so, uh, here's part 3. no sex in this one and we're still in Ichi's POV. And hopelesslover23 is still my beta :D

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Part 3

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How long has it been? Surely, not over a month, right?

I don't know... Fuck, I'm tired.

You can't fall asleep, what if he shows up and you miss him? Just cause you were such a kid and fell asleep...

But I haven't slept in a month.

What are you talking about? You slept twenty minutes yesterday morning. That's even ten minutes more than you should have...you're slipping.

It was just 'cause my dad woke up a little late, that's all. I'm sure he wasn't here. He wasn't here.

I'm fine. Never been in a better shape. Now, get up from the floor, you have to fake your sleep before dad kicks the door in.

I've built up a routine, involving no sleep except a ten minuet power nap that I take in the mornings - when I know that my dad will come and wake me up before I drift in too far. To keep the energy up I eat more, and I try to eat stuff that's as close to the nature as possible - cause what you really want is the energy that the plants suck up - the energy from the sun. In every lead that energy pass, only 10% stays, that means that if you eat salad or something that's been growing directly under the sun, you'll get in 100% of the energy into your mouth, your body on the other hand will only take up 10% of it. Which is a really good number. If you eat a chicken that's been fed up on proper veggies, that chicken would take up 10%, and you would take up 10% of that, meaning 1%.

If you eat fish that's been brought up in farms, to bring up one kilo of the fish that most people want, the popular fish, it takes two kilo of the fish that's unpopular. That means that the fish that next to no one prefers eats the 100%, and takes up 10%, then it gets turned into food for the popular fish. The fish that we prefers then eats the 10% and takes up 1%. And in the end, when we eat it, our body only gets 0,1% of the original energy. And now we're still pretty close to the original source, aint we?

And stay away from sugar. We all know how that works. If you stay up 48 hours and just eat crappy fast food you'll get the same effect as with LSD.

I try not to join in on bigger activities. For example, I've been skipping physical education from the start. Been avoiding my dad as much as I could. I'm not out hunting hollows if I don't sense one. I haven't done more homework than is necessary to not get called up to the principal. No, I don't even want to have my brain working too hard, even brain activity is burning calories, and then also burning energy.

What I have been doing is a lot of that sensing lately, mostly 'cause I want to know if-

I've been getting a lot better on controlling my spiritual energy. I can almost pull it in completely by now. Even Ishida praised me the other day, so I'm a bit proud of myself. When I can control it completely I'll ask Urahara to open the gate to Soul Society. Until then, the only chance I have of seeing him is staying awake. Try to always be ready for him passing by.

I watch the sun settle through my window, my back against the closet door, my ass on the floor.

Time drifts by.

It gets dark.

Focus the energy. You can feel everything that's going on.

A hollow enters Kurakura but Ishida is only a hundred meters away, he'll take care of it.

Chad's out moving. His reiatsu is fierce, he must be training.

Orihime's calming down, she must be falling asleep.

Sleep.

There's a bolt just two blocks away, shit. It feels like an undeveloped arrancar. I'm up on my feet and out the window before I know it.

The arrancar is huge, its massive tongue swinging at me the second I land in front of it.

When I swing Zangetsu down and split the beast in half. I can feel exhaustion creeping in. Fuck, that adrenaline kick wasn't good. I stand up straight, I'm fine. I have lots of energy left.

There's something different with the air tonight.

I watch how the hollow falls away in two parts and dissolves into black dust, leaving a next to empty street behind it. Next to.

There you are.

Our eyes meet and you make your run. But this time I'm on the alert and I can clearly see which way you're shunpoing and I can fallow.

It's just seconds later that I push you up against a tree in the park. The adrenaline level high in my veins, I can almost feel it moving, circulating, within me. My hand is fisted hard in your kimono, and I press against you a bit more, for good emphasis.

"You know, I considered you one of my best friends. I thought I knew you," I growl, the air nearly rolling out of my lungs. You don't do anything, just stares down at my chest, ready to take whatever I throw at you. "I thought you knew me." My voice drops just slightly and you suck in a breath. "But your actions, it seems like you don't know me at all."

I don't know what I'm saying. It feels like I should have prepared a speech or something, I've had a whole month on me. I take in how you look. I can nearly see your rib gage right under collarbones that stands out clearly. I look up on your face, the dark rings under your blood shot eyes, you haven't been sleeping either.

The adrenaline is out, I can barely stand. That shunpo really took all that was left of me.

"You should know..." I mumble, my eyes drifting close. I'm losing it. "I don't handle people disappearing very well."

I'm tired.

Oh.

Sleep.

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TBC.

Ps. All facts mentioned are true, or well the 10% may waver a bit depending on speices and such but it's around that amout the whole time. It has something to do with the plants that makes it only possible for them to pic up the energy directly from the sun (and that's why they don't need food for ex), there were also something about the green but I can't remember clearly cuz then I started thinking about if Zoro need food or if he would be fine with just water...