So, now for 'Chop Suey'. Carlisle confronts God about what happened. What did ya think? Should I add more?
I hadn't intended to go to the church, or find my father. I knelt down at a bench, eyes glaring up at the cross.
"What did I do to deserve this? What do I need to do to rectify myself?" I asked.
My head snapped around as the door opened.
"Carlisle." He said. He was too far away to notice my eyes, but I doubted that the men had let that tidbit of information slip by.
"You should not be in the House of the Lord." He said.
I hadn't intended him to find me, but he did. It was a stand-off…
"Are you going to kill me?" I asked.
He nodded. "I must. You are dangerous." He said.
"Father, I can control it. Allow me to leave." I said.
"No, you cannot. You are a vile creature, a servant of the devil. I must destroy you." He said.
I heard his intake of breath at the anger glinting in my menacing crimson eyes. "You can't keep me here. I can outrun you, outsmart you. Out-maneuver you…and if I were ruthless enough I could kill you." I said.
"One of us has to die. Either you let me destroy you, or you destroy me." He said.
"We will both walk away from this. You will never see me again. Ever." I said.
"No." He said.
My emotions were out of control. "Yes! You will not control me any longer! I am tired of obeying your orders!" I said, stepping closer to him.
"Where will you go?" He asked, eyes narrowed, searching.
"Away from here. From you." I said, turning.
"You will never be accepted anywhere. You are a murderer." He said.
Anger got the better of me, and I was in front of him in a flash, gripping the lapels of his coat. "NO!" I yelled, shaking him. "You are the murderer! You killed so many innocent humans! All of them slain because you thought you were a perfect judge of character!"
"God will have mercy!" He said, pointing to the cross.
"There is no god, and if there was he would have no more mercy on you than he has had on me!" I yelled.
"Blasphemy!!!" He yelled.
"NO!" I said, releasing my grip on his coat. I turned. "No! If there was a god, he would not have done this! Any of it. Mother would still be here. I would not have been changed into one of the damned, the undead. Forever cursed to walk the Earth feeding on my own kind. A monster!" I yelled.
"You must be destroyed." He said.
"I cannot! Do you not understand?! I've tried! Drowning, throwing myself off a cliff, bleeding to death, starving myself. None of it worked! I am still here! I still exist!" I roared, causing him to stand back. Venom pooled in my mouth with my anger.
"You must allow me to burn you." He said.
"NO!" I yelled, jumping through the stained glass window and out into the streets. I ran from there.
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'Father into your hands, why have you forsaken me? In your eyes forsaken me, in your thoughts forsaken me, in your heart forsaken me?' – 'Chop Suey' System of a Down
