An: don't mind the grammar mistakes for now ill fix them later, but if you see anything just tell me. If you read Love Map you know I'm a pretty upbeat writer. But the second half of this serves the purpose of showing Tsuna's pain in feeling alone; and his guilt. There is a love scene and you don't have to read it, but it does have information. Shinji's pov might be an OC but it's to show you how Tsuna changes his guardians with his mere presence whether it is spiritual, residual, or physical and how it's apparent to even outsiders. Also how they hurt at being away from each other. If you have any comments of concerns please review. Or just tell me you like it. I try to pump out chapters knowing u want me to continue so please review.
(Kiss me, k-k-kiss me, infect me with your love, and fill me with your poison.)
Shinji looked down at his hands and frowned. Today was the worst day of his life and it all started, and ended with Tsunayoshi Sawada. He thought to how no one seemed to remember how much of a loser he once was; because right now they were all groveling at his feet. Shinji looked back at the moment Sawada came back, and how the nasty bitches were all wet for him all of a sudden. When he was just Dame-Tsuna, no one even batted an eyelash at him. He growled and though of how his disciples had gotten their asses handed to them by Sawada, who then jumped the fence into the safety of Hibari's school.
He then watched Tsunayoshi touch Hibari's shoulder. Obviously touching each other's was something Sawada picked up abroad, because he seems to constantly do it.
Especially with his so called tutor who follows him around. He also makes him read big ass text books during lunch breaks.
Shinji also noticed that Sawada was still as dumb as a brick. During his first day back he caught him multiple times mind you, just staring into the wind; or writing a note to the overly eager Gokudera.
Luckily he was caught by the fierce Watanabe-sensei. Sensei spotted the bastard writing a note so he threw a piece of chalk at him. Normally the chalk would hit the distracted student on the forehead. Shinji luckily had built up a super useful chalk callous before getting with the program. But Sawada caught it and stood up to answer the super fucking hard, problem like fucking Einstein. What is in the water abroad?
Steroids, that must be it, it's the only explanation.
During Sawada's time away Gokudera the local delinquent, had lost a lot of his jewelry and came to school very plain looking, but once Sawada returned he seemed like a fucking peacock. The strange boxes hanging from his hip, the rings bracelets and belts returned after a prolonged absence. It would have been fine if his other friends had not followed suit. It was like the coming of a king.
Yamamoto finally got his much needed haircut which the teachers had been bitching about. Hibari began showing discipline after months of relaxed punishments.
(In reality he had been far harsher than usual when Sawada first left, then like a child missing his parent he began losing enthusiasm about causing mischief. Until he ended up only giving enough beatings to keep the students body scared straight.)
It seemed like when Sawada left almost two years ago, it hit them all hard. The charismatic Yamamoto, the aggressive Gokudera, the crazy instinct driven Hibari, it was like they all lost their drive to shine.
It was noticeable after the first month, Gokudera got lazy, Yamamoto got sad and Hibari was finally over the high of doing whatever he wanted.
Gokudera had stopped wearing jewelry except for a ring on his middle finger; the same for Yamamoto, except he started coming to school with dark eyes and a slumped back.
That phase lasted a few months before changing before his very eyes. It happened during English Gokudera's phone went off with an unexpectedly merry ring. Shinji could honestly say Gokudera stood up so fast he knocked over his own desk. Yamamoto, who was sitting three rows over, also bolted up and pushed bitches the fuck out of the way in his haste to get to Gokudera. Gokudera suddenly looked hesitant and was holding the phone with a shaking hand. Yet he still opened it and held it up to his ear. At that moment the class saw both of them break. Or so they thought, Yamamoto started babbling something that somehow made sense to Gokudera. Then he repeated it into the phone. Gokudera's shocked expression turned blissful, like an addict receiving his fix.
They grinned together as Gokudera told him something he was repeating from the caller. Then they both began moving towards the door. No one knows what happened then, but they seemed to get their drive back.
Yamamoto rejoined the baseball team, but kept his long hair. It also signaled a change for Gokudera who was becoming a usual sight inside Dr. Shamal's office. Helping him out, even caring for the hurt males that the doctor tended to completely ignored.
They got their drive back; but they still seemed to be lacking something.
Around that time Hibari disappeared to fuck knows were, only to return four months later. According to some he was blissful. To him he was crazier than ever, fighting people everywhere. Yamamoto continued to grow out his hair, and to win tournaments for the team. Gokudera was even spotted with a girl.
Even though said girl had an eye patch, and two other guys with her, it was an improvement. His fan girls began to believe that he was finally getting over the loss of the girl they made up to explain his melancholy attitude.
For Shinji the biggest change that occurred when Sawada came back was himself. It was an unexpected and small turn of events, but it made him realize something. They were in the locker room when he changed his mind. They were changing and Shinji was trying to hurry up so he could get the fuck away from the weirdoes, when a phone went off. He turned just as everyone in the room turned. Sawada had his phone out and was answering it with an apparent practiced ease. He was obviously not informed that cell phones in school are illegal. To him it didn't matter. Sawada was stripped of his shirt and was showing everyone his pale ass skin, and his weirdly unexpected tattoos. He had a large 'X' on his back as well as the top of his feet and small unidentifiable crest on his hip bone. He leaned back and spoke into the phone and rolled his eyes at Gokudera who smiled in return. Sawada then pulled the phone down and directed himself to Gokudera who looked at him sharply.
