Author's notes : Hey ! I'm sorry it took a bit longer for me to end this chapter but my classes started again, it'll take me a few days now to update. Hope you'll like it :)

Thank you guys, Karine.

Chapter 6 :

When I arrived in the lab, Edward was already sat at his seat, he was looking through the window. I walked to my seat next to him and put my things on the table.

"Hello Edward," I said.

He smiled at me and replied : "Hi Bella."

"So how was your afternoon yesterday ?"

"It was… It went well, we went on the beach, I met one of Jessie's friends." He had a curious look on his face.

"Mmm, sounds nice," I said.

"What about you ?"

"Oh, we did some shopping finally. Nothing interesting for us at the movies for now."

He nodded and added : "I carried on working on our essay last night." He took sheets of paper from his bag.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't have time to work on it…" I replied, more embarrassed than ever.

"It's ok, take a look," he handed me the papers.

I took the time to read at human pace and congratulated him : "It's very good, I'll do the rest."

"Like you want," he replied as he took back his work.

The class began then. We stayed silent until the end, listening to the teacher. I was pretty content because I was used to his scent now, I could breathe normally even if he was near me.

When the bell rang, we got up and packed our things. He suddenly asked me : "Will you go for a ride with me today ? It's Friday, we could hang out a bit…"

I couldn't speak for a moment, I was too surprised then I said : "Where ?" I glanced at the sky, the clouds were much thinner than usual.

"I love the Lake Ozette, it's at the North," he said.

"Erm… I don't know…" He looked hurt and puzzled at the same time.

"Is there something wrong with this place ?" He asked.

"It's…" I glanced at the door, Alice was here, waiting for me.

You can't go, it'll be sunny.

"I have to go now, I'm sorry," and I walked to the door, leaving him alone.

As soon as I was in the hall, I told Alice : "Gosh, do you have any idea how much I hate myself right now ??"

"I know Bella, and it'll be sunny in here for the next 3 days."

I exhaled angrily. Great ! She rubbed my shoulders to comfort me. I guessed that if I was able to cry, I would have been right now.

"Do you know what he's going to do this weekend ?" I asked as we approached my car.

She focused for a few seconds and said : "He doesn't know yet, maybe he will go to this lake tomorrow but he hasn't decided anything yet."

I nodded. This was going to be a very long weekend. And suddenly, a thought came to my mind. That was a bit weird but attractive at the same time.

"What are you thinking about ?" Alice asked.

"Nothing," I replied.

She saw what I had decided and opened her eyes wide and then laughed a bit.

"What's so funny ?" Rosalie asked.

"Bella's mind is funny," Alice simply replied.

Rosalie raised her eyebrows and sighed.

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It was around 11 pm now and I was gonna turn into a peeping-tom for the first time in my existence. There was no light coming from Edward's room, I guess he was sleeping right now. I silently climbed the wall and looked through his window. He was sleeping quietly, his breathing was calm. I smiled at myself as I was looking at his face, he looked so at peace, I noticed that he was bare chest, the blanket stopped at his belly. I hesitated for a moment and decided to open the window, it creaked a bit but not enough for Edward to awake. I came into the room and was overwhelmed by his scent. I immediately noticed that his room was clean and tidy, there were lots of CDs and DVDs, I walked to the desk and saw the DVDs of Interview With A Vampire and Buffy. I gasped. Was it a coincidence or was he guessing ? I turned around and looked at him, he was frowning a bit now, I guessed he was dreaming. I came to sit at the edge of the bed, next to him and watched him. His hands were so beautiful, I wanted to touch his skin but I couldn't of course. He would get cold.

"Bella."

I looked at him, scared as hell, but his eyes were still shut. He was just talking in his sleep. And he was saying my name. He had a smile on his face now. I almost held my hand to caress his face but I didn't. Instead, I just looked at him.

"I don't care about this, Bella," he said.

What did it mean ?? What was it that he didn't care about ? I looked at the DVDs on the desk for a moment and decided that it was time to go home now. I approached his face and inhaled his sweet breath. I had to leave before I do something I'd regret then.

