Chapter 5
A/N: I don't own Glee.
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RPOV:
The past month has flown by. Noah's mom talked to my dads but my daddy Ben still won't accept my choice about keeping the baby. I cried for two days and surprisingly Noah didn't run away. He's been really great. Every night he holds me while I sleep and never tries anything else. It's like there are two sides of him. Noah and Puck. He's Noah at home at Puck at school.
My last doctor's appointment was yesterday and everything is looking good. My little boy is growing strong and healthy. Noah and I still haven't talked about what we plan on doing after he's born. I'm still not sure if I would make a good mother and what about my dreams of being a star? I know if I worked really hard I could still do it and still be a mother but that's only if I had someone there to help me along the way. I know Noah said he'll be there but we aren't even a real couple. We're just two people that slept together one night and conceived a child and now are pretending to be in a relationship so no one will find out about our drunken one night stand. How do I know he won't meet some new pretty popular girl and ditch me? Uhh…when did life become so complicated?
I sit on Noah's bed and let the tears flow. It just makes me so angry that I can't stop crying. These hormones are having me going every which way. "Rach what's wrong?" Noah asks walking into the room shirtless. He takes a seat next to me and brushes my hair from my face. The warmth from his body and the look of his muscles is distracting me in a good way. It's so strange having him be so caring with me. I know it's only because of the baby. These thoughts make me so pissed at him and seeing him all sexy like is just so frustrating. "What's wrong?!! Look at me!! I can't fit any of my clothes anymore, my breast hurt all the time, every time I smell Santana's perfume I have to vomit and I can't stop crying. I never cry but now I'm crying over every little thing. I mean Bobby Flay lost another throwdown today and I burst into tears. He hardly ever wins." I yell the tears coming back just thinking about it.
Noah just looks at me wide eyed like I've lost my mind. He's trying hard not to laugh and it's just making me angrier. "This is your entire fault. If you didn't look the way you do or smell the way you smell or even kiss the way you do we wouldn't be in this mess." I say sobbing harder now. What the hell is wrong with me? "So you're saying you're attracted to me." He says with a wicked smile focusing on only what i said about his appearance. "No…yes…maybe…I don't know. Just put your shirt back on. It's very distracting." I say jumping up from the bed feeling myself getting very flustered around him. He stands up and walks towards me.
He smirks at me and I slap his bare chest with my hand. He holds my hand in place and I can feel the sparks I always get when his skin touches mine and I know he feels it too. He pulls me closer to him and leans down. Our lips are so close. "Don't." I whisper against his lips. He ignores my words and lightly presses his lips to mine. It's better than I remember. My lips tingle as he pulls me closer. I resist at first and just when I'm about to push him away he sucks my lower lip between his making me groan at the feel. We stay like this for a few minutes the kiss building in intensity. We pull away breathless and he pecks my swollen lips a few more times not wanting to let this feeling end. "I don't know if I can do this. Part of me wants to but a bigger part of me is too scared." I say softly.
"I know I fucked up a lot in the past but I'm not that guy anymore. Rachel you and our son make me want to be better. I use too think that you were just some crazy diva midget gleek but you're so much more than that. You're the mother of my son and I want to be the man I know I can be for the both of you if you would just let me try."He says baring his heart and soul to me. "Please just let me try. I know I don't deserve this chance but I'll do whatever it takes to prove I'm not a lima loser." He says his piercing hazel eyes pleading with me.
"I don't know. I think we just need to be friends and think of our son. Adding a relationship to this right now will just complicate things further. I'm not saying no, I'm just saying not right now." I say honestly hoping he'll understand. "Ok. I'll take that for now." He says a little reluctantly. "Thank you." I say and place a soft kiss on his lips. Lately it's not unusual for us to kiss lightly or hold hands. I just think we both need to feel affection and to be wanted and it's nice. "Come on Berry I'll take you to the mall. We can get you some pregnant lady clothes." He says with a smirk. He tosses on a shirt and I pull on a pair of sweats because it's the only thing I can fit now.
