I woke early that morning knowing tonight was not going to go well. I had invited Jasper around for dinner to let him know about my plan to adopt Anton. I just hoped he would be as supportive as Edward.

He was aware that I still visited Anton a few times a week, but he probably figured that I was done with the adoption idea and was just volunteering as a friend. It was going to be quite a shock.

So id invited Rose around for midday margaritas so I could grow a pair and do this today. It was already a week since I had signed the papers and got the ball rolling and I had still yet to tell Jasper. My case was still going through the court but with my steady and flexible job Edward said it was really a done deal. He was not particularly happy that I had not told Jasper, his best friend and it had made things awkward between them. I hated myself for that so today I was going to do it.

After tidying my flat I popped round to my nearest supermarket buying all the supplies for today, a lot of alcohol and all the necessary ingredients for Jasper's favourite Taco's. The plan was to soften him up first and hopefully he would be so happy with the food he would not be bothered that his girlfriend was adopting a 3 year old. Not my best plan ever but I was out of options.

Rose pulled up just after 1 carrying a bottle of tequila. I immediately grabbed the bottle as soon as she entered and got a shot glass. Yes I was nervous. Really nervous.

"Damn girl, I know you wanted to drink early but calm down or you will pass out before I have even got started" Rose said. Like I said she just cares for people.

"Thanks rose, nice to know you care about my liver" I retorted sarcastically.

"No problem, soo can I ask why the midday drinking. Not that I'm opposed of course. "She replied totally ignoring my comment and pursuing the fridge for the margarita jug and getting us both a glass.

"Well today I'm going to spring on my 6 month boyfriend that I'm adopting a child and if see if he is even interested" I muttered I could see this being the end of me and Jasper and that's what I hated about today. I wasn't ready to say goodbye. I will just have to hope he still wants to try and be together. But Edwards's words kept repeating in my ear and my hopes dashing.

"Sweetie, he won't leave you. Trust me on this one. He's just as invested as you are. You will work this out,"

Rose isn't much of a talker so her words meant a lot. I would just have to hope for the best.

After that me and Rose sat down and continued drinking. She told me all about this new man she was dating named Emmet Mc Carthy, and apparently sex on legs. She already sounded in love. Emmett had really thrown her in a loophole taking her on their first date to see a hockey game. Not the usual setting but apparently that's what made him, him and she loved it. The fact that he didn't try to be what he wasn't. Emmett was an avid Hockey fan and just loved sports in general. I was happy for her and told her so.

I got her out the house around 6ish and started dinner knowing Jasper would be here any minute. I was still nervous and shaking. I had just cut up the last of the peppers as I received a new test. I immediately thought it was Jasper cancelling and thought I had longer to avoid this impending confrontation. My heart dropped as I realised it was Edward.

Don't worry Swan he cares for you and will come round. Don't forget that little face your fighting for it makes it all worth it.

P.s If he really is a dick I'm always available ;)

-E

I laughed out loud. Such an Edwardly text but it was sweet. He was right I could do this for Anton. I had just given myself a last minute pep talk as he walked in.

He must have followed the smell of the food as he immediately appeared in the kitchen,

"Hey babe. Umm Taco's my favourite thanks. Need any help" he said giving me a kiss on the check as his arms snaked around my waist.

"Erm can you just get the plates from the cupboard please I'm just about done"

"Sure babe" he replied and kissed me again on the neck his hand rubbing on my sides.

The dinner was nice, and it felt great to catch up. Jasper animatedly told me about the article he was writing about women's roles in the 16th century and despite never even liking history at high school I sat enchanted by his speech. That was Jasper he was so intensely passionate about history you could not help being entrapped in his stories.

After dinner we sat snuggling on my sofa with japer placing lazy kisses on my neck his hands memorising my body. I knew we needed to talk but his hands felt so good it was a good distraction.

As his mouth reached mine, I was fed up of the teasing and straddled his legs. This seemed to spur him on as he ground his body into mine. He felt so good. I could feel him hard against my body. We were both panting in need.

