Chapter 3-
Stevie Rae-
Eric, Lenobia and I were sitting in the common room of the professor dorm's talking over things we needed to do. It was amazing everything a high priestess does, I mean I had so much to learn. Lenobia said she would help me since I still had so much class work to still learn, and I agreed to help her, Eric and Dragon fill in till Zoey returned. I couldn't help but glance at Eric from time to time he looked so lost with out Zoey. When the gang first left for Venice all he seemed to want to do was sulk. He still taught his classes but you could tell there was something missing. After the third day I asked him what his problem was he looked at me with this helpless look on his face and said what do you think is the matter. I have lost her, and with her I lost the meaning to my life. It surprised me I mean he had been such a jerk to her I let out a sigh and said Eric maybe you should of thought of that before becoming a jealous jerk. Besides I thought you hooked up with Venus. Wow I guess I am a good actor if I could fool all of you especially Z, Stevie Rae I did what she needed me to do. She couldn't function let alone think with all three of us biding for her attention. I wouldn't of been able to forgive myself if something happened to her again because we were fighting over her. When she was attacked by that raven mocker I thought I was going to loose her in the worst way, it was then that I decided that I would rather let her go so she could do what she needed to, then fight any longer for something she couldn't make a decision on right now. With having to save the world and all I it was obvious that we would have to wait and since Heath and Stark actually can help her with her mission and all I decided that I would remove myself from the equation. I could see the pain in his eyes as he spoke and realized then how much he really did love her. What a mess Z would have when she got back, I have no idea how she is going to fix this problem with these boys I didn't envy her at all. Speaking of I havnt heard from her in awhile about then my phone rang and I fished it out of my pocket. Damian how are things its been awhile since I have heard from any of you. Were is Zoey how come she didn't call me? I almost didn't recognize Damians voice he was shouting something telling me I needed to listen to him. Ok ok wow what the heck is wrong with you I am listening. I didn't realize how quiet I was till I say everyone staring at me while Damian quickly filled me in. He got to the part where Zoey's soul shattered and I screamed what do you mean her soul shattered. I instantly felt Eric's gaze on me. Oh my goodness of course I am on my way I will be there as soon as I can. Yes I will be coming alone I know it is dangerous, I was so flustrated with Damian. Yes we all new how smart he was but sometimes he treated the rest of us like we had no since at all. I got off the phone and began to fill in the rest of the group Lenobia gasped it was the first time I had ever seen her distraught. Dragon bowed his head in silence still grieving over the loss of his wife. Eric went white as a ghost and fainted, I couldn't belive he actually fainted. Dragon and I helped him up and we tried to get through to him but I didn't have time for this and just slapped him as hard as I could. Which brought him around he was staring at me and said when do we leave. I say the determination in his eyes and knew it wouldn't be easy but I had to get him to stay here. Zoey would freak for one, after what happened to Heath and him and Stark would just bicker back in forth. I took a deep breath and said Eric you cant come I am sorry but remember what you said, and why you acted the way you did at the abbey well for the same reason you cant come. Z would be a mess after Heath being killed and you and Stark argueing all the time. I promise you I will call you every day and let you know what is happening but you cant come please understand. I could see the fight going on inside him the part that wanted and needed to see Z with his own eyes and the side that wanted to what was best for her. Fourtently the later is the side that one and he just signed and agreed he couldn't come. I got to my room and quickly packed while Lenobia made my travel plans. I was worried about leaving my fledglings behind when there was a knock at my door. I opened it to find Dallas standing there he didn't really say anything except we will be ok stop worrying you should of gone with them in the first place. I couldn't belive what a great guy he was, he stepped into my room and gave me a hug and said she will be ok you all will figure out how to help her. I knew he was right and I was off to the airport.
Eric-
I needed to be alone I couldn't break down in frount of everyone I mean I had already fainted in front of everyone. I swear what has become of me it is like I cant help myself anymore I am falling apart. I finaly got to my loft and sunk to the floor behind the closed door, bowed my head and began to cry. I knew I couldn't go to Z it wasn't what was best for her but at the same time I needed so much to see her. To talk with her, hold her hand do something I didn't know how much longer I could just sit around here doing nothing. It was hard enough before I knew she was hurt but now it was unbearable. I sunk my head into my hands and began to pray to the goddess for her guidance. Please Nyx tell me what to do I am so lost, I know I have asked you for help with Z before but this time I really need it. I would trade my soul for hers please take me instead. I felt her presence before I saw her it was the same as when she had come to me telling me there was something I needed to see and guided me to the side of the auditormiam where I saw Neferet and Zoey argueing. I pulled my head out of my hands and saw her she was breath taking. Her hand reached out and rested on my shoulder and she said my son you know that I could not exchange your soul for hers. Please have faith that she will find her way home. She is on a journey now learning her truth and when she is done I am sure she will find her way back to her body. And will have the knowledge needed to complete her task. With tears striking my face I nodded at her I know I just well I am so scared, I know I had to loose her so she could do what was needed but I don't know how I will live with out her. The goddess smiled at me and softly said, so it is your belief that you have lost her do you not know your own feelings my son. Maybe you need to search your own truth til she returns. And with that she was gone. Search my own truth what does that mean I know I am in love with Z, it is her that dosnt know what she wants. Not if that mattered after what happened at the abbey I am sure she would never forgive me much less think of me like that. Some how I found my way to my bed and was lost in thought till sleep took me over.