So far I've managed to keep my pregnancy a secret by explaining my recent weight gain on stress and wearing Noah's letterman jacket to cover my growing bump. So far no one has realized that I live with Noah. We've been keeping things low key but now that I have to wear maternity clothes it's going to be obvious that I'm with child.
Twenty minutes later we pull into the parking lot of the mall. We head straight to the Motherhood Maternity store. I look around and I feel so overwhelmed. The sales lady is nice and helps me choose several items that I'll be able to wear through the rest of my pregnancy. Noah just sits in a chair by the dressing room looking extremely bored. I finish trying on the clothes and take my final selections to the cashier.
"Don't worry Rach, I got this." Noah says pulling out his wallet. "Noah, I can pay. I have money saved up." I say watching as he hands the woman a wad of cash. "Just let me do this Berry." He says with smile, a real smile and not one of his smirks. "Ok." I say grabbing my purchases. We grab a quick bite to eat from the food court and talk a little. We walk around window shopping for a little while. We pass by a children's store and I can't help but stop and stare. I look at all the little blue clothes and my heart just clenches at the thought of never getting to buy our little boy these things.
"I want to keep him." I say running my fingers over the tiny blue sweater on the table. "Are you sure Rach? I…I want him too if that's what you want." Noah says placing his hand on my slightly swollen belly. I place my hand over his and I nod my head. We both smile at each other and I know things will be ok. We walk around the store looking at all the cute little outfits. I decide to buy a white sweater vest with a blue and yellow argyle print on it, a pair of tiny khaki pants and a blue short sleeved oxford shirt.
"Seriously Berry? You're trying to make our kid into a miniature version of you." Noah says with a smirk. "What? This is a very cute outfit for him and practical as well." I say with fake pout. He just laughs at me. "Fine but I'm getting this for him too." He says holding up a pair of dark denim cargo pants and a black t-shirt with white lettering that says 'If you think I'm cute, you should see my dad' on the front. I can't help but smile at the smug look on his face. I just roll my eyes at him and nod my head yes.
We make our purchases and head to the car. I feel a little better now that we have made a decision. I just hope we know what we are getting into. We get back to Noah's just in time to show his mom the stuff we bought before she heads out to work. She's thrilled that we decided to keep the baby. She didn't like the idea of strangers raising her grandson. I decide to do some homework while Noah and his sister watch tv. I flip open Noah's laptop and check my e-mails. There's nothing but a bunch of junk except one e-mail. I click on it and a picture of Noah and me in front of the children's store with his hand on my belly pops up. Under the pic is the caption 'Puck popped Berry's cherry and now baby makes three'.
My stomach drops. I look and see that it's been forwarded to practically everyone in school even all the glee members. I just sit there stunned in my place. How did this happen? Who saw us at the mall? It seems the cat is out the bag and tomorrow at school everyone is going to know. This is not how I wanted my friends to find out. My stomach is turning and I rush to the bathroom and vomit. Noah follows me in and holds my hair back. He rubs my back soothingly but all I do is cry.
"Rach are you ok? What's wrong?" He asks his hazel eyes full of concern. I get up and sit him in front of the laptop. He looks at the screen and I can see his jaw clench tight and his hands ball into fists. "I promise I'm going to find out who did this and make them wish that they minded their own fucking business." He says low and dangerously. Usually I'm not a vengeful person but I'm hormonal and pissed so I just agree with him. I lay on his...I mean our bed and curl up on my side. He slides in next to me and places his hand protectively on my bump. "Don't worry Berry; I'll be by your side tomorrow. No one's going to mess with you." He says sleepily and I just nod my head. I let his calming scent of oranges and rain lull me to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
A/N: Please Review. Next up the glee club have a few things to say about Puck and Rachel. Who took the picture? Will him or her get what's coming to them?
