okay, as promised, there will be a lot of beans spilled in this chapter. that might continue on for the next couple of chapters. i'd say that there are only 3 left, but who knows? maybe there will be a sequel…anyways, enjoy!

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Chapter 9

"So would any of you like to tell me what's going on?" Nurse Cara looked around at the 4 people sitting in her office.

"No. There is nothing wrong so I have no idea why I'm here. I need to get home, if you don't mind," Bonnie spat crossing her arms.

"But Bonnie! What about…" Tara interjected, but was cut off by and angry young woman.

"SHUT UP, Tara!" Bonnie yelled, glaring. Why can't that stupid blonde just keep her mouth shut?!

"No, let her speak. I'm interested in hearing what this is all about. Tara, please continue." Nurse Cara sat down in her chair, crossing her legs, waiting for the truth.

"Well, see, it all started a couple of months ago when we were getting ready for state finals…"

FLASHBACK

"Bonnie! Oh, Bonnie! Come here. Let us see you!" Connie and Lonnie called from downstairs.

Bonnie had been twirling in front of her mirror in her new uniform, smirking at herself. I look amazing, once again, she had thought, running her hands down her slightly curvy body. Hearing her sisters' voices made her heart sink.

"Bonnie!" they called again.

"I'm coming!" Bonnie pasted a smile on her face and walked downstairs.

"Oh. My. God. You look…you look…" Is Connie actually going to say something nice? Bonnie wondered, her face brightening.

"You look like a cow!" The two twins started laughing as Bonnie's face fell.

"Do…do I really look fat? I mean, I thought…"

"We didn't ask you what you thought, Bon-bon," Lonnie said interrupting. "Would we lie to you about your appearance? We have a name to uphold you know."

"What the hell do you eat? I mean, you probably weigh, what, 180 pounds?" Connie exclaimed. "Look at yourself, Bonnie. Girl, you let yourself go! Haha!"

Bonnie turned on her heels and ran up the stairs to her room, tears falling behind her.

"Good job, darling! A couple hundred more of those and maybe you'll look like us!" Lonnie said.

"Oh, now don't be ridiculous. It would take way more sets of running up and down the stairs to work all THAT off," Connie said laughing just as Bonnie slammed the door.

"Why? Why do they always do this to me?" she said sitting down on the floor and crying. She then stood up and walked over to the mirror. Looking at herself again, Bonnie saw imperfection after imperfection. She pinched her skin until it was red, watching as each time the skin gave way, mistaking it for fat. "Maybe I should go on a little diet. Just until I get skinnier. Then I'll stop…"

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"Bonnie told me her plan to lose weight and I joined her. We never ate and when we did, we threw up…" Tara suddenly became quite fascinated with the ring on her middle finger. "After I fainted once, I stopped and tried to get Bonnie to quit, too. She wouldn't listen."

"You liar! I would never do that," Bonnie said defending herself.

"Nurse Cara?" Kim said, finally speaking up.

"Yes, darling? Do you have something to contribute?"

"Yeah. She does. She admitted it to me. Bonnie is anorexic and bulimic." Kim turned to look at Bonnie. "I'm sorry, but you need help. I can't keep this a secret anymore. Do you know how badly you can hurt yourself?"

"What do you know about keeping secrets, bitch! AND YES! For the last time, yes, I understand!" Bonnie said jumping up from her seat and yelling in Kim's face.

"DON'T YOU EVER TALK TO ME LIKE THAT, ROCKWALLER!" Kim yelled back.

"OR ELSE WHAT, POSSIBLE? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT?" Before Kim could respond, Ron stood up, fuming, and stuck a finger in her face.

"Calm yourself down, Bonnie and stay the hell away from her!"

"Whatever, Stoppable. Like you'd be able to do anything if I didn't," Bonnie spat. "You know what? I'm going to tell the truth. Just so you people will leave me alone." Bonnie stepped away from Kim and walked toward the nurse's desk.

"I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER! And not just one, but all three! I starve and when I can't take it anymore, I stuff myself with food. Then, the icing on the cake, I throw it back up! There! I said it! ARE YOU PEOPLE HAPPY NOW!?" Bonnie yelled looking around at everyone.