"Jasper... we need to ughh... we need to talk babe" I could hardly get the words out the feel of his body against mine.

"Sure babe... after" he said as he trapped his lips against mine.

This broke me from my haze. Knowing that I couldn't do this if he really was going to leave when he found out what I was planning to do. I gave him a few short kisses as I got off his lap and ran my fingers through my hair in frustration.

"Sorry, I just can't do this until you know what I'm doing ad if you will stay"

He stilled looking at me in confusion.

"What do you mean Bella?"

"Look, I just need to get this out. Will you just let me finish before you make your decision" I said grabbing his hand. Needing to feel him with me. He silently nodded.

"Jasper, you know I have been spending the odd days with Anton at the foster home and I've come to really care for him. He's a really sweet kid and I just... I knew he doesn't like it there. It's not the place he just doesn't fit you know. And each time I leave it breaks me seeing his little face crumble and I just couldn't do that anymore to me or him. I know we have briefly talked about this but now I'm positive. I want Anton in my life. I have started the proceedings. I'm going to adopt him.

But I don't want things to change between us. Jasper you have been there for the last 7 months of my life and I can't imagine you not being there. I need you. I don't want to push you away. I want both of you. I can understand if this is a deal breaker for you and you want out. It's not what you wanted and I kind of sprung this on you. But I don't expect you to be his father. Honestly I don't. But I want you to know him. He's such a great kid I know you would love him too.

I guess I'm just asking for you to give this a chance you know... can you do that?"

Jasper sat his hand still in mine and I thought of that as a good thing though he didn't seem to be moving at all, just staring straight ahead. He licked his lips his voice hoarse like he hadn't spoken in days.

"And did you not think I should have had a choice in this"

I couldn't judge his emotions so I went to answer

"Yes of cou-

"No! You obviously didn't Bella. I mean jeez a kid. Do you think any guy would actually just accept this? I mean that's a big part of your life t change. A fucking kid Bella. You just signed yourself up to be a single mum. "

He stood up and whispered "I just can't deal with his" running his hands through his hair.

All I could do was just sit and listen all of this was true, but I thought he would understand. Tears came to my eyes as I realised this was it. He was going to walk out.

And he did.

He didn't turn around to look at me again. Just walked straight out.

I don't know how long I sat there on the sofa in shock. It was expected but still it hurt soo bad. I grabbed my phone.

You were wrong. He couldn't deal :(

B

Edward never text back and I sat silently on the sofa crying. I don't know when I fell asleep but I awoke in Edwards arms.

"Hey, go back to sleep. I thought you might be more comfy here than on the sofa" he answered my silent question as he placed me on my bed. He went to walk back out but I grabbed his arm.

"He just walked out. You were wrong. So wrong. He couldn't even look at me. He just walked out. Like I meant nothing. Like we were nothing. 7 months Edward you don't just walk out of that person's life!"

I was practically yelling at this point with tears again falling down my face.

Edward crawled into my bed holding me close.

"I'm sorry he walked out Bella. It was a shock for him. But he will be back. That boy cares for you so much. He will be back Bella and everything will be fine"

I didn't believe him but I fell asleep clutching his arms wishing the last few hours out of my head. Jaspers expressionless face as he walked out.

I awoke in the morning to my empty bed and still in yesterday's clothes. I immediately showered and pulled in some sweats. It was a Sunday so I knew I could relax for the day. Maybe deal with the mess I caused tomorrow.

I walked out to my kitchen to find Edward sat at the Kitchen Island with breakfast at the ready. My favourite blueberry pancakes. I silently gave him a hug as I sat down and devoured my food. I didn't eat a lot yesterday because of my nerves.

The thought immediately brought me back to yesterday and Jasper. I ran to my phone which I had let in my living room. Expecting a miss call or a text. Nothing. He really was done. I silently went back to the kitchen and carried on eating my breakfast but not really having an appetite anymore.

