Chapter Two: No, it isn't.
I stretch my arms out and yawn, pushing my pillow off the bed.
I reach over the edge of the bed and feel around for it. I don't want to open my eyes, but I have to in order to find it.
The sun hits me like a brick wall.
"Ow" I cover my eyes and pull the covers over my head.
I roll over and then realize I'm not alone.
Who would be in my bed?
I was at a Gay bar last night.
Wait.
I was, and then I left and went to the lesbian bar a block away.
Oh My God.
I open my left eye and see a brunette sleeping next to me. She is cute. With her straight hair and pierced eye brow she looks damn good for being asleep.
And oddly, she looks kind of like Ashley.
The words slip from my mouth. "Ashley"
Shit.
Shit.
Shit.
"Uh, I mean, Hey you, wake up" I sit up and nudge her. She stirs our of her slumber and gives me a tired smile.
"Hey" She stumbles out of the bed and starts putting her clothes back on, which are strewn across the room along with mine.
"I had, uh, a good time last night" I furrow my eye brows trying to remember what really happened, but I can't remember a thing.
"Yeah, me too" She slides her sunglasses on and leaves.
I wait till I hear the front door close and then get up.
Dan is already up and has a pot of coffee made.
He rocks my socks.
I don't dare look in the mirror because I know I won't like what I see.
I'll see a girl who is heartbroken and lost.
A girl who is missing her heart because someone stole it when I wasn't watching.
A girl who has resorted to meaningless sex to try and forget about the one who killed me, but everyone of them look similar to Ashley.
A girl who hides from most of the world.
Ugh.
I don't like that girl in the mirror.
"Good morning sleeping beauty" Dan says with a smile on his face.
I groan and pour myself a cup of coffee, putting tons of sugar and creamer in it.
"Sleep well?"
"I don't remember" I take a seat next to him on the couch.
"Good because I don't want to know about it anyways"
I eye him meanly. "Gee, you really know how to charm a girl"
He puts his hand on his chest. "Excuse me, but I'm a mega charmer, just ask the man candy I fucked all nig-"
I clasp my hand over his mouth. "That's enough Casanova" I giggle and start drinking my coffee.
He is silent.
And then he takes my cup out of my hands and sets it aside and makes sure I am facing him. "Are you okay sweetie?"
"Yeah, I'm fine" I lie, not making eye contact.
"Bullshit" He scoffs. "I'm sorry about last night, I just thought you two would talk and the world would be sane again" I know he's being honest.
"You thought if we talked, that BAM, all would be forgotten?" I look at him shocked.
He nods his head eagerly.
"Sorry to disappoint you, but its never that easy when it comes to Ashley" I say sadly.
I'm saying things I don't want to say and talking about things I don't want to talk about.
Again.
"Honey, life is only as hard as you make it" God, he sounds just like my mom.
"God, you sound like my mom" A disgusted look washes over my face.
"Whatever" He rolls his eyes and looks away.
"Its true" I reply.
There is a knock on the door.
"Who would be here in the morning?" I ask dumbly.
"Oh sweetie, its not morning anymore." He points the clock on the stove.
It shows 1:30.
Holy mother of god.
I slept half the day.
"Spencer, close your eyes." Dan yells at me.
I look at him.
"Hey! No peeking young lady" He scolds me. "Close your eyes"
I do as I am told. "Why?" I whine.
"Zip it sista" He says in his boy from the hood voice. I mean, girl from the hood voice.
"Yeah yeah" I put my hands on my eyes for full eye coverage.
"Okay, open them!" He says excitedly.
I move my hands to my lap and then open my eyes slowly only to come face to face with a fish in a bowl.
"Um, what is that?"
"It's a fish silly." Dan says rudely and hands it to me. "It'll be therapeutic." He says like he knows everything.
"Right" I get up and go to my room. "Where should I put it?" I look around.
It's a blue and red Japenese Fighting fish, a Beta.
"Here" Dan pats my desk.
"Good idea, that way I won't forget about it"
"Precisely." He wraps his arms around me, hugging me. "What are you going to name it?"
"I shall name it, Frenchie"
"Frenchie?" He looks amazed.
"Yes"
"Whatever floats your boat then" He kisses my cheek. "Spence,darling, I have to attend to some things, so I may or may not be back for dinner, mkay?"
"Uh-huh, sure."
I push him. "Go have fun"
"Hey, take it easy." He flicks his hand in the air. "Ciao, Bella" Such a queen.
"Bye" I laugh to myself. "I guess its just you and me buddy" I am level with the bowl and the fish is staring at me. I puff my cheeks out and it flares itself right back at me. "Feisty, I like." I stand up and change into some real clothes.
Who knows who might stop by today, and I want to look semi-decent if anyone does.
Plus, I might just leave this apartment and do something.
But before I do that I dive into my bed and lay there, staring at the ceiling. Thinking about how I got here to this point in my life.
"Hi, is, uh, Spencer here?" A girl asks my mom. At the sound of her voice my head immediately leaves the TV screen and I stare at the door.
"Wait here" My mom says nicely and walks into the living room. "Spencer?"
"Yeah mom?"
"You have a guest."
I act oblivious. "Really?"
"Yep" She smiles and walks upstairs.
I stand up excitedly and practically run to the door. I fling it open, almost knocking myself out, but thankfully I don't.
That would be so embarrassing.
"Hi" The auburn haired girl smiles at me, holding out a box of chocolate and "Forrest Gump" The movie.
"What's this for?" I ask curiously, taking it.
"Its my apology" She states.
I tilt my head.
"You know, for almost killing you yesterday" She laughs nervously.
"Oh, right. Well" I shift my weight on my feet.
A nervous habit.
"That's really nice of you, Thanks"
"Yeah, its no problem."
She stands there awkwardly and I'm unsure if I should ask her to come in or not.
But she speaks up first.
"Do you want to like, get out of here or something? You know, like hang out or whatever.." Her eyes never look into mine, they shift from her feet to her hands.
"Um, yeah, sure"
A big smile crosses her face. "Really? I mean, because you don't have to just because I gave u chocolate and all"
She is talking really fast and its kind of cute.
Putting my hand on her shoulder, I calm her down. "Really." I shut the door behind me after setting my gifts on the small table. "C'mon, lets do something crazy"
She laughs at me and I turn red.
This is a courtship I don't think I couldn't stand not having, I think to myself.
I smile to myself and finally get up off my lazy ass.
I check my phone for any messages and am surprised to see one from Ashley.
Sorry about last night, I didn't mean to ruin it, or upset you. After this, you will never have to see or hear from me again. Always, Forrest Gump.
A whimper leaves my lips as I fall to the floor.
