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Chapter 5

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Anthony's Pov

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"What are you doing answering my mother's phone?" I asked quite pissed.

"She called me because she needed someone to hunt with," he replied trying to sound casual but something was telling me that he was lying.

"Is she there? I need to speak with her," I said.

"Sure let me get her." he said.

I waited patiently for her to come to the phone. 5 seconds later I heard her musical voice.

"What's wrong Anthony? Are you guys ok? Did something happen?" her voice full of worry and confusion.

"Nothing is wrong Mom. Just called because I missed you." I told her trying to hide my anxiety. She said nothing

I couldn't help but think how she was before we left. I wanted to know. Her, being a shield wasn't the easiest part. Even though I was able to hear her mind, when she shut down I was blind, deaf.

"Mom are you ok? Do you want me to come home?" I said knowing that I sounded desperate.

"No honey I'm fine" she replied to quickly.

"Mom, I thought you were going to work?" I asked

"I am, I just needed to hunt and didn't want to go alone. Please don't worry and enjoy your vacation."

She was trying to get off the phone.

"Your right Mom. If you need anything at all call me and I'll be on the first plane. I love you and I miss you," I said

"I love you too honey. Give your sisters a hug and a kiss from me" she said in a loving tone.

"I will. Bye mom" I said in a whisper

"Bye baby." She said and hung up.

There was definitely something wrong. I made the decision of calling her at least three times a day so she wouldn't miss us that much. After of what it seemed hours of thinking I fell asleep.

"Wakey! Wakey!" Nessie and Carlie yelled while they jumped up and down on my bed.

"Come on guys! We are on vacations for crying out loud! Why are you waking me up so early?" I complained covering my head with the comforter...

"We have to eat breakfast before we go to First Beach for cliff diving. Jake called Seth and he's on way here," Nessie answered still bouncing on my bed.

"Alright, let me get ready and meet you girls in the kitchen"

I got up and did my morning routine. I put on my black swimming trunks with my black sandals. I got my towel, sunglass and my iPod. I really didn't need anything else. Being a Halfling, sun block was out of the question and we didn't sparkle like full vampires. I made my way down stairs but first I went to check on the girls.

"Nessie, Carlie are you guys ready?" I asked from the opposite side of the door.

"Yes, we are nearly done. Give us a minute," Nessie replied.

"We will meet you down stairs" Carlie added.

I made my way downstairs. Billy was at Sam Uley's house. Jake and Seth were in then kitchen already eating breakfast.

"Good Morning, guys. What are the plans for today?" I asked

"We are going to the beach, then cliff diving and tonight there is going to be a bon fire" Jake said while stuffing his mouth with food.

"Where are the girls?" Seth asked following Jakes action.

"They are still upstairs getting ready. They shouldn't be to long," I said as I went to fix myself a plate of food.

"Nessie, Angel come on! We've got to get moving!" Seth called up to them from the bottom of the stairs.

"Seth, you can not rush perfection!" Carlie said irritated.

"Seth if you are going to rush us will just need more time to get ready," Nessie responded in a snobbish tone.

"Guy if you don't want to get on their bad side, I suggest you let them finish when they finish. BELIEVE me I learned my lesson the hard way." I said, remembering that dreadful day back when we were 15 years old.

"Nessie! Carlie! Get your asses down here! I refused to be late because of you."

I was pissed it was the first day of school and I didn't want to be late.

"What the HELL did you just say Anthony Xavier?" Nessie was down the stairs and yelling in my face.

"You heard what I said! Hurry the hell up. NOW!!" I was inches from her face.

"You better apologize right now or else..." Carlie came storming down the stairs. She stood next to Nessie sending me evil glares.

"You think you two could scare me? I'm a MAN! I don't GET scared easily." I said in a nonchalant tone.

"Really? Will see about that!" they answered in unison.

We got to school just in time and thank we went back home in no time. I was talking with Mom about my first day in school when all of a sudden I heard a loud bang.

When I got outside, I saw that my dear sisters had taken my laptop and threw it with all their strength to my car. I was livid. They saw my reaction and continued by throwing my stereo as well. I looked up to my window to see them snickering.

"Let that be a lesson to you Anthony Xavier Swan. That would be your first and last time you rushed us," Nessie said.

"MOM!!! Look at what they did." I growled.

I was beyond pissed at that point.

Mom saw the damage that was done and although I felt her anger she tried to remain calm.

"Girls the repair for you brother's car will come out of your allowance."

I hid behind my Mom pointing and laughing at them. Bad move. They took my favorite pair of jeans shred it to tiny pieces and through them out of the window like confetti. After that I never rushed them again. Like the saying goes: Payback is a bitch.

"What happened?" Seth asked.

"Let's just say I wasn't able to drive me car for weeks."

Jacob and Seth eyes wided as I told them the story.

"Angel, we will wait for you outside. Take your time sweetheart," Seth spoke in a soothing voice

"Nessie, honey when ever you ready we can leave" Jake was also trying to sooth Nessie.

