Chapter 3:
EDWARD'S POINT OF VIEW:
After yesterday's events with Bella I relized 3 things. First, she will always be in my life and will always be my best friend. Second, I am completely in love with her. And last, I never want to touch another women unless it is Bella.
She makes me feel alive all of the time. She never does what I expect and always keeps me on my toes when I am around her. She can make me laugh even if I am in the worst of moods. She takes everything to the next level for me. It was not until recently that I discovered that what people call the 'fireworks' in their relationship or the 'spark' is a real thing. And I have that with Bella. Everytime I touch her or hold her, I never want to let her go.
I was so angry with Alice for waking us up the other morning when she was peacefully asleep in my arms. I knew it wasn't Alice's fault though because she didn't know. I was now on my way to talk to her about all of what I am feeling. Maybe she can help me. When I got to their dorm room I noticed Bella just leaving. Perfect timing.
"Hey Bella," I said and she smiled warmly while giving me a hug.
"How are you holding up?" she asked.
"Better than ever actually," I said and she smiled.
"Alright, well I am headed off to class. Want to get a bite to eat later or something?" she asked while walking backwards. I assumed she was running a little late.
"Sure. Just call me to let me know when and where," I said.
"Will do. Bye!" she said and ran off around the corner.
I walked in and knocked on Alice's bedroom door. It was about noon time so she could not possibly be sleeping.
"Come in," she said. I walked in and she was on her computer typing up some type of report. "Interior design class," she said. I nodded. She is going to be a home decorator and wedding planner. She turned off her computer and turned around. "What's up?" she asked.
"Umm..I need to talk to you about something Alice," I started.
"Does this have anything to do with the fact that you are in love with my best friend?" she asked.
"Bella is my best friend too! And yes it does," she squealed and I had to cover my ears so they wouldn't get damaged.
"So when are you going to tell her?" she asked.
"Alice, I can't just go up to my best friend and tell her I am in love with her. What if she doesn't feel the same way and leaves me? I couldn't handle that," I said starting to panic.
"Relax!" Alice said and I did. "I know you can't do that. But what if I told you that she feels the same way?" I felt a burst of happiness jolt through me. And then it ended.
"Yeah, exactly. What if," I muttered.
"Trust me, everything is going to be okay. Why don't you leave her hints here and there?"
"I do. I asked her to sleep with me for goodness sakes!" I said and realized sleep could have two different meanings in that sentence.
"You what?!?!"
"No, Alice I didn't mean it like that. Remember that one time when you woke us up and we were fully dressed? It was that night," she let out a sigh of relief at my words. She seriously thought that about me? Wow. My own cousin.
"Okay. Well what else have you done?"
"Umm...hold her hand?" I said and she let out a frustrated sighed.
"Oh dear, this is going to be harder than I thought. Can I tell you something?"
"Tell me what?"
"That Bella has personally talked to me about you, just like you are right now, and told me she felt the same way as you feel about her."
"Don't lie," I said. I wanted to believe her. But how?
"Why would I lie about that?! I can't believe you think that low of me!"
"Hey, you thought that sleeping had another meaning to it when it came from my mouth!"
"Ugh!! Edward please just do something to get you guys quickly together. If you don't do something fast, she will move on."
"Okay. Thanks I guess. Bye."
"See you," she said and I walked out of the dorm room. I realized that the converstion took up a whole hour. Bella was calling me on my phone.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Hey, so dinner tonight?" she asked again.
"Sure."
"Where do you want to go?"
"You can choose," I said.
"Okay, well in that case I wont know until like 10 minutes before we eat! Oh, wait! What about homemade pizzas? I can go get some crusts right now with mozzerella cheese," she said and I could just see the smile on her face right now.
"Sounds good."
"Okay. So your dorm or mine?" she asked.
"Umm..mine. You have others living with you."
"Well atleast I am not a loner!" she said and laughed. Just hearing her laugh made me smile.
"I simply just don't want my pig of an older brother living in there. Do you know how messy it would be?"
"Do you know how messy it already is?" she countered.
"Yeah, well you can clean it. Be my guest."
"HA! I will only do that if you plan on helping."
"Okay," I said.
"Bye. See you at 5? Sound good?"
"Yep. Bye," and with that she hung up.
I went home after that and cleaned the kitchen a little. I wasn't going to clean my whole dorm room if it was just Bella coming over. If she was serious about me cleaning, I would start right now.
They day passed by slowly. It finally got around to 5 and Bella was knocking on my door. I answered and she hugged me. She has no idea how much I love her hugs.
"Hi," i told her.
"Good afternoon," she said.
"So..pizza?" I asked.
"Yep!" she said while heading towards the kitchen. I got out all the stuff out that we would need and she turned on the oven. She went to the fridge.
"I'm taking your last Dr. Pepper," she announced. I rolled my eyes.
"No your not!" I said teasingly outraged.
"Uh..yeah. I am. I can share though," she said while taking a sip and offering me some. I got out cups and we split it in half.
"What do you want on our pizza?" she asked.
"Umm...I don't care. Cheese, peperoni?"
"Okay. Do you have any flour? I don't want this premade crust to stick to this pizza pan."
