Manda's Note: Ok I would totally have a long note for everyone if I felt good, but my head is killing me, I'm totally stuffed up and I just want to watch Twilight and go to sleep. That's what i'm going to do. so leave me your thoughts on this. I hope you like it, thank you for reading
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-manda
He could see her from the lounge chair, he'd been watching her for over an hour while she lay on pool tube casually chatting with Maureen and letting the warm wind blow her around. Every smile her face held, every laugh, every sound he took in. three days he'd have to leave her, he hated the idea of it. Leaving his girlfriend twenty-two weeks pregnant to attend school halfway across the continent, but what she'd insisted on he'd attempt. Her wet hair was drying to a disarray of curls, she had an almost peaceful smile on her face, and the white tee shirt she'd put on over her bathing suit stuck to revile every inch of baby bump. When he pushed his nerves out of the way about it all he couldn't help but take it all in, they had created the baby. Regardless if it wasn't the right time for it or if they weren't ready for it, it was too late for regrets. He'd had far too many conversations with her stomach after she went to sleep to regret it. Besides, when was it ok for a father to truly regret their child, that was left for the parents of the East Side, that wasn't for him. That was the last way he'd treat his son or daughter, that was the last way he'd treat Vanessa.
"She seems calm today"
Looking up as Tripp commented on Vanessa Nate nodded his head. They'd been in the Hampton at Tripp and Maureen's beach house for the past week and Vanessa hadn't seemed more comfortable in weeks. She was out of the eye of Gossip Girl, free enough to breath. She seemed comfortable with Maureen and Tripp, something Nate hadn't expected in the beginning. Not that he would complain about it. it all was quite a relief, normally Tripp didn't like Nate's choices. Blair had been to… well, Blair, Serena was to free and to loose, she drove Tripp nuts. There hadn't really been anyone else, Vanessa was the only one that mattered.
"She slept well, well, besides the fact that I had to pull her away from Maureen and horror movies at two o'clock this morning to come to bed. It's good to see her smiling, after everything that's happened lately I wasn't sure she was going to be ok again."
Reaching for the glass of lemon aid in Tripp's hand he spoke honestly, lately he'd been worried about how everything was affecting her. She seemed to be withdrawn. Even from Dan she hadn't spoken with all too often. He knew that had little to do with Dan himself and all to do with Jenny, things there still weren't ok. Not with how spiteful Jenny was being with regards to Vanessa's pregnancy. Vanessa hadn't done anything to deserve it.
"So, are you going to be ok? I mean with the whole leaving her to go to college thing."
Nate sighed soon as Tripp opened his mouth to mention it. Of course he wasn't ok with it. the thought of it all made him nervous, what if something happened and he wasn't there or able to get there right away. Part of him also had to admit that it bothered him that she was pushing him to go so badly, did she really not want him around? He only had three days left to spend as much time with her as he could, three days before he'd be way to far away to hold her every night. He just needed to live in the moment for now, to take in her happy appearance.
"No, but I have to go and at least try. She'll be happy with that. I'd rather not piss her off for the next few months. She's got enough to deal with, I mean, we both do of course. It's not like getting pregnant was something we'd planned. In some ways I feel like I'm settling into all of this better then she is, I guess because it's all more real for her still then it is for me yet. She's done all the work."
With a scream coming from the pool their conversation was cut short as Vanessa tipped Maureen's float over knocking them both into the water with a loud complaint from both the girls. It all resulted in a war of splashes on both ends as the boys watched on in amusement. Nate and Tripp both looked at one another and shook their heads, for one being a wife and the other a soon to be mother they were both acting like normal typical teenagers without a care. Maybe vacations had been needed from the start.
Maureen was good when it came to Vanessa, she didn't judge her, Nate wasn't sure exactly why. Then again, Nate didn't know all of what Maureen's past was or what Vanessa knew of it. She was better at that then he knew, keeping things to herself. That wasn't exactly something Nate was used to. Not with growing up with Blair and Serena of course. Gossip Girl seemed just to be another person in his life with them, secrets weren't very easily kept. With the way she did things it was all new to him, new and intriguing still, he was pretty sure it always would be she never seemed to cease to amazing him.
