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Life Happens
I stood in front of my window as I watched the dark midnight sky. There were no stars, nothing to brighten up this cold rainy night. The clouds covered the moon, the only hope of the sky for illumination.
I gazed at the rain drops as they splashed against my window.
"Beast Boy" I whispered as I closed my eyes and let my hand feel the cold window in front of me.
Images from the past days flashed into my mind.
"Do you still care about me?"
"Um…Yeah, why do you ask?"
"Uh… I don't know, because…it doesn't seem like it"
I opened my eyes and knelt to the floor, my hand still pressing against the window and my tears falling to the rhythm of the rain.
"I don't get what you want me to do…"
"Sweeter? Like you were before…"
"I don't know. It doesn't come to me anymore to be like that."
I couldn't stop these memories from bashing into my mind. All of them came at once. A stinging pain consumed me as I began shaking uncontrollably.
"Have you changed so much in two weeks that you don't even care anymore?"
"Why the fuck do you keep saying that I don't care about anything anymore!?"
"Because that's how it feels when you're acting so…distant!"
"Well I don't know, but I have to go, Robin assigned me night patrol. Bye."
I closed my eyes and whimpered in pain. The tears still found a way to escape my shut eyes and my back was now pressing against the window.
How did all of this happen? Everything seemed like as horrible nightmare. Except I know I just couldn't wake up and everything would be alright. Nothing was alright. I could not control my body. Fear consumed it making it shake in an unnatural way. The pain inside me made me feel numb.
It had been two days since I had last talked to Beast Boy. Also, since I had last gone out of my room. Not once has he bothered to stop by to see if I was alright. Robin, Starfire and Cyborg of course did. I appeared fine to them, leaving them to the excuse I just wanted to meditate and be alone. But meditating didn't help. I found no tranquility in it. I'm sure none of the Titans bought my story, but I knew they were not going to bother me anyways.
I embraced myself tightly as I remembered what I had been through these past days. Pain. Suffering. Numbness. My breathing was heavy and uneven. I shut my eyes as I sat on the floor my back still pressed against the window. I sat in a fetus position. Shaking. More memories started pouring into my mind:
"…but you're distant now."
"Damn, well sorry. I'll try to not be like that. Sorry for not being like before."
Before. I sighed. Before everything was perfect. I felt a sharp pain stab my chest as I recalled past moments.
"You think you're alone Raven, but you're not"
Those words will forever reside in my mind. They were said so long ago.
"Now I'm alone…" I whispered to the air.
Suddenly I heard a knock. I jumped and I began shaking more. I closed my eyes to try to compose myself as I inhaled and exhaled large gasps of air.
"Raven…" I heard a delicate female voice from outside my door. Starfire. What was she doing awake at this time of night?
"Go away" I yelled, my voice ringing through my ears.
"Raven I must speak to you. Please, it is about…Beast Boy"
Another strike of stinging pain penetrated my body at the sound of his name. I used my powers to open the door. I heard Starfire gasp as she entered my room. No surprise my room was a mess. Glass shattered on the floor, papers ripped apart, books torn. Anything that my powers had destroyed.
She saw me sitting against the window and ran to embrace me tightly. Her embrace was not comforting at all. I could only feel as my heart was ripped apart more, but with her in front of my I tried to compose myself. I pushed her away breaking the embrace.
"What is it Starfire?" I said, my voice soft and shaky with fear of the news that she had brought.
"Raven, you must be strong but there is something that you must know…." She said softly. My stomach began hurting and I closed my eyes to try to process the news.
"I was speaking to friend Beast Boy and… well, I asked him if anything was wrong…he spoke to me about what happened between you and him…and then…" she paused I could feel her eyes gazing at me. My eyes remained closed as the black hole within my chest expanded. These were not going to be good news.
I heard her inhale.
"I asked Beast Boy if he still loved you… he was silent at the beginning…thinking…and then he said that he did not feel the same way as before." My eyes snapped open and my mind could not acknowledge what Starfire had just sat. I sat with a blank look. There came that stinging pain again.
"Raven, I felt you must know this, that is why I came to tell you." My expression remained blank. Tears threatened to invade my eyes.