"Uh...yeah. Hold on," I said and I got it out.
A whole pizza, flour and water fight later we were sitting on my now wet kitchen floor. We both had flour on our clothes and in our hair. We looked rediculous.
"You got a little something on your face," she teased.
"Oh? Can you get it off please?" I asked.
"Sure," she said and then wiped my forhead and ran her fingers through my hair. It felt so amazing that I wanted her to do that every minute of everyday. Sure Tanya did this, but not like Bella. She stopped for a second and we looked into eachother's eyes. I could live in those chocolate brown eyes for the rest of my life and be satisfied. Dang I am in over my head. I loved her though.
"Come on we have to clean up this mess," she said and got up. That is the second time that she cut one of our 'moments' short.
After cleaning up the kitchen while listening to music and dancing, we went to the living room to watch a movie. I left to go to the bathroom and when I went back out I found her looking at some old family photos and the recent ones with only her and I in them.
"Remember that?" I asked pointing to a picture of her chasing Alice down because she stole her last pair of comfy shoes. Alice won of course by throwing them into a lake.
"Ha, yeah. She still owes me for that. Thanks for reminding me," she said.
"Anytime," I said with a smile on my face. I realized that there is a picture of us where I was putting on the necklace that I bought for her. Reached her hand instinctively to her neck and touched the same necklace and smiled.
"You still have that?" I asked.
"I wear it only everyday!" she said.
"Oh," I said.
"It's okay that you didn't noticed. Atleast you respect me enough to not look down my shirt."
"I will always respect you with every decsion that you make," I told her.
"Thank you," she said.
"Can I tell you something serious please?" I asked suddenly. I wanted to tell her. Right now.
"Yeah?" she said a little scared.
"I don't know how to tell you this without making you feel uncomfortable, but I am going to try. Bella, I don't want to stay away from you any longer. I want you to be with me. I want you to be my everything and know it. The only way to sum up how I feel is by telling you that I am in love with you. If you leave I understand, but I really hope you don't," I said and instantly got nervous the second I was finishing letting my feelings out.
"You're in love with me? Why?" she asked with a guarded expression. I knew this was the first time she had heard someone say that to her since Jake.
"Because you make me crazy. I go around thinking about you all of the time! I feel protective of you and want you to be safe always. You are my everything, Bella. My life couldn't go on willingly without you in it."
"And you are not joking around? You aren't just trying to get into my pants?" she asked. I really would love to punch Jake in the face right about now.
"Didn't I just say that I wanted to have a serious conversation? Do you really think I throw around the word 'love' like it is a chew toy?"
"Of course I don't think that! It is just...well, you know," she said and I did.
"Bella, I really do love you. With all of my being. If you don't believe me I would be more than happy to prove it."
"Fine. Clean your dorm room," she said in what sounded like an all serious tone, but when you look at her she was fighting a smile.
"Nope. I draw the line there," I said in a joking voice and smiled at her. Only Bella could turn this into a joking but serious conversation at the same time.
"Well then I am sorry to say that I do not want a boyfriend with a dirty dorm. Its gross."
"I'll call a maid," I said.
"But that won't teach you responsibility," she countered.
"Okay, then. Let me show you to the door," I said and while walking past her she grabbed my face and kissed me on the lips. I have never felt this way before. I put my arms around her waist and pulled her as close as possible. She started to knot her fingers in my hair. We both pulled away for much needed air.
She looked at me and said, "I love you ,too."
No words could express how happy I am right now.
~*~
BELLA'S POINT OF VIEW:
I was in shock about what Edward just told me. I didn't know how to respond. So I simply said, "You're in love with me? Why?" I could ask that right? Of course I knew that I loved him, but it was just too good to be true.
"Because you make me crazy. I go around thinking about you all of the time! I feel protective of you and want you to be safe always. You are my everything, Bella. My life couldn't go on willingly without you in it," he said. I almost lost it right then and there. To hide my shock I went through my head so we could lighten the serious mood a bit.
"And you are not joking around? You aren't just trying to get into my pants?" I asked just to make sure.
"Didn't I just say that I wanted to have a serious conversation? Do you really think I throw around the word 'love' like it is a chew toy?"
"Of course I don't think that! It is just...well, you know," I told him.
"Bella, I really do love you. With all of my being. If you don't believe me I would be more than happy to prove it."
I had to do something to hide my shock! I didn't have anything until I instantly remembered our conversation on the phone earlier and tried to fight a smile when I said, "Fine. Clean your dorm room," I was impressed at my tone of seriousness. He even had to make sure to look up in order to make sure that I was in fact joking.
"Nope. I draw the line there," he said and I couldn't stop the smile on my face when I saw his.
"Well then I am sorry to say that I do not want a boyfriend with a dirty dorm. Its gross."
"I'll call a maid," he offered.
"But that won't teach you responsibility," I countered trying to see what he would come up with next.
"Okay, then. Let me show you to the door," he said and as he walked by I grabbed him by the face and pulled him closer so I could kiss him. He wrapped his arms around me and I tangled my fingers in his hair. When we came apart for much needed air I rested my forehead on his and looked him in the eye.
"I love you, too," I said and I now was floating on cloud 9.
