C H A P T E R T H R E E

(j u s t i n p o v)

"Well you have the emotions of a freaking robot!" She yelled, eyes narrowed and fingers curled, nails looking more like claws then anything else.

"Robots don't have emotions!" You hollered back, unsure what even started the fight this time but unwilling to let her win.

"Exactly!" She shrieked before turning on her heel and storming to her room, the door slamming shut with a loud bang behind her.

It was midway through your third month of living with Alex.

And things were getting unbearable.

It wasn't like it had been before you left for college. Before, it was easier. You weren't having terrible (wonderful) dreams about her and your entire family was there to act as buffers. Max would make jokes and your mom would keep the peace and your dad would punish both of you if you stepped too far over the line.

There was none of that now.

It was just you and Alex.

There was no Max to laugh at or talk to when you started to annoy each other. Your mom wasn't there to tell you to calm down or to convince Alex to stop picking on you. Your dad wasn't there to enforce the rules.

And therefore the rules were obsolete, nonexistent, and completely gone.

Which resulted in skyrocketing tensions, way-too-close to cruel pranks, and more fighting than anything else.

This whole living with Alex thing was just not working out very well.

You don't even know what started this fight. The two of you were sitting in front of the TV, Alex eating something unhealthy and you trying to study, and then the next thing you know you're screaming at her and she's shouting back.

And then she's freaking yelling about how you have no emotions.

Which is perfectly ridiculous because really, the problem that you're currently having is not caused from a lack of emotions, it's a result from too many not good emotions.

Stupid not good emotions. They're taking over all your thoughts and screwing with you, messing up your studying habits and lowering your intellect levels.

And then Alex accuses you of not having them.

Which is ridiculous.

You know emotions, some better than others. Pain and sorrow and lust are your near constant companions, curiosity the only one that comes close to being around as often as the other three.

You know curiosity.

It's the bright flash of a newly accomplished spell and learning something new and a restless feeling underneath your skin, your body refusing to settle until it gets the answers that your mind seeks.

It's when you notice Alex is acting shiftier than usual and this burn spreads throughout you, only cooling once you've found out whatever new scheme Alex had come up with.

It's learning new things and getting perfect grades in school and wondering how your life is going to even out, how your love for science and your knack for magic will balance each other.

You know what pain is.

It's a sharp twist in your stomach that makes your appetite disappear and your hands clench and your eyes close.

It's when Alex glares at you in that unforgiving way that only she can.

It's when a mummy kidnaps Juliet and when she gets bitten by Mason and ages too rapidly and leaves you.

It's a result of seeing Alex and Dean kiss.

It's what you feel when you see that damn glowing necklace that Mason gave her, that was glowing because she was in love.

You know how sorrow feels.

It's tears that you won't cry and when your eyes turn completely gray and you play with you action figures, because they're your escape from the real world and whatever resulted in your sadness in the first place.

It's when Alex refuses to talk to you for three weeks because you were trying to protect her and you told your parents that she was out all night.

It's what you feel when you realize that you're forgetting Juliet, how she tasted and smelled and kissed.

It's because Alex won't visit you at college and the only time she'll talk to you is on random days at three in the morning, and even then she only calls because she's near wasted or hoping for your voicemail.

You know lust, how it feels and what it is.

It's a wave through your body that makes your knees weak and a shiver ripple down your spine and leaves tingles in its wake and causes you to gulp hard in an attempt to regain control.

It's what you feel after your first kiss, the real one, the one that took you way too many tries to get.

It used to be when you saw Juliet's long gold hair and perfect pink lips and cool pale skin.

It's Alex and the way she moves, the way she speaks, and the way she looks. It's when she bites her too full bottom lip and smiles at you, a real smile that you've never seen her bestow on anyone but you. It's how she dances when she thinks no one is watching and how she steals your clothes to wear whenever she does laundry.

You know curiosity and pain and sorrow and lust.

They're Alex.

Everything is.

And that's not good for your sanity.


(A L E X p o v)

Stupid Justin.

You've been living with the jerk for almost three freaking months and he keeps shutting you out and refusing to talk to you and being an all around idiot.

So, you keep picking fights with him over ridiculous things. Like yesterday, you totally started yelling at him for using your toothpaste.

That's how petty you have become.

Simply because freaking Justin won't talk to you.

It's all his fault.

It's his fault that you can't properly party without fear of wrath from your parents and that you're actually getting good grades in your classes because he pisses you off and you storm into your room and there's nothing to do in there besides draw and study.

You're even improving in magic, you actually impressed your father a couple of weekends ago when you showed up Justin with all the new spells you had learned.

Idiotic Justin.

He's making you learn and you can't party and you're acting like a freaking girl and fighting with him over the stupidest things.

Things you don't even care about.

Because he won't talk to you.

Fights are all the contact you have left.

Jeez this sucks.

Freaking Justin.

This is all his fault.


This took me forever and it's not even that long :( My apologies.