Chapter 5: The Battle
So, um, do you play any instruments? Uh, why can t she just leave me alone? I just want to eat my sandwich and get back to work. Yes? No? I continue to stuff my face and she just looks at me like I grew another head. Are you a mute now? I don t answer her and she s starting to look sad.
I am such a sucker for sad faces. Yeah, I play. With just a small sentence her face lights up. It s like when you turn on the Christmas lights for the first time, it s so bright and you can t help but smile.
What do you play? I can t believe this! Are the answers I give her going to be on Jeopardy or something? I m serious! Now one even bothered to ask my name before and now she wants to know everything about me. Not going to answer? I m just curious about you. She has that damn sad look again, God I hate that look. Geez, any look but that one.
I play the guitar and a little bit of the piano. Do you play? What? She gave me that sad look that I can t stand and if she gets to ask questions so do I.
I play guitar, piano and drums. Wow, never would have guessed. Maybe we should jam together some time. I haven t done that in a while. She looks really happy. How can I say no?
Um, yeah, sure. We ll figure it out later. We have to get back before Kent has a fit. I get up from the table to throw away my trash and head towards her car. The rain is still going pretty good, I ll have to thank her better later on.
Hold on, just wait a minute. She's running towards me laughing. I have no clue why she is laughing. I didn t do anything. Like I said, crazy girl.
What are you laughing at? Did I do something? Not that I want her to stop. She has a beautiful laugh. She even crinkles her nose up. Another thing I m such a sucker for. Damn!
Yeah, you just up and ran away. You are starting to remind me of the white rabbit in Alice in wonderland. What the hell? I am not like the white rabbit.
Come on, I m late. She's laughing even harder now. Ah, this sucks, I ve never been late before. I m serious. I m late, we have to get going.
She just sits there and laughs. I don t have time for this. I grab her hand and pull her towards her car while she is laughing her lungs up like I ve never seen anyone do before. I don t think she ll be able to drive in the condition she is in. She looks like she is about to pass out from the lack of breathing. Come on, let s go, it s not that funny. I ve never been late for work before. I'm trying to give her my sad puppy eyes with the head tilt. Bingo! She straightening herself up now. I ll have to remember that for later if I ever have the need for it again.
Alright, alright. We ll be there is a few minutes. It s not like it s across town. Geez. I can t tell whether she is annoyed now or if she thinks that I was mad or something. Uh, I don t know anymore.
Are you annoyed by me? I can t help but look down at my feet while asking. I already know that most people can t stand to be around me but I always thought that I was better off without them.
No, I m not annoyed by you. I looked up at her and she had a small smile on her lips that is causing me to smile. This girl has to be lying though. I even annoy myself sometimes. So, I know for a fact that I annoy her.
Really? Not even a little? Or maybe you re mad? I have to ask. She just doesn t want to hurt my feelings because we ll be working together. That must be it. It s the only reason why she is being so nice!
No, you don't annoy me. I just want to get to know you a little more. And no, I m not mad, not even a little. I feel bad now. I don t know why. It s not like I did anything wrong. It s just too weird for me.
I just put my face back down to look at my shoes. Which I have to remind myself later to wash because they re so freaking dirty it s unreal. Anyways, I ll just have to apologize; what else is there to do? I m sorry. This is just weird for me. You are the first person to even ask. Not even my parents or my brother even bother to ask. So, I m just a little freaked by it.
No, no, don t feel sorry. I really want to get to know who you are. You are a really nice person and it would be nice to maybe be friends one day. I could really use a friend. But that s only if you re up for it. What?! What should I do? Should I accept? I don t know! This has never happened to me before! I can t even remember the last time I had a friend! Ok, calm down. Don t freak. Just put a smile on your face and toughen up.
Maybe, when we know each other better. I need to know you more to make a better decision. Her smile is so big you could probably light up the whole of New York City with it.
That sounds like a good idea to me. I hope I m doing the right thing. It would suck if it didn t turn out good. I have to work with the girl for who knows how long. She would probably make my life a living hell or worse she would turn to the dark side. But if I don t at least try then I ll never know. I ll just keep it safe.
Oh, damn it. We are probably so freaking late. I have never been late before! I really don t to make that a habit. I will definitely bring a lunch tomorrow. Kent is going to kill me! I grab her hand again and run to her car. It s still pouring down really hard. I don t think I ve ever seen puddles this huge in my entire life. Keep focus and don t fall. The car is right there.
Damn it. I jinxed myself. One minute I m running towards her car and the next thing I know I m on the ground. Oh and because I was holding her hand so tight she fell as well. And guess what! She is on top of me once again.
She puts her hand on my chest. Which does not help anything but to speed up my heart and I m sure my heart will fail before she takes her hand off of that area on my body. She is touching around my head. I just hiss at her when she touches where my head met the pavement. Don t lift your head just yet. I want to check it out first.
I let her. What else am I going to do? I'm just laying here staring at her and letting her do anything she wants to me. Her left hand is still on my chest and her right hand is caressing my head. Her body is pressed against mine. I don t think I felt so paralyzed and carefree before in my whole life.
I just want to stay in this position for the rest of my life. It feels so good. I m fighting against myself on whether or not I should hold her tighter against me. I want to pull her as close as I can to me.
I don t know what happened to me when I hit my head against the pavement. But something snapped in me and put everything in its place. It feels so good to know what I want. And I want her.