"Saw grandfather the other day, he went on for a while about how he can't believe you would be so careless as to let something like this happen. Yet, I think he's proud of you. You didn't cave into following his orders like Maureen and I had when we were in your situation. I was to swayed by the money. Now, it's left me in guilt."
Looking over at Tripp confused it was words and stories Nate didn't know about and hadn't heard before as he spotted the bottle of tequila right beside his glass of lemonade. Tripp was always a nosy drunk when he had a story to tell. He had always been. But this was a story Nate hadn't heard in the past. Most of them only told of Tripp learning to drive for the first time and accidently running over Maureen's dog, that was a story Tripp told all too often.
"What are you talking about?"
He was intrigued now as he glanced at the girls now deep in conversation again after their splashing fits in the water. Maybe he hadn't been the only one to make some sort of mere mistake in the past, quiet obviously it hadn't been handled the way that Nate and Vanessa were handling things.
"Maureen and I were sixteen, Grandfather paid for the abortion, he also apparently paid for someone to do a shitty job and hurt her in the process of it all."
Tripp laced out angrily with a sneer to his voice as he picked up his glass again and took another sip. Nate was about to open his mouth and make another comment but he was instantly shut up as the gate to the backyard was unlocked and two figures came rushing through.
"Nathaniel Archibald! The prodigal half Vanderbilt has returned. Tripp said we weren't going to see you this summer. Nina and I were so disappointed, what's a summer without seeing you're beautiful eyes every morning when I come out for a swim? This makes me summer complete!"
Nate didn't have room to get a word in edge wise as the strawberry blonde ran forward landing on his lap with his face between her hands as she gushed over him and kissed his cheek. Mallorie Sloane and Nina Douglas, there hadn't been a summer when he hadn't seen the both of them. They were his Blair and Serena of the Vanderbilt summer home beach house. Mallorie was a tall strawberry blonde who could have easily passed for a swim suit model with the plastic surgery enhancements that her mother had paid for. Nina on the other hand had always been softer and lighter on the other hand, blonde hair cut to her shoulders. Never the less they'd been two girls that Nate had grown up with, and hooked up with while high. All of that felt like it was a lifetime passed. With the rush of their excitement and the memories of summers past he threw his arms around Mallorie in a tight hug for only a moment's time.
"I was starting to think you two had stayed in California for the summer, it's been quiet around here."
Teasing her made Mallorie stay perched on his lap in a slightly over friendly manner that anyone would have picked up on. Without another second Nate started to feel uncomfortable as he attempted to peer around her only to have Nina block his view of the pool. He wanted to glance at her just to know that she was ok, all afternoon he'd been constantly watching her with Maureen. If he only had a few days left to do so a moment out of his view was too much.
"As if we could say away from you for a whole summer Nate, are you crazy? But Tripp told us you had a lot going on. Not that he'd tell us what exactly. Though I imagine it has something to do with the newest girl in your bed. Tell me, what's she like this time? Personally I have to say I'm just glad it's not Blair, she never did seem like she knew how to please very well. Nate, we both know that you've had far better than that, and you deserve far better than that."
Letting Mallorie talk he didn't budge to give her one second of information out of his mouth as Nina finally moved to ruffle his hair. He had a clear view into the pool where Vanessa and Maureen were still swimming like they hadn't noticed anything. That was something about her that he both loved and didn't understand. She didn't make a big deal out of things, even when he gave her every reason not to trust him. When she laughed at something Maureen had said and she looked up their eyes met for a moment and she offered a short smile before going back to hiding herself in the water by a float. Even with Mallorie and Nina in front of him he could have seen straight through them to her through a crowded room.
"Come on Nate, time to give us some…"
Mallorie cut herself off as she turned her head to look in the direction that he was looking in. he knew Mallorie's eyes had found her as they widened to their fullest deep greens and she hopped off of him in an instant, to get a better look he guessed. It wasn't a hidden move as Maureen moved in front to block any views, Nate knew it was only because Vanessa didn't want a big deal being made, which meant not saying anything about the pregnancy unless he wanted to sleep on the couch for the night.
