i am not cassandra clare and am just having fun.
sorry for the long wait for thouse who have been reading this, been busy lol. but if you r&r more then it will make me want to finish faster. please enjoy. oh yea the lemon with be in the next chapter just so you know.
As they lay there on the bed all clary could think about was what he just had told her how could he be willing to follow her if that meant no fighting no killing. that was everything to jace. she looked up at him then and saw the love in his eyes. she could not be this selfish she knew he loved her but he would be unhappy in the long run what had dorothea said " you will fall in love with the wrong person" clary had to try everything in her power not to be the wrong person for jace it would kill her to hurt him. reaching her hand up to move a golden lock from his hair she spoke softly telling him instantly she was done crying and now it was time to be sirius.
"jace ... has the clave contacted you its only a few months before you are ready?
jace hardened his expression and looked down at her with peircing eyes.
"yes they have i will be here helping with alec marsey and robert are getting older and have been ordered just to take care of the peice not to hunt"
"i see" clary said as she looked back down she had of course expected this alec and jace were parbettia. they would fight forever side by side. keeping her gaze down she could feel the tears starting to form again and not wanting jace to see her cry more decided to not think about her leaving and him staying here. it hadn't happened yet she was still in training. why worry her self about all that now. "well that's good you get to stay with your family"
"i hope..." with that clary looked up his eyes looked distant again. think back on something. probably the same things she was but she decided to press the subject more she didn't like not knowing what was on jaces mind.
" you hope what"
" well clary your everything in my life. since the day you walked in to the storage closet and into my life. you know that and i am afraid that your not going to get to stay and of course i will fallow you to the end of the world if you led me there but. ...well any way one way or the other ...we cant be sure because you haven't been contacted with what they want but....i feel one way or the other i will be with out some family."
clary didnt know what to say she didn't want to take jace away from his family didn't want to take him away from the fighting but she didn't want to be with out him either maybe there was some way around this. with that she had a revelation.
"when the clave come to call i will tell them what i need to tell them that i am fine working here and that this is were i want to be. now all you have to do is not go easy on my in training and beat the crap out of me ...kinda ... that way i will be able to show them i am best served here."
"clary .....don't"
"don't what"
"don't aggravate the clave please...don't you think we have an enough run in with them."
"jace... oh forget it i don't want to fight with you.. did you say that we could have the day off is that what i herd you tel iz"
"yess....why"
"lets go out ...just you and me"
"i was comfortable staying in you know....just like we are"
clary looked at jace being comfortable and laid back on her bed. her eyes swept over him admiring ever curve on his face and ever rippled line in his shirt that was clinging to his body. and gave a sigh she wanted nothing more then to just love on him as well. be content in laying together and holding each other. she didn't think she would ever tier of it. reaching her hand back up to his face and snuggling her head on to his shoulder she twisted a lock of golden hair in her hand and said
"do you mind if i sleep for just a few more min then" it was still early and with no training she was still sleepy plus she had be crying and that took a lot out of her anyway
"yes my love sleep away i could use a nap my self ....got to get my beauty rest you know ....i don't look like this just out of good grooming... but shhhh don't tell any one"
with that clary gave a giggle and nuzzeled up closer to him.
jace leaned his head down and kissed the top of her head. and watched as she drifted out to sleep.
