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Chapter 6

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~*Bella's POV*~

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There was a knock at the door. I knew who it was. I tried to compose my self as much as possible and failed miserably. I didn't have the strength to answer the door so I called out to him.

"Come in Uriel" I said lying on the couch still sobbing uncontrollably.

"Oh my god, Bella what's wrong? Tell me!!" he pleaded with me as he came and got to the couch in less then a second. He sat next to me, I put my head on his lap and he started stroking my hair.

"I miss him so much. I don't know how I went this long with out his touch, hearing his voice or the sweet smell of his breath. How can I live without my soul?" I sobbed so hard that I wonder if vampires can get headaches.

"Bella, Bella please don't do this to yourself think about the kids they need you. I need you! I have been with you for 14 years and this hasn't gotten any easier for you. Please I'm begging for your kids as well for yourself let him go," he said while he continued stroking my hair and wiping the unshed tears from my face.

"You don't think I have? Do you think it's easy for me when I have to see Carlie everyday? She is the exact replica of Edward. I see him everyday in her as well as Anthony and Renesmee." I was now sitting up. I rested my chin on my knees as I desperately tried to hold myself together.

"You don't understand. He was my world; he completed me in everyway. I can not function with out him. When HE left me, he promised me no reminders of himself and looking at my children I see him every day. Even if I did not have them, my heart wins over my mind all the time Uriel. His angelic face haunts my every thought. My mind is screaming to forget him; move on but my heart has a mind of her own. She just holds on with everything she has. " I continued the tears with no sign of stopping.

"Bella I do understand. Don't forget I have always been here for you, never once have I said no. This hurts me as well as I have to sit here and wipe your tears away," he said as he pulled me on his lap and held me tight in his embrace. He was right he has always been there for me. I will always be grateful for that but he never understood the depth of our love.

"I know and I'm sorry. I don't know if I will ever be the same. It just feels wrong not being with him. When he left he took all that I am," I said fighting back more tears. He cupped my face with his hands and looked straight into my eyes as he spoke.

"I know how it is to want to be with someone when their heart belongs to someone else. Sometime you let that cloud your vision and you can't see when someone good is standing in front of you, who wants to protect you and take away your pain." I had a feeling he wasn't talking about me. I turned my face away and stared at the wall behind him. I could not betray my heart. It belonged to Edward and Edward alone. Even if he never wanted me I will be his for eternity.

"I can't," I said in a soft whisper avoiding his gaze.

"You don't know if you don't try," he answered back and leaned in closer. Our faces were inches apart. I saw everything I had once seen in Edwards eyes.

"Please, I can't hurt you. I can't be with you in the way you deserve. I can't give you myself when I belong to someone else. Even if he never wants me I will forever be his. If I am damned to walk this earth alone, then I will" I said closing my eyes.

"NO! You have a choice Bella but you have to open your eyes. I have been here all along and I promise I'm not going anywhere" he said with a stern voice.

"I know but I just can't. You have to understand he is more than just my soul mate. There are no words that can even begin to explain the depth of our connection. Look at what our love created. The most heavenly creatures to walk this earth: my children," I sighed pointing to a family portrait in the living room. He can never truly understand what Edward had done for me. He bought me to life. I was in a world where no one could reach me. Passing my days taking care of those around me; never once putting myself first. He reached out to me and taught me to love and live my life to the fullest.

"I understand I really do. I just want you to see things through my eyes," he said and pulled me closer to him again. I could not meet his gaze. I pulled back against his hold.

"Bella, I want to be with you. I want the chance to open your heart and make you feel the way you deserve. You are a phenomenal woman and mother. I want to fill that emptiness you have with the love that I have for you. Why can't you let me in and at least try to mend your broken heart?" he asked with misery in his voice. Why was he doing this to me?

"No matter how much you try you're not him. I'm sorry but that will never change," I backed away and got up from the couch. I needed to escape the conversation.

"I have to get ready for work. I will speak with you later." I was starting to make my way upstairs when he grabbed me by the hand to stop me.

"I love you Bella! That will never change like I said before. I'm not going anywhere!" he said in a challenging tone.