Sprawled out on the floor of the living room Jackson sat beside her head, Steven lay on his stomach beside her, Nate rested his head back on her stomach lightly, and Noelle sat on top of her legs tracing a straight line over her tank top across her belly button every few moments. Part of her already missed the quiet of Maureen and Tripp's beach getaway, not that she'd of given up a second of time with the kids or with Nate. She just knew that being at the beach house there was more time before Nate left, before there were dozens of miles between them that meant that he couldn't get to her in a fraction of a second. She knew she'd been the one to insist it, and she knew that space between them would give them both time to think out what their next moves would be. Space between made it better for them both to think for themselves without anything literally in the way of right minds. The miles would be a good thing, at least, she hoped it would. It was just the paths that their lives needed to take before they were thrown the actual curve ball. A kicking, screaming, gurgling curve ball that they couldn't give back, the thought made her shutter.
"How about Finnegan? You know, Finn for short."
She should have known he was up to something when he was so quietly resting on her stomach without butting into her reading. Nate didn't usually stay very still or quiet for too long unless he was listening to his head phones to loud in his ears. She couldn't hear The Virgins pouring out from the white buds that she didn't see so she should have known he wasn't listening to anything. with everything she had on her mind to think about finding a name wasn't very high on her priorities list. It was more like trying to decipher whether or not they were doing the right thing in regards to the innocent little child that came far before anything else.
"Finn? Will you please stop watching finding Nemo with these three Nate, what kind of a name is Finn Archibald? It's bad enough you've already labeled your baby with the nickname of squirt."
Cora added in her two sense and it was something Vanessa was grateful for. Even if she wasn't ready to look at baby names Finn was most defiantly one that was not on her list of possible ones. As cute as hearing Elle call the baby a fish was the baby likely wouldn't think it all very funny. Finn Archibald sounded more like a punishment then a good name. If the baby was already doomed from before he took his first breath the last thing she planned on doing was cursing it with a name it couldn't overcome also.
"Cora has a point"
Adding vaguely she put the book she was reading in preparation for her first college lit class down to look at him for a moment and shake her head in disagreement. He had lost the round, Cora seemed to know better, after all, she had picked three good solid names for her three children without hesitations. She'd give into him and play along for a little while long as it would make him drop the subject faster.
"Everlee?"
The next suggestion that came out of his mouth made her stop for a second from flipping the next page in her book. It didn't sound half bad she decided as she said it over in her head, trying it out for size. Suddenly part of her wanted to sit up and take part in her thoughts, if she let herself get closer to the situations she might have put her book down and willingly participated. But she wasn't ready to do that just yet, not ready to admit that every part of it was actually real. Giving the baby a name would make it so that she felt like all of her decision were made for her. In twenty weeks her life as she'd known it prior to her carelessness would all be completely over with no shot at going back on it to what had once been. As selfish as it sounded she wasn't sure she could handle that.
"Everlee doesn't sound so bad"
Vanessa said only half giving in as she shut the book and placed it down on the side of her watching him flick through pages of the name book. Any normal college student would have been going through the college course book trying to chance some last minute classes, not attempting to choose the name of a child. It wasn't one of Vanessa's good days, she felt more down then anything, more regretful. She had since she'd listened to the girls at the beach house fall all over him. As crazy as it sounded she felt guilty for tying him down while he was away, she didn't feel like she had a right to do it.
"I like Sarah! Or Holly!"
Ellie said adding her two sense in as Cora picked her up off of Vanessa's legs and kissed her cheek as both Vanessa and Nate watched. The way Ellie threw her arms around Cora's neck and buried her little face into her mother's cheek made Vanessa and Nate exchange a look with one another. Unconditional without any hesitation, that was the love they saw between mother and daughter, what they'd both hardly had any of. That excluded what they'd learned for one another.
"I don't know about the name Sarah"
Shaking her head with the image of Georgina in her head she looked at Nate who she knew would protest the whole Holly thing, it was to Blair like. She was no Waldorf and neither was the baby. Lucky for everyone involved it seemed. E
"Back on the track of unusual there's always Zev"
They all stopped what they were doing and looked at her some faces wore shock and surprise, she'd actually opened her mouth and volunteered a name. Something Nate hadn't been expecting her do to. With her constant change in moods every once and a while he should have been expecting her to do anything that wasn't usual, she was more erratic than ever.
