2 Months Later.
"Benson."
"Hi Liv!"
"Hey! How's college??"
"Good, Dickie and I love it."
"That's great! Look sweetie, I'm a little busy, how about I call you later??"
"Okay, Love you."
"Love you too sweetheart, tell Dick I love him too!"
"Okay, bye."
Casey, Alex, and I were at lunch.
"So, spill, how's the sex?" Casey prodded. Of course, she's a lawyer.
"CASEY!"
"What? We want to know." Alex chimed in. These girls were going to drive me insane.
"Does mind-blowing, heart-pounding, mouth-watering, cover it?"
"Uh, yeah. I think so." Casey smiled.
"Good. Hey, I really need to get back to the 1-6. See you guys later."
"But Liv, you haven't touched your food." Alex raised an eyebrow.
"Uh, yeah, I'm not feeling really good…" Before I could finish my sentence, my stomach churned and I covered my mouth and made a run for the bathroom.
"What the fuck?" Casey grabbed Alex's arm and chased after me. I got to the stall just in time, and the girls walked in, Alex holding my hair out of my face.
"What was that about?" Casey asked.
"Oh, I don't know. I think I might have a bug or something. It's been going on for about two weeks now. No biggie."
"Olivia, two weeks? Oh my god, when's the last time you we on your period?"
All of the color must have drained from my face because Alex placed a hand on my shoulder to make sure I didn't pass out.
"Oh shit. About two months, and we were drunk, it was the night after the NYPD dance."
Casey grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the bathroom, with Alex in pursuit. A million things were going through my head. Elliot was going to kill me. He already has four kids. Oh god. I can't raise a child. I don't have anyone to look up to. Fuck. What do I do now?
We walk into the drug store and head straight to the back. Casey studies the pregnancy tests before her, deciding on the most expensive, and she grabs three.
"Casey, I can't afford that."
"No one said you had too. " She just smiled. Damn her for having money. Not that I was poor, I just wouldn't have gotten the most expensive.
We pull up to Alex's apartment, which is far nicer than mine, and we all take off our shoes. They follow me to the bathroom and shut the door behind us.
"I don't need an audience." I just smile. They are more anxious than I am. Maybe a baby won't be so bad.
I take all three tests, and we walk out of the bathroom. Those three minutes dragged on forever, none of us saying anything.
"You go, I can't look." I tell Alex and Casey.
They practically run to the bathroom.
I sit there for what seems like an eternity. So many questions running through my mind. I know I am not ready to be a mother. What is Elliot going to say? I know I love Elliot with all of my heart, and I know he loves me, but a baby? A baby will change everything. What's Cragen going to say? He will have my badge so fast. If he doesn't take my badge hill put me on ass duty, neither of which I want. Shit what about the other kids? And Kathy? This will add fuel to the fire. The ink is barely dry on the divorce papers, and I'm already pregnant? God, what the fuck is taking them so long? It feels like I have been sitting here for a year. I hear a gasp from the bathroom. This cannot be good....
"Liv," Alex calls in a shaky voice, "Congratulations."
The walls started spinning, I could faintly hear Casey calling for help, everything went black,
I hit the deck.
