Ah, chapter 2. Listen to Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace, there should be some subtle hints for ya…enjoy! Chapter 3 will be 'Chop Suey' by System of a Down.
I had to be quiet, but it was difficult; the burning continued, my consciousness affected by the pain. This was surely hell, and I had known there was no possibility of heaven for me. Never would I meet my mother, show my father that I had worshipped in my own way and that it was acceptable. He had been right. Hell.
I don't know how long I had been unconscious, but I awoke, senses sharper and heightened. Surely I had died…or so I thought. I felt stronger, more agile, and there was a strange burning… realization hit me and a strangled sob made its way up my throat.
I hadn't died. I was one of them. A vampire.
I could not go back home, knowing my father would not spare me solely on the fact that I was his son. I heard a noise above me and realized there was someone coming.
"Momma, I don't like the cellar, there's something down there, and I don't want it to get me." If there hadn't been before, there was now. A young girl appeared at the cellar door, heading to some shelving units near the other side of the room.
Her scent was as if someone hit me in the stomach, there was an intense burning in my throat and a sweet taste flooding my mouth; venom.
Dread filled me.
A young girl would be my first victim.
I stopped breathing, tensed and watching for the young girl to go back up the stairs.
I sat for hours after that last ordeal, motionless as a statue.
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I was contemplating what needed to be done. I listened for any indication of footsteps outside the cellar, and when I was satisfied there was no one; I leapt out, running for the forest.
I needed to destroy myself, but the question was how? I found a barn near the forest with an ax, but that chipped the blade against my arm. I was becoming frustrated, and headed away from the barn. The cliffs were nearby, and I threw myself off. The ground came rushing to meet me, but my ascent slowed and I landed on my feet.
The river! Thames was close, so I ran to it, throwing myself into the water. I tried to drown myself only to find that I never needed to breathe.
I was invincible, immortal, undead. All the cursed things of the world coming together.
The most beautiful predator.
I was beginning to feel defeated.
I headed back to the forest, my senses assaulted with the smell of human blood again. I tensed, running as fast as I could to get away.
But, I realized I was running toward it and did all I could to change my course.
I would not succumb to weakness. I needed shelter. A thought struck me.
I couldn't kill myself by doing things physically, but what if I starved myself. Abstaining from blood until I was too weak to move.
I hoped there was somewhere I could stay, out of the way, unseen, where I could suffer in peace and hopefully perish. I found a cave and hid there. Starving was my last option, so I waited for days, weeks, feeling myself grow weaker, but never feeling as though I were close to death.
My hope died that day.
I could smell a heard of deer nearby, and I attacked without thinking. Blindly, like an animal I massacred the entire herd.
But it worked.
The blood replenished my strength; therefore I could go on without killing humans. That was the upside to this situation. I heard people coming, but before I knew it I was surrounded.
"Its Pastor Cullen's son!" I heard. Dread filled me. Their scents assaulted me, making my throat itch with thirst. I was severely outnumbered, and didn't intend to hurt any of them.
"Pastor, we found him!" I tensed, trying to control the bloodlust raging inside me.
The beast was clawing to get free. I kept my eyes closed the entire time.
"Carlisle, are you alright?" One man asked. None of them had noticed.
"No." I whispered.
The group closed in on me, and my eyes snapped open. A feral growl ripped up my throat, and I leapt up out of the circle.
"His eyes!" several men yelled.
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'So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become.' – 'Animal I Have Become' -- Three Days Grace
