Bleed it Out

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto in anyway, so don't sue me.

Warnings: Blood, Self Abuse, Yaoi, and Lemons, probably.

'Thoughts'

"Demons Talking"

'Flashbacks'

'Dreams'

"Talking"

A/N: Author's Note.

Chapter 4

My knees began shaking. 'I'm scared, but why am I so scared? I've always liked Naruto, but …why …why am I so scared now? I know I've always like Naruto in a greater way than just a friend, but why am I scared? I know why …he's just going to end up hurting me …that's all that ever happens …when people get close to me they betray me …that's how it always is.'

'I don't want to be hurt again!" I thought, desperately trying to pull away from the blond, but it was no use …the blond had an iron grip. My vision got blurry due to the tears that were building up in my eyes. The teats began falling down my cheeks, but I couldn't sob …Naruto's lips were covering up my mouth.

'Why did I do this? Why did I kiss him? I know I've always liked him, but wasn't this a little too extreme a little too fast? He's shocked …that's not a surprise…'

'His eyes are filled with shock, probably, because he thinks of himself as a monster and he is surprised, because he didn't think anyone would want to kiss him.' The shock was quickly replaced with fear and sadness.

'Why is he afraid? Why is he sad? …That's right …Gaara has had a harsh past, I want to be with him, but …he's afraid I'll hurt him …maybe he's even homophobic ...he might hate me now that he knows I'm gay.'

A wave of sadness washed over me, as tears began falling down his cheeks. 'I hope he's crying, because he's thinking about his past. …It's not that I want him to cry …I would just feel better if I wasn't the one that made him cry.'

I frowned and pulled away and he crumpled to the floor. Choked sobs broke the silence. I knelt down on the ground and pulled him into my lap, wrapping my arms around him.

"Its okay, Gaara everything will be fine I promise." I whispered, rocking him back and forth.

"Calm down …everything will be fine." I murmured quietly.

The sobs eventually faded and his breathing evened.

'Well he's asleep, but …what should I do once he wakes up? …We can't really send him home yet and …I really want to help him. No …I need to help him …I need to find a way to help him feel alive, but how can I?' 'Just spend time with him, let him know that even if you guy are away from each other that you'll always be there for him …and maybe even let him know that you love him." Kyuu said. 'Wow Kyuu it sure has been a while since you last spoke to me…' A giggle was heard from the depths of my mind. "That's just, because I've been thinking…" She muttered trailing off slightly at the end. 'Thinking about what?' "About when you'll finally get together with your mate and have kits of your own." She said quietly. 'Wha-what!?' She giggled again. 'Wait a minute …who's my mate?' "Now that you'll have to figure out by yourself, but you're already on the right track." She whispered quietly.

'I guess I'll do what Kyuu suggested.' I thought, as I began running a hand through Gaara's hair.

A/N: That's all for now, sorry the chapter wasn't longer, but I couldn't think of any thing else to put in it. Sorry it's short and I hope you stick with it. I just had trouble coming up with ideas to put in it …so umm don't hate me and I hope you enjoyed it.