I heard them both laughing out loud. We went up front and waited for the girls. I decided to call mom and tell her our plans for today.

"Hello, Anthony how are you?" she asked.

"Great Mom. Billy has been the best host." I said staring at the woods.

"How are you and your sisters enjoying yourselves so far?" she asked.

"Great Mom. We had dinner with Grandpa Charlie and Grandma Sue. We are waiting for the girls to come in order to go to La Push for swimming and cliff diving," I said.

"That's sounds great honey. Where are Renesmee and Carlie?" she asked but from the sound of her voice she sounded distracted.

"There inside finishing breakfast."

"OK, tell them I send my love. I have to get inside the hospital now. My shift starts in 5 minutes. I love you"

"Love you to mom. Bye!"

"Bye baby" she said and hung up rather quickly

"That was weird "I whispered to myself.

Jake must have seen my expression and approached me. "What's going on Anthony?" he asked. Jake called my Anthony when he wanted to be serious and that wasn't very frequent.

"Nothing is wrong." I said in a calm tone. "Mom had to get to work. Come on lets go have some fun."

Eventually the girls finished and finally came outside. We were walking to the beach since it was really near by. We get up the blanket on the soft brown sand. It felt like walking on sugar it just clung to you.

The water was warm. I submerged and looked at the fishes swimming by. There where also beautiful eagle stingrays, schools of fishes and a pod of killer whales. I was lost in the beauty of the different colors and didn't realize that Nessie and Carlie had joined me. They swam next to me. My sisters wanted to resurface but I shook my head no. I just wanted to keep swimming. Soon after we discovered an underwater cave about 15 miles out from shore and 5 miles beneath the surface.

"Oh my god, it's so magnificent Anthony," Nessie said and got lost in the beauty of the caves.

"Look at all the different walls look like they were embedded with different colors of diamonds," Carlie said as she was stroking her hand along the walls. The water was a crystal color of green and blue. The ceiling looked like rock formed isles and water dripped from above.

"Listen" I told them. We heard what sounded like a waterfall. Nature can create some of the most beautiful things in the world. It was a place filled with magic a place right out of a story book. Nessie and Carlie wondered in one of many tunnels the cave had.

"Guys I'll be right back. I'm going to get Jake and Seth" Nessie said and dove into the water. She will be able to find it again. All she had to do was to follow our scents. Carlie and I sat down with our feet in the water. The water running from the water filled the cave and it was like a relaxing lullaby. The cave was filled with a magical sound that the wave plops made. It sounded like a small lullaby.

"Anthony can I ask you something?" she asked as she was slashing her feet in the water.

"Of course, what is it?" I asked a little surprised. Carlie and Nessie weren't comfortable in starting a conversation.

"I want to talk about Mom and Dad. I've been…" she started but I cut her off.

"Carlie please. We are here to relax and have fun. Can we talk about it another time? Please." I said without a hint of anger.

"No. The last time we ever talked about it was when we were 10. And we are 19 Antony. Please just let me talk. Poor Seth is the only one that hears me and tries to guide me but it's not enough. He is my soulmate. He is not my sibling. I NEED to know what you think," she said and she was right.

"Ok, Carlie. Let's talk," I said.

"I've been thinking a lot lately. I was wondering if he knew about us would things be different?"

I could hear the sadness in her voice. Carlie had a mind of her own when our father was concerned. Yes she was angry, but she loved him deeply. And her love was stronger than her anger.

"I don't know maybe. But that doesn't change the fact that he left her Carlie. You did NOT see the emptiness, the darkness and hurt in her mind. I've seen it and felt it" I cried reliving our mother's nightmare

"I want to know. He loved her enough to make love to her. You can't fake feeling like that. I think there is more, something that we do not know."

Carlie has always wondered about out father. If we would have been a real family if he knew about us. If he would teach me how to play baseball, if he would have loved her enough to overpass the fact that Seth is a werewolf.

"I'm sorry Carlie I don't think I can talk about this. I don't want you to feel any of the hurt that Mom felt. I will not allow anyone hurting either of you or make you feel like that. Even if it's the last thing I'll ever do."

As I looked up a drop of water fell on my cheek. I looked over to Carlie and realized that she was silently crying .

"Angel don't cry. I would never allow anything to hurt you or Nessie" I held her tight to me.

"I know that. I was just thinking that I want mom to be happy. I know how it is to love with every fiber of your being. I love Seth. He completes me and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I just want the same things for her," she finally said as her sobs started to quite. I didn't know what to say I haven't experienced that myself and Carlie and Nessie have.

"We all want that for her but she has to want it for herself. We can't keep pushing her to be happy. When we do it just push her closer to HIM." I was getting upset by this point. I just want to forget everything. Carlie could hear it in my tone that I wanted this conversation to end.

"You know what Antony. You can lie to me as much as you want. You can lie to anyone. But there is nothing worse than lying to yourself. I know you think of him. I know you love him. I know you miss him. I heard you Anthony sleeptalking. I heard you telling him you loved him and that you always did."

SHIT!

"SO DON'T YOU DARE lie to again about your feelings!"