"You're going to go to Uni's and you're going to get me what she sends." Gokudera just nodded, and got back to dressing. Sawada continued with his conversation a seconds before hanging up.
"This job is going to kill me of an ulcer before I'm even twenty."
"At least it has perks right tenth?" Shinji saw from the corner of his eye Sawada reward Gokudera with an indulgent grin.
"And what are those?"
"Hibari is too scared to bite you." Sawada was the only one to burst into laughter. Shinji realized just how much Sawada Let others rely on him even when giving out orders.
His happiness from the revelation was totally ruined for Shinji by time he got home and had to listen to his mom squeal about Sawada; and her plans to marry off Shizuno. His older sister to him as if anyone wants to marry that fat ass. Shinji figured the least he could do for Sawada would be to save him from making the mistake of joining his family.
(Italy, Rome 3:13 Am)
Tsuna was forced awake by a skilled hand pinning him down to the bed.
"Tsuna~ wake up"
"Good mid-night Reborn"
"Its past-" he was forced to stop due to Tsuna pressing his lips to the older man's lips. Tsuna's never ending frown turning against the older man.
"Im tired of feeling cold Reborn. I know it's selfish to ask much less force it on you but you are going to have to take all my repressed feeling for now. Being away from those I love is taking a toll on me. As my tutor it's your job to ease my pain." Reborn looked down to the smaller male and smiled indulgingly,
"I'm glad you came to me bakka, I was afraid you were going to go to Squalo or Xanxus, hell I even caught you making doe eyes at Bel."
"They satisfy me like appetizers would. You're the main course; it's you I want to devour."
"It's unusual for you to be this blunt; does this mean you finally had the balls to call Gokudera?"
"I work for the family; and since they can't be with me, the feelings I would usually shower on them have to go somewhere don't they?" Tsuna let his hand slide down and un-tuck Reborn's shirt.
"Have you been having sex with your guardians'?" Reborn smirked at him clearly surprised yet curious.
"No," he licked his jaw line and nuzzled his neck. "I just want to have sex with you, and instead of dividing my attentions, you get all of them." Reborn growled and bit Tsuna's neck; only to lighten the blow with a flick of his tongue. He followed it by blowing on it; causing Tsuna to buckle his hips into his.
"I was just turned a week ago, way to control yourself."
"I was never one for control, when I'm scared I run, when I'm hungry I eat." he accentuated the statement by flicking Reborn's collar open and licking down the cut of his collar bone.
"You'll have to forgive me not indulging you as much as I would like Tsuna, but we have an early meeting and," he paused to see Tsuna frowning. "What?"
"You're rejecting me." Tsuna said it like a statement, his face becoming sour.
"Bakka, I'm giving you what you want. But only a quickie, I'm still weak." Tsuna grinned and rolled over. His arms pinned Reborn under him before grinding their hips together. They both ended up reeling in the friction. Tsuna groaned deep in his throat before tearing Reborn's shirt off him. He followed it up by pushing their chest together and leaning in for a kiss.
Reborn obliged him and leaned forward leaving his fedora on the pillow. Tsuna took advantage and ran his fingers through dark locks letting Reborn have dominance of the kiss. Tsuna bit down on the opposing tongue and rolled his own. Reborn pulled down Tsuna's pants and stroked his cock. Like lightening Tsuna struck, and had Reborn's own cock in his hand lightly rubbing the tip meanwhile rubbing his hips against Reborn's leg. Reborn let Tsuna's cock go in order to grab Tsuna's face and kiss him roughly. He stroked him in time with his tongue till Tsuna managed to spill all over his hand. Tsuna arched his back as pooled sweat trickled down his back intensifying the orgasm as it rolled off him leaving him breathless.
"That was the best I've had in a while. But it's not fair." he leaned down and took Reborn's cock in his mouth.
"It's always been in your nature to put those you protect above you... But I always pay off my depts." Tsuna looked up and grinned; a grin he'd kept to himself all the months he had spent in Italy.
"God I hope so, if it's as good as what you just did with your hand. I can only imagine what you can do with your cock." his voice sent vibrations through Reborn's stomach and straight into his dick. Tsuna licked up Reborn's length and took him fully into his mouth. Reborn came quickly with a slight grunt that reverberated into Tsuna's throat. He swallowed him up and licked him clean as he rode through his high.
"It's been a while since I've done that."
"You're being quite talkative."
"Bakka." they both lay next to each other breathless and tired.
"I'm up for another round." Tsuna let the words roll of his tongue and float in the air.
"Maybe in the morning." he tucked Tsuna under his arm and closed his eyes. "Let me sleep now, you should sleep too; like I haven't noticed your sleepless nights."
"I thought you were too busy with the ninth to pay me any heed."
"You're my main priority; I was just waiting for you to learn your lesson." Tsuna nodded drowsily before drifting off to sleep.
