Chapter 4: Control

I can see the rain falling just outside the door of the store. I wanted to take a little walk to this little family owned grocery store six blocks away for lunch, they always have the best sandwiches, I guess that s out of the question today. I ll just have to go to the caf across the street today. Maybe I ll have some soup or something. They have some pretty good soup there. I can deal with that, not what I wanted but it'll have to do.

I just want some time to myself. I m usually wishing for company but today I just want to be alone for a while. I think this is one of those be careful what you wish for moments. I just want things the way they were before she showed up this morning. I never had to think about my life before. I just accepted everything about me without question, now I don t know what to think.

Well, I better get over there before my break is over. I only have thirty minutes for lunch and it takes fifteen of it to get the food. The small caf , Urban Earth, is well known around here. That's why there is a big ass line everyday at lunch and breakfast. But it s totally worth it if you have the patience to wait.

I should have brought my hoodie with me. Damn it! I m going to be soaked!

I have a jacket in my car if you want to borrow it. And then maybe we could have lunch together? Damn it! I just wanted to be alone. But maybe she could drive me to the grocery store for a sandwich. I was really craving a sandwich. Whatever. I can have alone time later. I m going to get me a sandwich!

Um, sure. Want to go to a place I know? They have the best sandwiches ever but the only problem is that we can t walk in the rain. Could you maybe drive? I never had to ask anyone but my Mom for a ride anywhere and no one has ever let me borrow something from them, not even my brother.

She has this huge smile on her face now and I m pretty sure her mouth is going to fall off any minute now with all the smiling she has been doing today. Yeah, yeah. I ll drive but let me get my purse first. I ll be right back. She just turns and walks away but then when I turn my head and look out the corner of my eye, she is sprinting down the hall to grab her things. Crazy girl.

I just barely sit down before I see her power walking down the hall. Geez, this girl has a fire under her ass. I head over to the door to wait for her instead of staying in the chair. How far away did you park your car? I need to know if I m going to wait here or if I can run over to her car.

I m right out front. You probably won t get that wet if you run over there. I just nod my head and follow her to her car. Running full speed ahead. I almost fell. Good thing I fall a lot, I can actually balance myself out really quick before I fall and just keep on running.

She unlocks her car doors and I hop into her front seat. I m wet and cold. I look over to her and I see her rooting through her backseat for what I am assuming is the jacket that she promised me. Bingo! I was right.

I give her directions to sandwich heaven. She then starts up her car and we head off. I don t talk to her the whole time. I think it s more out of habit for me but I can tell that she is uncomfortable with it. I guess I could try and make her more comfortable. After all she is taking me to sandwich heaven and she did give me her jacket without question.

Um, so, what s your full name? I couldn t think of anything else. Geez, I m so lame!

My full name is Ashley Devi Davies. What s your full name?

I guess it s only fair that I answer her. It s, ah, um, Spencer Kallisto Carlin.

Thank God. As soon as I finish the question we arrive at the grocery store aka sandwich heaven. I put on the jacket and get out of the car so fast that I'm sure I look like a blur. I don t even wait for her to get out of the car or catch up as I head into the store. I want my sandwich! The sooner I get my sandwich the less questions I have to ask or answer.

I ve only known her a couple of hours and I can already feel my control slip. It s slipping out of my hands and into hers. The more I try to keep it from her, the more I give it to her. This sucks major ass.