"Carlie…"

"I am done talking."

Seconds later Nessie came back with Jake and Seth in tow. When they got out of the water they look around in awe.

"Jake you have never been here before?" I ask out of curiosity.

"No I didn't know places like this could exist" he said and wrapped his arms around Nessie's waist pressing her back to his chest. Seth sat next to Carlie with his feet in the water.

"It's so beautiful here," Nessie said in a low voice

"Not as beautiful as you," Jake whispered into her hair. She turned around and kissed him passionately.

"Angel, Are you ok sweetie?" Seth asked his voiced layer with concern.

"I'm fine Seth," she turned and kissed on the lips sweetly.

He turned and looked at me.

You talked about Edward, didn't you?

I sighed and nod.

Open up kid. Do not hide yourself… he said and returned his attention back to Carlie.

"Oh come on! Lets go diving. I don't want to watch this all day." I waved my hands toward the loving couples. Sometimes I felt like the fifth wheel.

"Yeah" Jakes was rolling his eyes.

We dove into the water. We swam side by side together. It was like the rainbow had exploded under the water. The corals were bright with all shades of color. There were colors that had no name. We discover animals that have never been seen by human eyes. The deeper we went the more the colors became vibrant. We stayed in the caves longer then we intended to no one wanted to leave but it was getting close to lunch time and all the swimming build up our appetite. We left the caves after exploring all the tunnels.

We got to the beach we dried ourselves and made our way to the hotdog stand next to the beach. Jake and Seth had like ten each followed by a large order of fries and drink. Nessie, Carlie and I only has two each with small fries and drink. We walked down the beach and the "couples" went into the water while I made my way to the cliffs. I looked down and it was over one hundred feet high. I took a few steps back and ran forward and fling myself into the air.

It felt exhilarating like I was free from all the care in to world. My head hit the surface of the water and it stung my eyes a little as I had forgot to close them when I got into the water. I swam up to the top break the surface. Nessie was on Jake's shoulders and Carlie was on Seth's and they where playing chicken. That's one you try to drop you opponent in the water be pushing them off the shoulder of the person carrying them.

It was getting late and we had to get ready for the bonfire tonight. We picked up all our stuff and headed home to get ready. I took a shower and got dressed in some jeans and a dark blue shirt. I went downstairs and waited for the girls. They came to the top of the staircase. Nessie wore a nice yellow sundress and Carlie wore a green dress to match her eyes. They are both so beautiful.

"Wow! Nessie, Carlie you look beautiful." I said

"Thank you Anthony" they answered in unison as they walked down the stair holding hands. We made our way outside to Jake and Seth who were at the car waiting for us.

"You look absolutely breathtaking Angel" Seth rushed to Carlie's side and helped her in the truck.

"Thank you honey," she whispered in his ear as he backed away

"Nessie you look so amazing" Jake wrapped his arms around Nessie's, picked her up and placed her in the passenger seat. I got in the back seat with Seth and Carlie she was snuggled into his chest. I stared out the window and let my thoughts drift to my conversation with Carlie. I would have to apologize to her for being rude. That was never my intention. Maybe she was right. Maybe I was lying to myself. Maybe by believing I did not love my father then the feeling of neglection and abandonment would minimize.

"Hey Carlie, can I talk to you for a second?" I said as she lifted her head and our eyes met.

"Seth honey, give me a minute to talk to my brother." She gave him a kiss on the lips and you can see the love and tenderness behind it.

"Carlie, I just wanted to say sorry about earlier. I did not mean to disrespect you like that. It's just the subject of Mom and our so called father is very…..touchy." I was looking down to the ground avoiding her eyes. She came up to me and wrapped arms my back and gave me a kiss on my cheek.

"Anthony I understand. You have had full access to moms mind something we can't do. I shouldn't have asked I'm sorry. I just wish you would stop hiding." She said and hugged me tighter.

"Ok, now lets go and show these wolves how to have fun."

We ran to the cliffs hand in hand. Nessie glanced up from Jake's lap and look as us with questionable eyes. I shook my head at her. I let go of Carlie and she ran to Seth were he was waiting with open arms. The whole pack was there. Expect Leah who was on patrol. She really didn't like us but put up with us because of Jake and mainly Seth. See Seth is Leah's little brother and when he joined the pack she was overly protective of him. When he imprinted on Carlie, she became his everything so he didn't really need her protection anymore because he became a protector.

The fire was a brilliant blue, green, purple and red color. It you looked long enough you can see images form in the smoke. I saw an Indian woman riding a wolf bare back. It was mesmerizing. The elders were all here too. Old Quil, Grandma Sue, Billy and now Jacob. Being the true alpha he is the chief of the whole tribe. They told their heritage and how the Quileutte people came to be. As they told there story you can actually see the story manifest itself in the fire. The magic surrounded us at cliff face. I was lost in the story. After we heard all the stories I got up and walked to the edge of the cliff and asked the heavens the only question that burned my soul even though I did not want to admit it in front of others…

"Will I ever get to know my father?"


A/N :

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