"I am happy that you're coming to terms with this, but you must calm down," Nurse Cara urged. She stood up and tried to guide Bonnie back to her seat.

"No! Why can't you people just leave me alone! Don't you think I've suffered enough?!" Bonnie yelled, wrenching away from the nurse's grip.

"Bonnie, I have sympathy for what's going on with you and I will do my best to help you, but I'm NOT going to let you sit here and pretend this is okay! MY FRIEND DIED, BONNIE. She died from this stupid disease. You could, too, and you're acting like you don't even care!" Ron exclaimed.

"WELL MAYBE I DON'T CARE! If I die, things would be a lot better then staying here. I'm tired of always being in their shadow. I hate them! If they were your sisters, then you would understand how hard it is for me! I have EVERY RIGHT to do this to myself. I HAVE to be perfect. I just have to…" Bonnie collapsed in a fit of tears on the bench, trembling.

"You mean Connie and Lonnie?" Kim asked. "Is that why I heard yelling the day I came to pick you up?"

Bonnie nodded and sat up, wiping away her tears. "They always tell me how worthless I am and how horrible I look. I can't go a single day without them tormenting me. I just get so sick of it! Why can't they just leave me alone?!"

"Bonnie, I think we need to call in your sisters and see what is going on…" Nurse Cara reached for the phone.

"NO! You…you can't do that. Why won't you just stay out of this? I'm perfectly fine!" Bonnie started to hyperventilate and the room started to spin, faster and faster.

"You have to calm down, Bonnie! You could make yourself sick."

"I don't care!" Turning to Kim and Tara, Bonnie smacked them. "I hate the both of you! I told you to just keep your dang mouths shut and what do you do? YOU TELL THE WHOLE SCHOOL! Now everyone, knows my secret and they'll never let me live it down. Especially Connie and Lonnie!"

Reeling slightly from what just happened, Tara grabbed hole of Bonnie's shoulder and shook her. "Do you hear yourself?! All you worry about is what people will say about you! JUST STOP IT, BONNIE! YOU. NEED. HELP!" Tears coursed down her cheeks and Bonnie pushed her away.

"I DON'T NEED ANYONE'S HELP! No one understands me! Don't you people get it? I have to act tough and mean or else. Can you imagine what I'd be like if I just sat there and did nothing? I treat you guys the way I do because I'm strong! I'm even strong enough to control what I'm going through, so BACK THE HELL OFF!" Bonnie screamed. It seemed as though these final words had pushed her body over the edge. The room spun again and she couldn't breathe. Gasping for air, Bonnie clutched the wall until her hands were red.

"Bonnie, what's wrong?" Kim exclaimed. Turning to the nurse, she cried, "WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER?!"

"I can't breathe!" Bonnie said between gasps. Hyperventilating still, she fell to the floor and started shaking violently, cold sweat started pouring down her face as Tara screamed.

"SHE'S HAVING A PANIC ATTACK! CALL 911!" Nurse Cara yelled, kneeling down to check Bonnie's vitals. "Her heart is racing!"

"Hello?" Kim said through her tears to the 911 operator. "A girl at my school…she's having a panic attack." She glanced over at Bonnie who was shaking less, but had gone unconscious. Collapsing in a fit of tears, Ron took the phone and finished the call.

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"The ambulance is here!" Tara said running back into the nurse's office. Two men wheeled in a stretcher. Watching intensely, Ron held Kim and Tara held Kim's hand. The unconscious Bonnie was lifted onto the stretcher and rolled away and into the ambulance.

"So what exactly happened here?" another member of the ambulance crew asked.

"Well, we were trying to talk to her about her…eating disorder and she wouldn't listen and kept fighting us." Kim looked down at her feet. "She pushed herself too hard and started hyperventilating."

"Thank you. We'll be sure to give you a call later." He put away the pen and pencil he had been taking notes for the hospital with and walked off.

"What are we going to do?" Tara asked. "She could die…" Trailing off as tears fell from her eyes. Kids crowded around outside the building as the ambulance drove off towards Middleton Hospital.

"All we can do is wait…" Ron said sadly.

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I hope this was intense enough for my readers and that you all enjoyed it! Read and review please and I promise to update again soon.