"That sounds like what Steve and Jack wanted to name the puppy in the window of the pet shop in Jersey!"
Noelle chirped out and clapped her hands like it was oh so amusing making both Nate and Vanessa look at one another and shake their heads. maybe giving the baby the same name as a dog wasn't the best idea.
"Well, how about Azalea? You did say it was your favorite flower Veevee, it's a pretty name and it's different too!"
It was the first time Jack had added his thoughts on the matter into their conversation and it made them all stop. Vanessa smiled, it didn't sound like such a bad idea and Jack was right about it being her favorite flower after all. Nate lifted his hand to high five Jack, seemed like someone had finally caught Vanessa into giving an actual thought to it. Something that Nate had been starting to think no was going to make her do.
"Alright fine, Nate, hand me the book"
A reluctant smile was on her face as she put her hand out and waited for him to put the name book into it. he'd twisted around to lay on his stomach, chin resting on hers as he watched her go through the names biting her lip and shaking her head in reaction every once and a while.
"Cael"
She said it once and a smile spread over her face that Nate noticed as he thought about it and let it sit in the air for a second. It was different and unique without being to strange. Just like Everlee it sounded good, it was one he knew would defiantly be put into the possible category.
"How about Kenzie? Or Jade?"
Steven's turn to suggest from next to them Nate and Vanessa both nodded their heads, the later of the two names sounded like it could defiantly fit well. Nate looked at Vanessa for her opinion only to find her not looking at him or the book but suddenly looking out the window into the pouring rain falling down to the sidewalk.
"Enough of all of this, come on, let's go to the park and play for a while."
Running his hand along the antique cherry wood he closed his eyes and smiled. He'd been too young to make an issue out of being kicked out of it at the age of two. To him the new room with the blue walls was much cooler then the plain old white and wood. Dust came off on his hand as he lifted it to his fingers; it had had years of not being cleaned or even touched. The early evening sun was setting making the sun burn orange through the glass and giving the room an eerie glow. It graced the photos that hung on the walls. Photos of him and Ruthie in their mother's arms rocking in the Italian rocking chair, pictures of him holding his baby sister, and kissing her forehead come the time the tubes weren't ever removed. It was hard being back in the room, it had been locked since he was around four as it was. There was something about it that felt almost right, knowing that his mother thought about any of it before she'd selfishly backed out of life.
He took a deep breath, it might have been long ago but that didn't mean it made the pain hurt any less. It was only after Ruthie's death that he'd watched both of his parents, mother and father, deteriorate from the loving parents they'd been at one point to the callous people they'd turned into over the years. All through the death of their youngest child and only girl his parents fallen apart. The thought of it made him reach for Vanessa's waist and pull her closer to him. He may have lived his life in a confused fog but at least he had a reason to. His childhood hadn't been as easy as the outside world thought. Chuck, Blair, and Serena had been the ones that had known it, they'd excused his confusion with a dismissal of the hand. It wasn't a big deal. Nate hadn't known any type of clarity till Vanessa had come into his life. Now even if things were a jumbled up mess at least he knew that he loved her, even if she couldn't and wouldn't say it back to him he knew he loved her. He also know the things he didn't want for his own child's childhood.
"Are you ok?"
Nate heard her voice but it sounded miles away regardless if she was right in front of him. Between college starting in a few weeks, a baby coming at Christmas time, and all of the other things he had to worry about surrounding him, surrounding them, Nate couldn't remember what it was like for things to be normal anymore. a part of him missed normalcy, and knowing that eventually things would be ok. The last thing he wanted to do was to leave her and go up to USC, it had been all he wanted but that was before she'd come into his life. Now, the thought of being that far away from her scared him. It wasn't because she was pregnant, it was because she had every right to change her mind about him and decide there was someone better than him that she wanted. He'd given her every reason to find someone else. Had Scott not been a complete psycho then she might have found someone else, he'd seen her happy around Scott. That was the thing that scared him the most. The thought that he could lose her to someone else at any point because of the stupid mistakes that he'd made in the past of putting her behind everyone else.
