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Title: Time, It's All We Have

Pairings: Buffy/Faith

Summary: Faith never went to prison, she did kill the guy, but she let Buffy help her, and because of that help, they have become what they did in my story…re-write of season 7.

Chapter Five: Beneath You Part Three

~Faith's POV

Buffy disappeared into the kitchen were Anya and Xander were talking to Hally, trying to convince her to remove the spell, or knowing Buffy she is threatening to stab her with a knife or something. So now I'm stuck in the room with Spike, who is now sitting in one of the chairs across from me. The TV has sense been turned off and now I'm staring at him, trying to kill him with nothing but my stare. I'm failing horribly. "You know we used to be friends pet," he says breaking the silence and inching forward on the chair. Rolling my eyes I finally break the stare that wasn't doing what it was supposed to. "What happened?" He asked.

"Did you lose your memory?" I ask looking at him as if he was the biggest idiot on the planet. "You," I lower my voice leaning closer to him. "You tried to rape Buffy," I say in a low voice making sure that no one besides Spike and I can hear this conversation. Buffy doesn't like to talk about it, which is understandable, expect I know it bothers her and I also know having Spike around again isn't doing her any good. She is still holding all those feelings inside, it took me forever to be able to touch her again without her flinching, I never got mad at her for not being intimate with me after what happened between her and Spike, I just wanted her to talk to me, and she would, in fact she still hasn't.

"Tried, is the key word there love, I failed," he says smirking at me and I break. Leaping across the table I send up both flying over the chair and into a heap on the floor. With all my body weight behind it I bring my fist to his face and am satisfied when I see him spit blood before his face changed. "You want a rumble pet, you got it," he says as he knees me in the side, which in turn causes me to fall to the ground beside him, but only for a second, and then I am once again on my feet. Both our chests are heaving as his vampire face looks at me. "Does it bother you?" He asks walking around me, circling me. "That when she was with you, sexually, after what happened, she was thinking of me and what almost happened," I swing around and connect with his face. "I was the reason she couldn't stand the touch of you love," he says and that's when I grab a stake and hold it above his heart. "Do it."

"Faith! No!" Buffy comes over to me and pulls me off of him, but this time she doesn't help him up. Instead she just looks down at him.

"What's going on here?" I turn and notice that Nancy is still here, seriously we haven't saved her yet.

"It's complicated," Xander says as a way of explanation.

"Spike tried to rape Buffy, who is with Faith, Faith and Spike were best friend, now she wants to kill him," Anya says walking past us all with Hally, Anya is more or less dragging her along. She nods obviously proud of herself.

"William?" Hally says noticing Spike on the floor, and just like he did at Buffy's birthday party last year he became tense. Last year, Dawn had unconsciously made a wish were we weren't able to leave the house, so Anya called on Hally, and when she saw Spike and Spike saw her, the tension arrived. I had asked him about it once but all he said was that it was another lifetime. Anya loses her hold on her and she steps closer to where Spike is standing. "How?" She says reaching for his head and he steps away from her. "How did you get it?" She asks moving closer to him again and this time he uppercuts her sending her flying back into the dining room table affectively smashing it to pieces.

"Spike!" Buffy says stepping forward and sending a right cross to his cheek. He staggers back before he starts laughing. "What's wrong with you?" She asks but he says nothing. Buffy goes to attack again but this time I stop her. "What?"

"Nancy's gone," I say looking around for the girl. "And with a giant worm demon after her, someone should find her fast," I comment.

"I'll go," she says and she takes off. And that's when I notice that Nancy wasn't the only one who split.

"Xander, you and Anya get her to take the spell off," I say reaching into the weapons chest and grabbing a stake. I'm thankful that for once Xander and I are on even ground, it isn't often that agrees with something that I have said or done. Him and I go at it the most, and I think it's because instead of being with him Buffy choose to be with me. And I know deep down he still considers me a monster. But hopefully one day we'll move on from that.

When I left the house Spike was long gone, but it didn't take me long to find him. But when I did find him I was surprised that he was in a church. I contemplated whether or not I should go inside, considering how unstable Spike has been for the past couple of days. But then again if I don't find out what's wrong with him or kill him, then I'm not doing my job and protecting Buffy.