"Thanks you. And I wanna be alone Starfire, please" I said my voice almost a whisper shaking as I vocalized each word.
"But-"
"Please." I stated, although it may have sounded more like a plea.
I closed my eyes and heard Starfire leave.
I opened my eyes as tears fell rushing down my face. The pain I felt inside was horrifying. I felt as if someone were stabbing me right through the heard. I felt needles stinging through my skin. I sobbed until the last of the night that I could recall. I cried myself to sleep on the floor with my back pressing against the coldness of the window.
2 DAYS LATER...
"Beast Boy…" I said his name as I knocked on his door. It was time to finish this. His door swooshed open. My heart seemed to have paused.
"Yea?" he said in a monotone. His eyes showing no interest at all. I took a deep breath.
"Is everything fine…?" I asked trying to keep my voice firm.
"Yes"
"Beast Boy…" I paused for a moment feeling that stinging pain inside me once again "Is there anything you need to tell me?"
"Uh…" he hesitated "No." My eyes turned to the floor avoiding his emerald eyes.
There was a silence. It lasted for a while, until I broke it. "Beast Boy, I think it would be best if we broke up" I forced those words out of my mouth. I could not believe I had said them, but I just could not take this pain any longer.
He was quiet. No response.
I looked up at him as the sight of him punched a black hole through my chest. He stood looking down at the floor, expressionless.
"Beast Boy, please say something" I said as I urged for an answer. My heart ripped into a million pieces.
"What do you want me to say?" he whispered.
"Anything. Any answer would be good"
"I-" He was interrupted by a beeping sound and red flashing lights. I heard Robin's voice through the systems. "Trouble"
My heart sank as Beast Boy and I parted for the mission.
3 DAYS LATER…
I heard a knock on my door. I composed myself and whipped the tears off my face as I triggered my powers to open the door. I froze as I saw the green changeling that stood at my door.
"Raven" he stated monotonously.
"What?" I whispered. My voice sounding weaker than I wanted it to.
"I've been thinking and you were right we should break up." My heart sank. "I just don't feel the same way as you feel for me anymore. I've tried to convince myself it was just some irrational thought, but then I realized it wasn't."
Anger built up within me. I heard glass shatter nearby.
"Well isn't this what I told you three days ago Beast Boy?!" I practically screamed.
"Yea, but-"
"…I've asked you millions of times what was wrong and you never thought of mentioning this?!"
"I thought it was just some irrational thought"
"So it's over?"
"Yea"
I felt millions of needles piercing through my heart.
"Ok…" I whispered to the air as I noticed he had already left my room.
I looked around things felt so strange to me. I was lost. This cold dark room reflected my feeling inside. My knees fell to the ground. Everything began spinning and it became blurry. I heard a storm of tears crash onto the floor and a faded thunder outside.
I gasped as my eyes closed and everything went black.
1 YEAR LATER…
I stood on top of the Titans East tower watching as the sun disappeared below the horizon. I recalled past events in my mind. The day I broke up with Beast Boy I had told Robin I would transfer to the Titans East. No questions asked he agreed. Ever since I had lived here, my heart still belonging to Beast Boy, but after that night I had never seen him again and the pain had been tremendous.
Three months after the break up Starfire informed me of some news. Beast Boy had told her that he had cheated on me. That the girl he cheated on me with got into his head. She told him and made him believe false things about me. He told Starfire he didn't love her, that it was a mistake. Then, she asked Beast Boy if he still loved me. He was quiet; she said his eyes reflected sadness and his expression went blank. He never gave her an answer.
I looked up to the sky to see that daylight had disappeared and now it was the full moon and the stars that illuminated the night sky. I closed my eyes and felt the cool breeze rush against my skin. It hurt immensely. It probably would continue to, but I had a strong outlook for the future. Things always happened for a reason and destiny always serves it right because there is a different plan, a better one.
"Hopefully" I sighed to the stars as a single tears slid down my cheek.
A/N: I finally finished it! Yay! Tell me what you thought! So sorry for the loooooooooonnnnggg wait! I had a serious author's block and a long one too. I hope you guys are still out there!
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