"Huh? What? Yea, I'm fine"
Stumbling over his words as he kissed her forehead and lifted his hands from her waist to her neck to fix her necklace so that it was straight rather than twisted. She hadn't even argued over the gold or diamonds that hung around her neck. He made a mental note to tell her that everything he gave her was important to him, if that made her not complain then it was completely worth it. it was something important to him, more important then she understood. As the darkening light caught the diamonds they sparked and he allowed a reflective smile to touch his eyes. One that he knew she'd spotted as she put her hand on the side of his face and pulled him closer in for a kiss. Just a simple one while he put his arms around her pulling her as close as he could with the slight bump in the middle of them.
They'd been in the nursery room all afternoon just talking and going through things. He'd watched her sit in the rocking chair looking threw a photo album of himself and Ruthie's photos, she'd hugged random stuffed animals, and brushed her fingers over old gifted clothes that hadn't been touched in a decade. All of it had seemed so natural for her, so right to watch her in there. It told him they'd be alright in time.
"I don't want to leave you tomorrow"
Tucking a strand of hair behind her ear he kissed her forehead before pulling her into a hug, but, there was something in her hug that gave him a sudden doubt that something wasn't right. He pulled back from her for a second and she was biting the inside of her cheek. They both looked at one another, hesitation to talk on both ends. Whatever it was that was on her mind wasn't good, it didn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out. She had something on her mind and he had any bet on the fact that he wasn't about to agree with whatever it was.
"The look on your face, change your mind? I'm sure if I beg grandfather enough hr can pull some strings at Colombia and get my old schedule back."
Though he knew it wouldn't be true he figured he'd try anyway. Of course Vanessa rolled her eyes at him and shook her head like he was crazy. At least he'd tried, he'd have something to remind her of when she called him at night.
"I didn't change my mind and actually I don't think you're going to like what I have to say very much but just think about it Nate. I think it's what's best for the both of us. I'm not saying it's for good but I think we should end this for now. Before you open your mouth and protest Nate think about it, California is thousands of miles away from here. You're going to have temptation all around you and I don't want you to feel like you're doing anything wrong. Just for now, I just… I don't think we should be us, well, together."
Looking at her quizzically he thought she was nuts. The words coming out of her mouth were a breakup of sorts. A break up when the last thing that they actually needed was to be separate, he wanted to be there with her rather than being anywhere else. But she was stubborn, stubborn and he was tired of giving into it all.
"No way in hell Vanessa, what are you even saying?"
She pulled away from him shaking her head, he wasn't going to listen to her and she'd known it wasn't going to be that easy to make him. But it was the way she knew things needed to be done. He'd know it too if he really looked at the situation at hand. He was going away to college, college was full of parties and other worries that he needed to take care of. None of it said he had room for a pregnant girlfriend tying him down without him feeling lost and stuck. She didn't want to ever be the reason he felt that way. He wouldn't be able to see it right then but he'd see it once he was there in the summer like sun with the girls falling all over the hottie from the east coast, it wasn't that hard to see.
"What I'm saying Nate is that we need to break up. We need to be free to do our own thing for a little while. If it's all meant to be it'll all be fine in the end Nate. Just do it, please? If you won't do it for yourself then do it for me. Go an just be normal for a semester, don't worry about me or the baby just worry about yourself and your classes. Have fun"
Her eyes were shinning and he could see that she was trying to do it all for him once again, trying to make him happy. If course it sounded tempting, to pretend nothing existed and that he was completely free of all worries. But he wasn't and they needed one another.
"I love you Nate, that's why I want a break from us."
Nodding her head she moved back to him and put her hand on his cheek again as he shut his eyes at her touch. He knew right then that they really were over and he did need to take a slight step back. they were words he hadn't heard her say in far too long, and he knew she meant them. He'd follow her rule again only till December, till they painted rooms and re arraigned furniture. The baby stood as his promise that all would eventually be alright.
