Chapter 7 You're So Not Over It...

Macy (yeah, that isn't a typo. :D It's time to focus on the girls' POV, too.)

"World, listen up! I love, love and freaking LOVE Kevin Lucas!"

Oh my God, did I just say that? I looked around. JONAS poster, JONAS poster, JONAS poster. Oh, a Delilah Stevens poster. And billions of other JONAS posters. Okay, that just had to be my room. So this was just a dream, I suppose? Yep, definitely. I was still lying in my warm and cosy bed, wearing my cute and warm pyjama and my alarm clock was singing "Keep It Real". Puh, thank God.

Oh I'd do anything if I could tell Kevin how much I love him. I'd kill for it, seriously. Okay that was a bit over the top. Let's get to the point: I love Kevin Lucas and it definitely is more than just a celebrity crush. It's the real deal. All inclusive. But I can't tell him that I love him and I never will. I finally got over fainting in front of him and nearly hurting him with random stuff so that we can be friends now but I just can't expect a JONAS to love me back. No freaking way. He'll never hold me in his arms, he'll never kiss me, he'll never.... okay, now that's a bit too much for a virgin, right?

Yep, I'm a virgin. I always wanted to save myself for a JONAS, back then when I was still fainting and hurting them with random stuff. But I've grown up, I'm realistic now. The only guy and JONAS I want is Kevin but we will never happen to be a couple. But dating someone else would be like lying to myself. I don't want anybody else, all I want is you, Kevin. With all my heart and soul. I guess I'll stay a virgin for the rest of my life. Maybe I should become a nun? Ah Macy, you're such a drama queen. You'll probably fall in love with someone else someday... just stay strong.

It's been 3 days since Delilah was on our school. 3 days since I'd found out that I'm not the only one who doesn't want to destroy a friendship because of that stupid thing called "love". No, I was not alone, Nick shared my misery.

Okay, now it seriously was about time to leave the house already! Aaaah, I was about to freak out! I got dressed, put some make up on and I was out the door. Damn, forgot to brush my teeth. I was so hoping that I didn't have morning breath. I went straight to Starbucks to get myself some coffin. I was lucky, there weren't too many customers today. Well I had to hurry loads to be on time for school though.

When I opened the door Nick, Joe and Kevin were just passing by. Holy cow! I wasn't prepared to talk to Kevin already! Ugh, too late. Kevin turned his head. "Hey there, Macy! You're a little late, right?" "Hey guys! Yep, I overslept." Well okay that was pretty close to the truth. Stella and Delilah joined us now, well Stella did, Delilah only passed by with some Starbucks in one hand, her cellphone in the other. She was only able to say: "Morning everybody. Nick, can I talk to you later? I so need your help for that biology project..."

"Sure, sure. See you in history." was all he answered her. Everybody was starring at him.

"See? I'm over her."

"Respect, bro." Well Joe bought his story but I could tell that he was lying. His brothers went straight to their lockers but Nick and I walked a bit slower.

I'd watched how all the happiness that seemed to be overwhelming him everytime Delilah smiled at him (yep, she flashed a smile when she said his name while she was passing by) disappeared while he was answering her, probably because he wanted to say something that sounded way more caring. Now he was looking all serious again, if not even depressed. I just couldn't help but walk faster so I wouldn't have to look at all this sadness anymore.

As I was passing by I also just had to say: "You're so not over her..."

He looked me in the eyes and I had my answer.