The next morning, I asked Alice if Edward had decided to do something for today. She closed her eyes and searched.

"Mmm…He will go to the lake."

"When ?"

"He's going now," she said.

"Now ?" I bit my lip and thought for a second.

"Why do you want to go ?" Alice asked me.

"Mmm… I just have a bad feeling, I don't like the idea of him alone near that lake."

She nodded but I doubted she could really understand. I took my keys and opened the front door and said : "Thanks Alice."

"No problem," and she winked.

I'll have to hide among the trees of course. I so wanted to tell him yes yesterday but this stupid sparkling-in-the-sun thing was keeping me from doing it. I loved my family for sure but since I met Edward, I wanted to be human so badly, even more than before.

I arrived at the lake around 10 am, it was quiet, only the birds were doing noise while singing. It was really a beautiful place, this lake was really huge, the water was very clear and there were many many trees and plants around it. The air was so pure, I smiled picturing Edward sitting here, contemplating the lake. He was a peaceful person, it immediately showed on his face. I had parked my car far from the lake so he wouldn't see it ; I walked through the trees to make sure I won't be in his field of vision before I knew where he was. I suddenly found him sat at the edge of the lake, he was looking at the water ; the sun was reflecting in his hair, emphasizing the red in his hair. The more I was looking at him, the more I was… in love with him. Yes, that was right, I was in love with him and now I could accept it. Either way, I couldn't fight my feelings so I'd better learn to live with them from now. Whatever Rosalie thought, it won't change anything, but the real matter was to know whether Edward would accept me the way I am or not. Mike was right after all, me and my family and anyone of us looked like freaks ; and it was worse in the sunlight : which human would want one of us ? Yet, even though Edward had been clearly afraid of me the first time we met, he wasn't avoiding me like Mike or any other humans. He even wasn't avoiding me at all. And a part of me was happy about it, that same part wanted to be in his life but the monster in me yearned for his blood, only his'. And there was nothing I could do to stop these two parts that were constantly fighting inside of me.

I hadn't noticed before as I was too busy thinking but the sun was now shining on my forearm. I stared at it for a moment, millions of diamonds were glistening on my arm. It was beautiful for sure but not human at all. I sighed and looked up at Edward and frowned : he wasn't here anymore. How could he have disappeared so silently ? I should have heard him. I looked everywhere but couldn't find him. I ran to where he was a few minutes ago, his scent was leading me on the right ; there was also another scent that I didn't know. But it wasn't human or animal. I kept on the trail that was soaked with Edward's scent and used all my senses to try to have a hint indicating me where he could be. I'm pretty sure I would have heard when he got up, but I had been too much in my thoughts and I tended to become like humans. My concentration seems to really be at one place at a time now. I kept looking around but saw nothing and it was almost 10 minutes since I started looking for him. I finally saw his car and quickly noticed that it was empty, I walked to it and tried to open the door, it was locked. I sighed and suddenly heard a noise coming from behind me, I quickly turned around and saw something moving among the plants so I ran and gasped. A vampire was trying to bite Edward, he hadn't seen me coming but the vampire had. He turned to me and I saw his red eyes full of thirst.

"Let him go," I said with the most menacing tone I've ever used before.

The vampire looked at me with surprised eyes and said :

"Excuse-me ? We could share !"

I winced and replied :

"I said : Let him go."

"No," and he approached Edward's neck with his open mouth. I heard Edward moaning of fear.

I ran to the vampire and hit him in the face, he was thrown 16 feet away. I glanced at Edward who was watching me with wary eyes then I approached the vampire and told him :

"Leave and you'd better not come back in the roundabouts."

Then he smiled and ran to me, I didn't move.

"Bella !" I heard Edward shout.

The vampire jumped in the air to reach me but hit an invisible wall instead ; I looked at him with a triumphant smile and raised my eyebrows. He got up, opened his mouth to speak and then just ran away. At vampire pace, of course.

I sighed and turned to face Edward. And what I saw in his eyes surprised me.