"So have you met these people at all yet? At least their colors don't seem so bad… red and royal blue. It's not like you're stuck with some over the top pink priss. Who knows V, you might even get along with them. Not that you're anywhere near one of the easiest people to get along with anyway"
Dan was laying on Vanessa's bed in the dorm as she hung pictures up with sticky removable Velcro, a dozen of she and Dan, one of her and Nate, a photo of Cora and the kids, all the usual. They'd been working all day on perfecting her lime green and orange side of the room, and joking around like little kids. She'd been put in a triple, what she could gather from them wasn't much. All so far that had been done were beds had been made. She eyed the blue side of the room, there was something about it that she couldn't quite put her finger on. With the bet that Dan had made with her that she wouldn't like either of her roommates' right from the start she decided to shut her mouth and wait till they came in before she started to tag them with issues. After all, they could put a label on her as soon as they walked in themselves.
"Not once, they haven't been here all day. They had to of come in while we were out for lunch."
She shrugged finishing up the last picture before crashing down beside him on her new bed on her back. it was going to be hard to live in the dorm, to not be anywhere near Ruby at nights. But she was 'married' now, Lara had married her and Courtney in a meadow high of course. Where that counted on the list of marriages Vanessa wasn't sure but to Ruby it counted. Whatever made her happy, she just hoped that someone would rush her to the hospital whenever she needed it. Those were things that Vanessa couldn't linger on. She had enough to worry about and deal with.
"Maybe they'll decide they're not coming and you'll get this place all to yourself. Then I'll just take one of the other beds and live in here. Better then the football player I got stuck with in my room. Total obnoxious jock, there's already been too many parties to count in my room and night fall hasn't even come yet. I swear I don't know what I'm going to do."
Catching her rolling her eyes at his words he shrugged his shoulders. It was wishful thinking of course. No one ever had lucky like that, especially not Vanessa. In all the years he'd known her if anything followed Vanessa it was bad luck. If it had been good lucky then she wouldn't have had to stare clear of the loft, there wouldn't have been a baby for her and Jenny to be fighting over. That's all Dan thought of the baby, it was just bad luck that was going to turn her life inside out. That was all, a careless mistake that if two people were more careful could have been avoided, one that she would never again get away from. it would be the first and only time he and Blair Waldorf actually agreed on something, that something was the fact that a baby by Vanessa and Nate at such a young age shouldn't have existed. It would only destroy the both of them rather than anything else.
Proof came from the break up she'd told him she'd purposed. That alone showed that none of it was ever going to work out and the child it's self would be screwed with any outcome. He'd known his best friend almost their entire lives, she wasn't cut out to be a mother now. he wasn't sure if she was ever really going to ready to be a parent. She was too much of a free spirit to be confined to taking care of a child for the rest of her life. The baby was already better off being raised by strangers and nannies in Nate's home then tagging along with Vanessa. as much as he loved his best friend he had little courage in her to be a good mother. Mother wasn't a word he ever would have associated with Vanessa Abrams.
"V…"
He started only to be cut off by her annoyed look, a look he'd learned to know better than most over the years. She knew what he was about to say, Dan could see it in her eyes as soon as her mouth opened to speak.
"Don't say it Dan, don't give me the 'you did a stupid thing and I'm worried about you' speech because it's a little too late for that. What's done is done and there's nothing I can do to get out of it. It's more than just some stupid little game Dan"
Sighing she rolled off of the small dorm bed and went back to folding clothes to put in the small set of draws beside her bed. She was annoyed with him and he didn't even have to say another word on the subject. In fact if he did say another word on it she was likely to throw him out and evict him from her room already. If he had to stay with his new roommate and that was it already there was no way he'd survive dorm life without sleeping at home most of the nights.
"There's always adoption Vanessa, between the two of you I'm sure you could find a good home and someone to actually care for the baby. That way you could still have your life Vanessa, the way you want it. just think about it for a while. You'd know it was well taken care of, and you two would be free to do whatever you want without having to worry what the effect was going to be in the end.
He knew he'd gotten her to stop and think about the possibilities, how she could keep her life the way she wanted yet still give the baby a good life it's self. He was giving her the option of a way out and a way to make things right. in Dan's mind it was the only thing that made sense for Vanessa to do anymore. the last thing he wanted to see was to see his best friend struggle with things she couldn't handle. Handling a kid was something he was more than sure she couldn't do. She hardly had patients when it came to Ruby, a baby was a completely different story.
