Again thank renesmeeblack333
It felt like a year being pregnant. Now that baby inside me is a boy. His name is going to be Noah Aaron Cullen. The big day came. It was Saturday, thank gosh.
"Carlisle!" I yelled in the middle of the night, my water broke. Dad brought me into Carlisle's office and everyone stared.
"Oh, No!" Carlisle tried to whisper.
"What? Is Noah ok?" I yelled
"His heart rate is plumiting." he said, I froze up.
"Ness, push!" Dad yelled. I did as instructed and screamed. It hurt so much. Then I heard a meek cry.
"Noah Aaron" I said with a breath. They brought him over to the table and cleaned him off. Rosalie handed him to me. His face, looked like Alex and me. It made me cry. Then a knock came at the door. Mom went to see who it was.
"No! Go away! She doesn't want you here!" I overheard. It was probably Alex.
"I know what you did to her, and now is not the time, nor will it ever be!" she screamed. Then dad stormed out of the room.
"Get out!" he yelled. Out of nowhere, someone came in the room. It was Jacob. He stared at the baby, then back to me.
"Jacob Black get out of here!" Emmett yelled at pushed him out of the door. I looked at Noah, the pain in his eyes. It killed a part in me. I think that Jacob thought Noah was his baby. I know for a fact, that Noah is Alex and my baby. I had so much pain. I had to keep Noah now. I would never forgive myself if I had an abortion. I couldn't put him up for adoption, they would figure out he's one forth vampire, and we would get killed by the Volturi.
"What am I going to do with you?" I said to Noah. Mom and Dad walked into the room as I finished stating my interrogitive sentence.
"We think you should go to bed. We'll take care of Noah." Mom said.
"Thank you." I said hugging all of them. I climbed into my bed, that night I don't know if you could call it a nightmare or not.
"Jakey!" I yelled. I'm running through a field, with Jake's wolf form and a tiny wolf form.
Who was it? Jake scooped me up and spun me around, joined by a kid. Our kid.
"Look at me run momma!" Said the little kid. He ran across the field and back
"Very, very good." I told the kid.
"But thi-
"Ness!" A voice whispered. I opened my eyes.
"Jacob." I tried to whisper.
"Alex is bad news. He's been getting all of the girls pregnant, even you." He said
"Why didn't I hear this at school?" I tried to contain all of my emotions. "You know, you shouldn't even be here. You raped me. Damit! Why did you? It ripped out my soul and crushed it into a billion pieces! That's why I rebelled out of my nature. Because of you. You Jake! You."
"I know but I'm different now. My life without you is like peanut butter without the peanuts. I know I did all of those things, but I went to counseling. For almost a year, Ness. I wish, I wish I could take it back. I can't now. I'm going to try to get you back until I die Renesmee. I fully devote my life to you now. You are the reason I breathe, sleep, eat and normally function. I love you. I got caught up in all of the things happening in my life. I wanted you so bad, that I didn't want to share. I learned that you can't control, you just play a part in people lives. Somewhat like a musical. You are the lead." He softly kissed me. "Without the lead, The musical is dead. I am dead. I will never let you go, Ness. I love you." He started to cry a little.
"Yes, but you don't have me and only me. I have Noah." I said
"So that was the little booger in your arm." He said, in between kisses. This is wrong, Ness.
"Yeah, wrong guy, wrong night." I tried to catch my breath. He scooped me up and jumped out of the house. I wanted him so bad. I just didn't want him to hurt me. I loved him so much. At the same time my head was telling me no and my heart was telling me yes. I wanted to go with my heart. He went through counseling, he's not going to hurt me. He took me into the forest. And dropped me by a tree.
"You are never going to go back to Alex, are you?" He said, as he stopped kissing me and got on top of me. I didn't want to answer him. I wanted him to kiss me. I tried to reach his lips. Then he slapped my face.
"Gosh, Renesmee you never change. Neither did I. I will never change my ways. I need you and only you. I lied for you Renesmee. You owe me. Come live with me, back in Europe without the baby or the boyfriends." He said. I was in shock. He lied to me. In less then a second, I pushed him off of me, and started to run. He caught up to me, and threw me against the tree. I screamed as loud as I could until he cover my mouth. I bit him and tried to get up and run away. He threw me against the tree again. I'm not going to win this game. Out of nowhere my dad slammed Jacob against a tree. I wish dad would just kill him already. Mom carried me to the house after I told her that I didn't want to see the blood and guts. I got in my Noah's room and looked at my baby. So peaceful, so sweet.
"Renesmee, may I look at your head, please?" Carlisle asked as he knocked on the door.
"Sure, but I have something for Emmett to do, where is he?" I asked
"Right here." Emmett said, whooshing into the room.
"Could you get the spare bed in the basement, and move in into here?" I asked.
"Anything, for my favorite niece." He said as he went to the basement. I walked with Carlisle, to his office. He checked my head and put a band-aid on my neck, where most of the damage was done. When I walked back into Noah's room, the bed was set up. But something inside of me wanted to leave. I loved him, he didn't feel like mine. I started to sway a little so I fell into my bed, just to escape from my life.
When I woke up in the morning, I looked at the clock on the baby blue wall. 7:47. It was Sunday. I grabbed a quick glance at Noah and I trudged to the kitchen. I started to make some coffee when I heard a cry. I came back into Noah's room and picked him up. I put him on the changing table and gave him a new diaper. I carried him to the kitchen and put him in the baby bouncer on the counter. I made coffee, some baby formula, and cereal. I made 2 trips and brought all of that to the living room. I ate fast and fed Noah. Then came a knock on the door. Dad answered it.
"Um hello, Are you Ness's brother?" It was Ethan.
"Yes, why are you here?" Dad said
"I came to see Ness and Noah." He said
"How did you know he was born?" Dad asked
"The daily newspaper." he said. I knew it was Alice who did that.
"Come on in, Ethan, She's in the living room." Dad said. Ethan walked into the living room and sat beside me.
"You really weren't lying." I said.
"Nope." He smiled. I got caught in his eyes.
"Um do you want to hold him?" I asked
"I'd be more than happy to." He said as I handed Noah over. At least I had one loyal friend, or maybe it could progress into more…….