"Ok" was all I said. I was starting to feel uneasy. I always knew how he felt but this was the first time he admitted it to me. I didn't know how to react. Uriel had been my friend for 14 years. He has always been there for me when ever I needed him. He was my safe harbor just like Jake was.

I went into my bedroom to get my uniform. I took out my Tinker Bell scrubs. I would never admit this but it reminded me of Alice. I laid out my uniform with my undergarments and a necklace with a heart shaped locket I always wore. It was white gold with a photo of me and the kids. I also had a bracelet that had 3 gold charms. Each charmed was engrave with the kids name and date of birth. I only took it off when I was at home cleaning. I stood in the middle of my room and looked at all the pictures that covered my walls. There were pictures of the kids and me at different places. Pictures of my human family and my wolf protectors as well. My favorite had to be the one were the kids and I had a water balloon fight. I started to wonder how my life would've turn out if Edward and I never made love in our meadow, if he just left without giving me my most precious gifts. Our lovemaking moment was my most cherished memory of us. I started to think about that day and how totally bless I was.

(WARNING LEMON)

It was my birthday. I got up and got ready for school. I showered straighten my hair and got dressed. I wore a royal blue button down shirt with a black knee high skirt that Alice had given me the previous day so I could wear it today. I made my way downstairs for breakfast and saw that Charlie had already left for work. I rushed outside knowing that Edward would be waiting for me. When I locked up the house and turned around, I saw Edward in all his glory leaning against the passenger side of the car and in his hand was a bag. I sighed knowing full well he went overboard after I told him not to. I ran up to him throw my hands around his neck and kissed him with as much passion I could muster reveling in the fact that this handsome Greek god was mine.

"Good morning love, happy birthday my sweet," he said in his most dazzling voice. I melted into his embrace as he hugged me to him.

"Good morning, my Angel" I said as I kissed his neck sending shivers through him that I could feel against my body. I never knew I could affect him the way he affected me.

"What's in the bag?" I asked.

"Open it and take a look." He gave me his most angelic smile. I started to float up toward heaven. He placed the bag in my hand. I opened the bag and started laughing.

"Oh My God, this is the cutest thing ever," I said in between giggles. He gave be a devil teddy with fangs that read: "I belong to you." I had to admit I loved it. I gave him a light peck and my lips were filled with nothing but devotion.

"I'm glad you like it. This is just the beginning of your surprise," he said, with a devilish smile. I looked at him in wonder. What else could he have planned?

"Edward, thank you but I really don't need anything. I already have all I ever dreamed and more," I said now cuddling the teddy bear in my arms.

"I promise this is something that is beyond your dreams," he said, stepping forward to open the passenger door. There on the seat was a picnic basket. I turned to look at him and he shook his head at me. I have learned to never argue with him because in the end he always got what he wanted.

"Ok, do I get to at least hear the surprise?" I knew the answer before I asked.

"No. If I told you it would not be a surprise," he simply stated. He got in the driver side of the car and reached into his pocket and pulled out a blindfold.

"What…" I started to ask, but was cut off quickly.

"Turn around I don't want you to peek," he said holding back a chuckle when he saw the expression on my face. I huffed and did as he asked.

"What about school? We can't be late and Charlie will kill me if he finds out I skipped," I asked, trying to get out of whatever he had planed.

"All taken care of…no worries. I promise Charlie will never find out. Now, behave yourself and let me do this for you." I could hear the smile on his face. We drove in silence. It wasn't bad; I enjoyed moments like this just sitting listening to music. We hand our hands intertwined together.

The car stopped and Edward turned off the car and was at my door before I even took in a breath. He picked me up with one hand cradling me to his side and took the picnic basket with the other.

"Don't I get to see?" I asked with a hint of annoyance.

"No, patience my love. In due time you will be rewarded." I sighed and just decided that I was not going to ruin this for either of us.

I could feel him running through the forest. Then he stopped, put me down on what felt like an uprooted tree. The excitement was building in the pit of my stomach, threatening to engulf my body. I waited for what felt like eternity. Shortly after, Edward came by my side and placed me on my feet. He stood behind me and I could feel every muscle of his align with my back as he pressed himself against me. New sensations start to rise from somewhere unexpected. He took off the blind fold and my mouth fell to the floor.