Within seconds I find myself inside the abandon church. It's weird; as long as I've lived in Sunnydale I have never been inside this place. And from the looks of it not many people have been. But Spike was in here now, why I don't know, but then again I don't care. What he said to me at the house was uncalled for and it is time for him to pay. Yet looking around I see no sign of him, but I did see him walking in here. There is something wrong with him, something that he isn't telling anyone, and something I believe is what is causing him to have all of his mood swings. "You have to explain to her that I did this for her," I hear his voice but I still don't see him. I don't know if he is playing so sort of trick on me. "I know she is yours, I know what I did was wrong, so I punished myself," that's when I see him cross a windows opening and the moon illuminates his white skin. "I was a bad man," he says and now he is standing in front of me.

"Spike what are you talking about," I ask yet as he steps closer to me I can see the scares on him. "Spike what happened?" I ask, I reach out to touch him, but he backs away.

"No! No touching!" He yells stepping back and turning his back to me. "This is what she wanted," he says moving towards a cross that is standing at the front of the room. Buffy, she wanted this? She wanted him? No, I can't let myself listen to him, he is crazy, and something inside of him is driving him crazy. Maybe someone casted a spell on him or something, something has to explain this, this isn't the Spike that left Sunnydale at the beginning of summer. "Angel should have warned me," the use of Angel's name snaps me back to reality, and suddenly my mind starts turning, away from the possibility of Spike being spelled to something more, something much more different. "He plays it off well, but it isn't as easy as it looks, to block it all out, to forget," he says and suddenly his arms wrap around the cross he is now standing in front of.

The smell of burning flesh fills the room but I can't look away. "Your soul."

He doesn't answer me. Instead the only sound that could be heard in the room at the moment is Spike's sizzling flesh. "Forgive me," he says suddenly, surprising me. "Faith, forgive me," he says once more and then silence once again falls over the room.

Walking into the house that night, all the lights are off, which tells me that Buffy succeeded in saving Nancy and that she has gone to bed. I know Buffy, and if she would have failed in saving her, she would be up still, sitting on the couch, watching some sad move with a thing of ice cream in front of her. It is the way Buffy copes, she eats and watches sad TV, I stopped questioning her motives long ago and now I simply accept them. I don't bother going to the kitchen, knowing there is nothing in there for what I need, for what I am about to do.

Tell Buffy.

About Spike.

And his soul.

I know it is something that I shouldn't tell her because then the spot she holds for him will grow and it'll be even harder for her to get over what happened to him. But if I don't tell her than she'll hold it against me for a long time to come. Buffy isn't someone who likes being lied to, she likes to know everything that is going on right there and right then, no exceptions. She wasn't happy when I didn't tell her about Spike being back or the fact that Spike was in the school basement. So I can't keep this from her.

The moon outside is casting a light into the room; just enough light for me to see Buffy's sleeping form on her side of the bed. I was surprised, when I started sleeping with Buffy, she always favored one side of the bed, yet when I was in bed with her, and she would always sleep right up against me. I asked it about her once, and she said something about it being a safety thing, I accepted that.

When Buffy and I first got together I think the thing that surprised me most about being with her was at how unsafe she felt in her own home. When you look at Buffy you don't see someone who is scared, she is someone that radiates with power, someone who you want to be near when there is a crisis because she makes you feel that much safer. And yet, she revealed to me that she felt safe in my presence, that whenever I was around I made her feel like she could do anything. That was something I never knew, cause half the time, I was messing something up, making her mad, and causing us both to fight, that was what I did, so the thought that I made her feel safe, well it made me appreciate our love a little more and what exactly we had.

People, who are close to Buffy don't understand why she would settle for someone like me. Someone who killed a man and admitted that it didn't bother me, the Scooby gang weren't happy when they discovered that she and I were together. In the beginning Buffy and I would sneak around, she didn't want her friends to know because she knew that they wouldn't understand, and that they wouldn't be happy. And they weren't, but then again they weren't happy when Buffy was dating Angel so it didn't hurt my feelings that much.

