."

I looked into his eyes and replied, "Take me home, now." And he opened my door so I could sit in but I refused. "I am driving this time."

For the first time, he obeyed. I was driving and my mind was going every where. It was silence in the car and I had no intensions of breaking it. My hands were gripped onto the steering weal and I wasn't really concentrating on the red light a head of me when Edward yelled, "STOP!!! BELLA STOP!!! NO!!"

But it was too late. A car in front of me was crashing into ours. All I remember was the look n Edward's face. He was scared. And then I was swallowed up by a black hole. Darkness.