"Edward, How?" I turned to look him into his topaz eyes.

"Do you like it?" he asked eagerly. I was speechless.

We were in our meadow. He had a blanket covered with rose pedals in so many different colors. The flowers were all in bloom. At that moment, the sun broke through the clouds and beamed right down onto the blanket. It looks like an invitation to heaven. I looked at him and still could not speak.

I took his and hand and led him to the blanket where one single rose interlaced with red and white sat. I finally found my voice.

"It's enchanting," was all I can say.

"I just wanted to ….." he began. I cut him off with a kiss to his lips.

"Shhh…" I started kissing him again. I took my hands and started to caress his chest. He gently grabbed my hands to stop me. I looked at him with all the love I hand and said one word.

"Please." With that he started to kiss me back as his hands made their way to the top button of my blouse. He slowly unbuttoned my shirt as I began unbuttoning his. He picked me up not breaking the kiss and laid me down on the blanket.

He pulled back to look into my eyes. I wondered what he saw because it looked like he was dazzled. He hovered over my body not putting his weight on me. I ran my hands on his bare back. He reached over my head and picked up the rose. He began to move the rose from my lips to my neck down to the valley of my breasts. Where the rose went his lips soon followed. I let out a gasp. He got to my navel and started to plant butterfly kisses.

He gently took off my skirt and slid it off. I sat up and unzipped his pants and marveled as he let me take them off of him. We were both in our under garments. I reach over and took his boxers off. I had never been this brave before. What had gotten into me? I was pulled out of my thoughts when I felt Edwards's hands unclasp my bra. He was starting to kiss my shoulders as one strap at a time came sliding down my shoulders. Still with the rose in his hand, he pushed me gently backward to lie back down on the blanket. It felt like I was on a cloud layered with happiness and bliss.

Edward took the rose and started again caressing my body with it. He took my breast in his mouth and started sucking and licking my nipple. I let out a moan of ecstasy. I felt his actions down to the center of my core. I was starting to get aroused. While he was sucking my nipples, he took the rose and traced it down south. He started to rub my core with the rose. I was at my breaking point; I wanted him in me.

"Edward, I want you. Please make love to me," I was gasping for air.

"In time, love. I want to show you how much I love you. This will be for your pleasure." He was now tracing his tongue down my stomach and around my navel. He stopped looked up at me and his eyes were black filled with nothing but pure lust and passion. I'm sure he could read the same in mine. He took my leg, put in on his shoulder as he knelt between my legs. He had once again taken the rose and placed on my leg while making his way to my core. I was clutching the blanket with anticipation. He finally put the rose down along with my leg. He open my legs so his face was now at my center, looked up as me and wiggled his eyebrows at me. I could feel my face blush ten thousand shade of red.

"You smell intoxicating," he moaned against my thigh, planting more kisses and licking small circles. He slow moved his hands to my hips and squeezed with enough pressure to make me yelp in pleasure. Then he slid my panties off. We were both naked at this point and I could not keep my eyes off his perfection (flawless was more like it). I sat up on my elbows, took my legs and wrapped them around him. I could feel his hard erection against me and I started to grind against him, waiting for him to enter, but he pulled back and stared at me.

"No, No, No…" he said taking his finger and gesturing a no from side to side with an evil grin.

That was it. I want to make love to him so badly that my body just couldn't wait for his. He came up and kissed me licked my lower lip asking for entrance. I open and invited him in to explore my mouth. Our tongues started fighting for domination; I won. I think he let me win. He kissed across my jaw line up to my ear where he proceeded to nibble on it causing me to reach my hands up into his hair and pull as hard as I could. He began to moan and growl. Then he came back down to my jaw, down my neck to the valley of my breasts. His hands worked squeezing my breasts while his fingers pinch my nipples. His hands started to move down south and my body was shaking with anticipation. My center was so wet that I could feel it dripping onto his finger. He was rubbing my clit with his thumb in small circles. Shortly after, his mouth replaced his finger and it was ecstasy. He carefully entered my center with his fingers, thrusting in and out at a slow pace. I started to move my hips with every thrust, telling him I wanted it hard and rough. I gasped as he entered with two fingers. The coldness of his fingers made my body shiver. He spent just the right amount of time making me cum all over his fingers. When he was finished, he looked up at me and licked his fingers.

"Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm………….My God, Bella, you taste divine." He now hovered over me. He leaned down to kiss me. I could taste myself on his tongue.

His hard erection was at the entrance of my center and I felt the tip starting to enter me. He was as careful as ever. He entered me completely and was immediately hitting my g-spot. I screamed in pleasure and took my hands and grabbed his ass, making him growl as his thrusting intensified. Every time he slammed into me, I slammed back toward him on his cock. We both reached our climax at the same time and his final thrust made my center scream for more.

He lay on top of me keeping his weight on his arms. We stared into each other's eyes as he put his hand on my heart which was accelerating at lighting speed. We kissed each other tenderly. We lay there the rest of the day making love to each other.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard my phone ring and Uriel answered it.

"Hello, Anthony" he said. I panicked. Why was he calling me when he had spoken earlier? I rushed down starts not paying attention to the words being exchanged. I was beside Uriel and he handed me the phone.

"What's wrong Anthony? Are you guys ok? Did something happen?" my voice full of worry and confusion.

"Nothing is wrong Mom. Just called because I missed you." I could hear the anxiety in his voice. My Anthony always worried about me. It was a quick conversation.

I started to leave the house to go to work. Uriel was still there waiting for me at the door way.

"Good night Uriel, I will talk to you later," I said walking pass him. He went to grab my hand and I took it away before he had a grip on it.

"Just think about what I said and know that I won't give up on you. I will make you see that we are meant to be," he said, kissed me softly on the cheek.

"Uriel, he has an unbreakable claim on my heart, mind, body and soul. I do not want to be loved by anyone else apart from my Edward…" I said, looking at him straight in the eyes.

"We will see, honey," he said and then he left.

Sunday Morning

I was in my bedroom getting ready for work. I had been working a lot lately to keep my mind preoccupied. It was bizarre being home alone so I always found little things to do. I collected everything I would need and headed for a quick hunt. I got to the forest and started running deep in the woods. When I reached the spot I hunted mostly, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I tried to get the scents of my preys. I took down two deer and a mountain lion; Anthony's and Carlie's favorite. Nessie prefers grizzle bears just like my care bear brother. I smiled to myself thinking about the kids.

When I arrived in the parking lot of the hospital my phone started ringing. I knew who it was before I even looked for the caller's id.

"Good morning my ray of sunshine," I said in my most motherly tone.

"Hi Mom. How are you to today? Do you feel better?" Anthony asked. He will never change. He will never stop worrying about me… Just like him when we used to be together; my significant other, my Edward.

"I'm great baby, how is you vacation so far" I asked with as much enthusiasm as I could muster.

"Wonderful. Yesterday we found an under water cave. It was so enchanting, right out of a fairytale. I know you would've loved it."

I heard the excitement in his voice. I was so happy that he was enjoying his vacation. I missed them so much.

"Baby you sound like you're having a really good time," I said with much exhilaration in my voice.

"Yeah I am. We are on our way to Pop's to go fishing," he said

"Where are your sisters?" I asked him. I haven't really spoken with them. I know that they were making the best of there time with Jake and Seth. At first I was livid that not one but both of my girls got imprinted. In time I saw the love that bloomed before my eyes and I was content that they found true love.

"Here I'll let you talk to them," I heard him pass the phone to Carlie.

I spent a few minutes talking to both girls and they were telling me everything that had happened. I loved them so much. I would never get tired of saying it. After they finished they gave the phone back to Anthony.

"Bye baby. I love you so much Anthony. Take care of your sisters and yourself."

I felt like I was saying goodbye; like something was about to happen. I shook it off.

"Bye Mom. I love you," he replied and the call disconnected.

I stepped out of the car; walked to the passenger side to get my bag with my extra clothes so I could change later when my shift ended.

Everything happened so fast. I felt to warm strong arms one wrap around my waist the other over my mouth. I smelled the scent of three vampires. One seemed very familiar to me. Someone tied my legs from kicking violently and the other tied my hands. Who ever they were must have had this planned long ago and just waited for the right moment. I didn't have enough time to put my shield up before everything went black…


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