"Are you coming to bed?" Looking towards the bed, brought out of my thought by the sound of her voice, I notice Buffy is sitting up in the bed now with the sheet clutched to her body. I smile as I make my way forward, towards the women I love. "You missed it, I accidently rammed a steel pool into the worm just as Hally lifted the spell so I accidently rammed it into the ex-boyfriend," she says as I climb into bed. I close my eyes as the feeling of warmth-ness wash over my body. "But I got him to the hospital fast enough and the doctor said everything was going to be okay, and I even thing Nancy is thinking about giving him another chance," she says as she lays her head on my chest and wraps her arms around my waist. "So, how was your night?"

Oh I found out Spike has a soul now and he got it because it though it was something that would make you happy, it thought it was what you wanted. "Nothing interesting, just a few vamps," I lie as I kiss the top of her head.

"Listen Faith, about the whole Spike thing, you know you have nothing to worry about right," she says playing her chin on my chest and looking at me. "You never had anything to worry about, so there is totally no reason for you to be getting all jealous," she pauses. "You're the only one for me Faith; I want you to know that."

"I know B, I know," I say.

~Buffy's POV

Rolling over in bed to get away from the sun I expected to come into contact with Faith's body but instead the only thing that greeted me was the coldness of the sheets. Just as I was going to get up to go find her I notice she is sitting on the edge of the bed, with her back facing me. She has been acting weird all night, when she got her first chance she rolled away from me. "I have something to tell you, and you better believe that this isn't easy for me to say," she says not bothering to turn around to look at me. Her long dark hair is moved into a messy bun by her eager hands. "Last night it wasn't just your run of the mill vamps for me, no, it was just one," she pauses. "Spike," I hear my breath catch in my throat and I know she does too and it causes her to look to the side, but still she doesn't look at me. "I found him after he disappeared from the house in an abandoned church right outside of the Restfeild Cemetery," she says honestly.

"Faith," I say reaching out and touching her back.

"Let me finish Buffy," she says turning back towards the front of the room. I pull my hand back. "I know there is a part of you that will care for him, and I don't know why, and I've never asked, I just accepted. I figured it was just the same spot where you'll always hold Angel. You want to believe that people can be better Buffy and I love that about you, after all its because of that, that we ended up were we are today. You believe in me, and in turn I showed you I loved you and will always love you, even if I don't agree with you decisions, which lets admit it, is most of the time," I laugh a little. "So me telling you this will give you a reason to help Spike, and who am I to stop you, because if someone would have stopped you from helping me, we wouldn't here," I say. Finally she turns and look at me, her eyes sad, so unlike the Faith that I know. "Spike, the reason he has been acting so weird lately, I know why," she says and I move closer to her on the bed. "His soul, he got it back," I say quickly before I lose my courage.

"What?"

"He did it for you," she says turning away from me once again. "I don't know what happened between you and Spike last year Buffy, and I honestly don't want to know, but I do know that he believe this is what you wanted, what you needed," she continue this time standing up. "He went to the ends of the earth to get his soul back…" she pauses. "For you."

I slowly get out of the bed and walk over to her, bringing my hand up I cup the side of her face. "Faith," I say leaning up and kissing her. "Nothing happened between Spike and I last year, I swear to you, I was with you faithfully," I say answering the question that I know has been plaguing her for some time. She always wondered if Spike and I slept together, if I cheated on her when she was away with Giles on slayer business. How else would he have gotten close enough to try and rape me. But nothing ever happened, he wanted it to I know he did, but there was nothing he could have said that would have made me betray Faith like that, nothing. "The fact that he thinks I wanted him to get a soul, I didn't, I would have been happy if I never had to see him again, but," I say looking her in the eye. "Knowing that he is no longer out there killing people, does bring me comfort, and I will help him through this time, he needs it." I pause. "I just want you to remember that there was a time when you needed my help just as much as he does now and because I am helping it doesn't mean anything. I don't hold a spot for him, or at least I don't mean to. The only person I hold a spot for in my heart is you Faith." I say and she wraps her arms around me, bringing are lips together in a rouge kiss. I place my chin on her shoulder as I hold her in my arms. "You forever Faith." I whisper in her ear while looking straight ahead at nothing.

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