"You have got to be kidding me"
Soon as they'd heard the voice and the exclamation Dan and Vanessa both looked at one another. it sounded like Blair's voice outside of Vanessa's dorm room. They both cringed at the same time. As the door knob turned Vanessa walked her way back to sit down on the side of the bed beside him. They were both exchanging a look of nerves as the door slowly opened, all four mouths in the vicinity of the small dorm room dropped open, there was only one that perked up into a sick over joked smile. Dan snapped his mouth shut and looked at Vanessa who still looked horrified. Vanessa Abrams, Blair Waldorf, and Georgina Sparks had all been assigned the same dorm room. If the year lasted it would be a miracle, if the semester lasted it would be a shock, and, if anyone survived the night it would be completely unexpected.
Jen- wow! Yay I'm so glad you liked it, and here I was saying that it wasn't my best chapter. Things were far to hidden in the chapter then I'd of liked it to comes out. Vanessa needs some sort of father figure and I figured that Rufus was perfect for that. he'd known her since day one and he's one of the people that knows her the best. I liked Maureen when they first showed her on the show and here Maureen is very important, she'll continue to be important. Anne's letter was to tie up loose ends that seemed to be left up in the air.
I love Chuck! Lol I think this is making me love Chuck more, since I don't much care for him on the show well only toured the end of the season. And yes he's a big fan of the bay, secretly of course, god forbid anyone ever saw it. though just a little thing, Vanessa's more over his number one priority and if he had to choose between the two of course he'd worry more about Vanessa then the baby ;)
Francesca – You'll know soon enough, two or three chapters I believe ;) YOB is currently on hold for a little while, I haven't nearly started on it as much as I hate to admit that. I'll get on it though! I promise!
Cherielle – Thank you :D don't worry, you're not getting to much of a calm breath, what's the fun without the drama right?
Christinamarie712 – :D Rufus is really the only real father that Vanessa knows of course he was going to give her a bit of a lecture. Nope, Nate didn't purpose but there was something more with the necklace. And now I'm pretty sure you know what the key was (:
AryannaMonroe – I love giving people new addictions :P lol I hope the rest of the story lives up to it's beginning.
Izzy – I was hoping you'd be happy with that :P figured that Anne needed to redeem herself somehow. Maybe that made her a little bit better? At least I'm hoping lol
Drastic? Vanessa… neverrrr :P of course that's totally sarcastic, it's all leading up to something of course. I have a reason for it all up my sleeve and you'll see soon, very very soon. Sorry about the grandfather bit, I couldn't figure out how to do it and rather than do it wrong I just mentioned it.
Everything she's done has to have had some kind of effect on… grr and here I am still having to call it it. it has, a baby is only as tough as it can be. :-/
Scary thought isn't it? hmmm well then, we'll see
You haven't, as long as you're still liking it that's all that counts Izzy :hug: you know that.
Alex! – There's so much that I want to write here but I really doing feel good. I have a killer cold suddenly since I was messaging you ealier and it's making me just want to crawl into a little ball, put in twilight, grab my blanket and go to sleep again. I slept all afternoon or you would have had this chapter a lot earlier, I was trying to get it to you, I'm sorry I wish I had.
Hmm you know, when I was writing that one shot I didn't even think about it. I like the CV friendship as we both do. And you know that I love the whole CV sex thing so I'm not going to complain there and I still think it's going to be a bigger deal that's thrown in her face when they fight. Not that he really has much room to talk but he's Nate and he's an ass and he doesn't think. Show wise anyways.
As I told you before I love how you're the only one who figured that out, I wonder if anyone else with jump on the suddle hint I left in this chapter. ;) hmmm mentioning steamy NV makes me want to work on one of the ten dozen one shots I have started :pout: I wish I felt better or I'd do it right now. The writers are a bit incompetent to Nate's dreams just fade but rather I like your idea of it there. As for here Vanessa's stubborn, she doesn't want him to miss anything just because he got her pregnant, damn it woman! Can't you just think selfishly for five seconds, goodness gracious if there was ever a masochist in my stories it's V by far. She only spent the night at C's because she knew it would piss off N, and that's what she wanted. She can't go to Dan's, she won't dare go after the argument she had with Jenny. Jenny's evil. Here's your DV scene, I think you'll like it. and thank you for the review darling, you know it made my day as always :kiss: can't wait to hear what you think.