I looked up to find Edward staring at me, concern in his eyes. He looked away after being caught staring and stood up to get some orange juice.

"Well that wasn't how I expected our first night sleeping together to be." He said a smirk playing on his face.

The tension seemed to have broke as I let out a laugh.

"Yeah, where was that Cullen expertise I have to say I'm a little disappointed" I said with a fake frown on my face.

"Round two anytime Bella. I'm always ready" he said winking. It felt good to forget about Jasper for a while and just laugh.

"Sorry I have a busy day. Reschedule?"

"Name a time. So where are you going?"

"I Promised Anton I would take him to the park today. I should probably get ready. That boy has never heard of a lie in. Do you want to come or do you have plans"

"Sure just get ready and we can go. I need to swing round mine and get changed first though ok?"

"Yeah sure I'll be 10 minutes. "

I quickly ran to my room grabbing my usual outfit of a tee and skinny jeans and my converses.

"Ready" I announced jumping into the room.

"You know sometimes I think you were born with a Y chromosome. Its unnatural for a women to get dressed that quick"

I maturely stuck my tongue out at him grabbing my leather jacket and pulling him out of my house.

As we got into his car I immediately went into his glove compartment grabbing my favourite cd and putting it on. Edward just stared at me.

"You know, some people know of this thing called personal space. Its where you ask before you touch there shit"

"Hardy harr Edward. I spend more time in this thing than you. So just hurry up, put the car in drive and lets go"

He conceded but carried on muttering under his breath about never bringing females into his car. I just laughed singing along to my favourite song obnoxiously loud.

As soon as we stopped Edward hopped out of the car striding angrily into his house. Maybe I went a little too far. I followed him in and waited patiently on his sofa as he got ready.

He looked surprised to see me there as he exited the room now dressed in green cargo pants and a plain white t shirt.

"Hey, I was waiting for you to emerge naked from the sofa and seduce me" I joked.

"I'm sorry, next time just join me in the shower"

We both laughed as we walked back into the car his anger forgotten.

"So I know you said you were sure but do you still want to adopt Anton. I mean you seemed pretty distraught last might.

"Yes, I mean am I upset yes. But I can't imagine not being in that kid's life. Does that make sense? Is it bad of me to pick Anton over Jasper?

"You're not picking Bella. You never got the chance. Jasper made the decision for you."

He looked away staring out the front again as I realised he was right. But I cared for Jasper I couldn't leave it this way. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket

Jasper I'm sorry. Your right I should have asked you before I started this thing. I kind of stem rolled it and didn't take your thoughts into consideration. But can we please not throw away what we had. Just ring me please we need to talk x

B

We pulled up outside the house, or previous sad thoughts forgotten as I excitedly ran up the drive. Sue quickly informed me that Anton was in his room packing. I looked at her confused and ran up the stairs.

In his room he had each toy in a line as he walked up and down like a sergeant picking up random toys as they got picked to go into his Toy story rucksack.

"Hey Anton what are you doing" I said walking to him to get my hug.

"Bell! Have to pick toys for park"

He again started the walk and I watched silently until a few minutes later he grabbed my hand stating he was ready. I picked him up and we walked down the stairs as I told him that Edward was coming toady. He seemed to remember him and he shouted 'Ed' as soon as he saw his face.

"Hey little man" Edward said putting out his hand in a fist bump. Anton still hadn't seemed to grasp that and instead placed his little hand around his fist. It was cute.

He again got car seat and got ready to go.

In the car Anton told us his plans for the day.

"Swing, then roundabout. Bell come on climbing frame."

I laughed "I think I'm a little big for the climbing frame sorry Ant, but il push you on the swing."

He titled his head in thought

"Ed climbing frame?"

We both again erupted in chuckles as Edward explained that he too was too big for the climbing frame but that he could make a friend in the park to play with him.

When we got there we all sat at the table while Edward went t get ice cream for us all and I found out that Anton had been doing since the last time I had seen him. He went to play school for half days and mentioned some friends he had and a shark game they played each break time. After the ice cream he wanted to swing so I got up and pushed him while he squealed at how high we was going.

