Chapter Four! Hoorayy!
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Some people say never give up without a fight. But, when it was me fighting the inevitable, I was a burning plane. When Tohru stood near me, and I couldn't hold my arms out for her to fall into, and I couldn't kiss the worry from her eyes, there wasn't even anything to fight. There was only emptiness that I felt in my heart.
I've spent my whole life learning to fight, training to be a fighter, to be a winner. But it was worthless when I had fought so hard to get love, and now she stood before me with a wedding ring on her finger.
"Kyou," she said again. I felt... angry. "I didn't have a choice," she said. I looked up at her coldly.
"Why even bother with me, then?" My words were harsh, I didn't want them to be, but I was feeling like I was just set up to be hurt. "Why didn't you just tell us?"
She shuddered, crossing her arms.
"Kyou, I didn't think it'd happen."
"Well, eventually you did,"
"When he got here."
"Then why didn't you just tell me?"
"Because I love you, and I didn't know what to do and I was hurt, and confused, and I just…"
"Stop," I said, holding up my hand. "I don't really want to hear it." She was married now. What did it matter anymore?
"Kyou, please." She clasped her delicate hands together, and it took a lot not to jump up and hug her small body. "I still love you. I'll never stop loving you."
"What does it matter if you love me?" I spat. "You are married, Tohru." I felt like I had to spell the words out for her. "Just forget it. Forget me. Just forget us." I got up, leaving her there to go cry to her husband.
I'm just never going to be happy. Shigure said, someday I'd find someone who wanted to be my friend. But he never said anything about meeting someone who'd want to spend her life with me. And I had thought she was the one. I'm so stupid. I was storming through the forest, on my way home. I thought about screaming, shaking my fist at the heavens, or just lying down and dying. I tripped on an unruly branch, something I had not seen as I rushed down the path. I lay on my face for a moment.
You know, Kyou, someday you're going to meet some one who truly wants to be your friend, but that won't happen unless you continue training.
Shut up, Shigure.
Maybe if I meet someone with brain damage.
Ha.
That's the spirit!
Shut up, shut up, shut up!
I reached the house. I made my way to the stairs, not bothering to remove my shoes. Shigure poked his head from his office.
"Home so soon, Kyou?" He said with a dazed smile. "School isn't even…"
"SHUT UP!" I yelled, dashing up the stairs. I slammed my bedroom door behind me. I was fuming, steaming, on the verge of explosion. I glanced around the room. I could see Tohru on my balcony, hanging up sheets, trying to tell me she was a bad person. I felt her arms slip around me, only a sheet separating us.
I wanted to feel secure, and to achieve this, I would do anything. Simply, to treat him as a bad guy………… I'm bad.
"You couldn't even be bad if you tried," I mumbled. My bed looked welcoming, but I walked by it, heading out to the balcony. My vision of Tohru was gone, and I stood in what was left behind of my memory. I took a deep breath and blinked back tears, and climbed up onto the roof.
I think I fell asleep, because when I opened my eyes, Yuki was sitting next to me, hugging his knees to his chest.
Do you think it'd be the same if I were beside her? You should realize there are some things only you can do! So don't make her cry! Be strong!
Why was I hearing all this? It's like the past was coming up. Maybe I should listen… Yuki looked over at me.
"Awake, finally?" I propped myself up on my elbows. The sun was starting to go down.
"What do you want?"
"What's going to happen?"
"Nothing. It's over." I turned away from him. Why was he bothering me?
"What do you mean?" I curled inwards a little.
"What do you think it means, stupid rat. It means she's gone, and she's not coming back. You saw her with him."
"Yeah, but-"
"BUT NOTHING." I turned to him explosively. "She was forced, there's nothing I can do."
"Forced? You can just-"
"Arranged."
"Arranged?" I was becoming more and more annoyed, angry, and really hurt.
"Arranged Marriage, you idiot." Yuki was silent. The wind passed over us smoothly like running waters. The sun was just peaking out from over the trees, and soon it was gone, leaving the sky a deep purple and pink. I felt hot tears running down my face.
"Annulment." Yuki said after a long while.
"What?"
"You heard me, she can file for an annulment." I sighed.
"She'd never go for it…" I said, lying on my back.
"Kyou, she loves you. Get it through your thick head. You have to convince her before it's too late."
"Too late?" Yuki looked uncomfortable suddenly.
"Just… Just go get on the phone!" He got off the roof. I pondered his words…Too late? What would happen if I waited? I kept thinking about it.
You know what happened that night?
My mouth went dry.
"Oh…"