Edward the big kid got into the swing next to him pouting because I wouldn't push him.

"Push Ed to Bell!"

Edward seemed to know that I couldn't say no to Anton, so I alternated pushing them. Edward pretended to 'fall off' making Anton laugh himself into hysterics as he climbed all over Edward laid on the floor.

Anton went on practically everything in the park apart from the slide of course and then we decided it would be best to get some dinner before we headed home. We stopped at a little child friendly Italian. Anton couldn't decide what he wanted so we ordered 3 different dishes and an extra plate so he could try ours as well.

He seemed to really like Edward asking him if he can come and play next time as well and drew a picture for him on a notepad a waitress left for him to draw on. It was a picture of me him and Edward at the park and was really quite god. Edward was stood at one side with bright orange hair with Anton in the middle with a big smile over his face and me on the other side with brown long hair and a matching smile.

After trying all 3 dished he decided he liked Edwards's gnocchi the best and made him switch plates, so Edward got his safe choice of Spaghetti Bolognaise he didn't look to pleased but ate it anyway.

Half way through dinner I got a phone call, I was going to ignore it. I was having so much fun. Edward kept making funny faces at Anton making him laugh and make a bigger mess. He already had sauce all over his face and hands.

Until I saw it was Jasper. I quickly told Edward who it was and that I had to take the call. Edwards face dropped but he nodded ok and kept playing with Anton. I guessed he was concerned for me.

I walked outside and got the call on the last ring.

"Jasper, I'm sorry. I'm just soo sorry. "I said already tears pooling in my eyes.

"Look it's ok. I didn't mean what I said last night. I do really care for you Bella. I want to try and make this work as well. Il admits that kids weren't something I was thinking about. At all. But I could get used to him I'm sure. Let's just try and make this work.

Il admit his aversion to kids kind of put me off. How can you not want kids ever? I just hoped Anton would help change his mind.

"Look we can't do this over the phone come around to mine tonight and we can talk this out. I do want you as well Jasper"

"I know, and I'm sure we can work it out. Tonight around 7 o.k.?

"yeah sure that's fine. Il see you then"

I walked back to our table with the biggest smile on my face. We were going to make this work. I was so happy. I knew he would change his mind when he met Anton.

"He wants to make this work. Me and him. He's going to come around today!" I said all smiles to Edward. He sat there like he was deep in thought

"I'm happy for you Bella" sounding anything but.

His reaction was strange but I was too happy to care. I sat making funny faces to Anton and we laughed all through dinner. Edwards's mood seemed to have dampened as he sat quietly.

"What's wrong?" I asked after 15 minutes of his silence

"Nothing I just realised I have a date this evening, since I had to cancel last night"

I thought back to last night and why he had to cancel as I clung to him

"God Edward I'm soo sorry, if I knew there was somewhere you had to be I wouldn't have kept you like that."

"Its fine, you were more important."

His statement made me smile, and he smiled back looking embarrassed at his admission.

"Well come on then lover boy let's get you ready. Someone has a hot date tonight" I said ready to leave.

"Its not like that... its just are you sure your okay. You know if you need me I can cancel. Just Jasper can be a little hot-headed sometimes. So if your upset can you just call me"

I sat there stunned. I knew we were friends and we had got closer due to the adoption stuff but it meant a lot that he would comfort me before his best friend.

"Of course I will but I should be fine Your a great friend Edward" I said giving him a side hug.

"Yeah well, its always best catching a girl after a breakup. Low self esteem you know." He said laughing. I elbowed him in his side and went to pick Anton up.

"That Anton is how not to pick up a girl. You have to be a gentleman" I said imparting my words of wisdom.

"I am gentlemanly" Edward said affronted. "I always wait till they're asleep till I leave" he said smirk again in place. I could only laugh. That was Edward he may be a manwhore but he was upfront about it.