Hi my dance exams went well so here is the next chapter

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"She folded her hands tenderly around her bloated stomach, one above and one below. Like she was cradling it.

I saw it then, but I still couldn't believe it. I'd seen her just a month ago. There was no way she could be pregnant. Not that pregnant.

Except that she was." - Jacobs thoughts came crashing towards me. He looked at Bella who was know trying to sit back down awkwardly when Rosalie helped her back down holding onto her shoulder and elbow for support. He wanted to heave at the sight of Bella being pregnant. Jacob thought of me as a monster and I was I put Bella through hell and back. ' I always knew he would kill her.' - that was the worst thought yet, my head snapped up and One second we were both on our knees, and then I was on my feet, towering over him. I could see through his eyes the reflection of a monster ,his eyes were flat black, the circles under them dark purple.

"Outside, Jacob," I snarled.

" Lets do this." Jacob agreed, Emmett pushed past on my other side and jasper right behind him. For a second Jacob thought that he could kill us all by himself. As if. He looked behind me staring at Alice, esme and Rosalie he didn't want to fight girls but Rosalie was an exception. I was still staring at him when Bella opened her mouth.

" No." Bella gasped and moved forward to grab my arm. Rosalie moved with her like there was a chain latched to them. I turned slightly to Bella .

" I just need to talk to him Bella." I assured her touching her cheek. " Don't strain yourself." I pleaded her. " please rest. Well both be back in just a few minuets." she stared at my face, searching. She nodded then sat back.

" Behave," she insisted "And then come back." I gave her a slight nod and turning to walk for the door. I herd Jacob following me out of the door. I kept walking out further into the woods not looking back I new he was there I could hear his thoughts , he even thought that he might pounce on me but he knew that I would know when he decided. He was thinking about it.

I turned my head slightly and whispered "I'm not ready for you to kill me yet, Jacob Black," I said as I moved further from the house , out of hearing range . "You'll have to have a little patience." I heard him growl.

" Patience isn't my speciality." he spat back at me. I could feel my façade falling out of place the anger was starting to take over me now. I continued walking a few more steps then turning without any warning for Jacob I turned round so fast he didn't see it coming. He froze in mid step after seeing my face it was probably worse than someone dieing alive in a pit of fire. I raised my hand to my face and just scraped around my eyebrows I just want this to end. Ugh! I could feel the anger building up to something I've never experienced before but it was painful. I couldn't see anything my eyes where trying too focus on Jacob but it just wasn't working. I felt my mouth open I wanted to say something but nothing came out

"It's killing her, right? She's dying." He whispered to me.

He'd had time to get to this point. And it was different because I'd already lost her so many times, so many ways, in my head. And different because she was never really mine to lose. And different because this wasn't my fault - now those thoughts of Jacobs came crashing in my mind. He finally understood that Bella wasn't his, but she should be. If she wanted a child so bad then she should have chose Jacob, I'm just to dangerous.

" Its my fault." I whispered then my knees gave out, I was on the ground. " Yes its killing her." my face was pressed against the ground the dirt on my forehead but I couldn't care less.

" So why hasn't Carlisle done anything?" Jacob growled. " he's a doctor right? Get it out of her."

I was felling tired to the first time in a hundred years I had to explain this so many times. " she wont let us." I said out of breath.

'Of course, die for the monster spawn. It was so Bella.' - and Jacob was right.

After letting that information sink in I had a plan .

" You know her well." I whispered. " how quickly you see… I didn't see. Not in time. She wouldn't talk to me on the way home, not really. I thought she would be frightened- that would be natural. I thought she was angry at me for putting her through this, for endangering her life. Again. I never imagined what she was thinking, what she was resolving. Not until my family met us at the airport and she ran right into Rosalie's arms. Rosalie's! And then I heard what Rosalie was thinking. I didn't understand until I heard that. Yet you understand after one second. . . ." I half sighed - half groaned.

"Just back up a second. She won't let you." The sarcasm was acid on his tongue.

"Did you ever notice that she's exactly as strong as a normal hundred-and-ten pound human girl? How stupid are you vamps? Hold her down and knock her out with drugs."

" I wanted to, Carlisle would have….." I took a deep breathe.

" What, too noble were they?" Jacob asked.

"No. Not noble. Her bodyguard complicated things." Rosalie always in the way.

'Oh. His story hadn't made much sense before, but it fit together now. So that's what Blondie was up to. What was in it for her, though? Did the beauty queen want Bella to die so bad?' Jacob was thinking.

" Maybe." I said. " Rosalie don't look at it quite that way."

"So take the blonde out first. Your kind can be put back together, right? Turn her into a jigsaw and take care of Bella." Jacob suggested.

"Emmett and Esme are backing her up. Emmett would never let us… and Carlisle won't help me with Esme against it. . . ." My voice trailed off.

" You should have left her with me."

"Yes." and I'm not going to deny that.

'It was a bit late for that, though. Maybe he should have thought about all this before he knocked her up with the life-sucking monster.' -

I was staring at Jacob and nodded my head in agreement to what he just thought.

"We didn't know," I said, the words as quiet as a breath. "I never dreamed. There's never been anything like Bella and I before. How could we know that a human was able conceive a child with one of us—" I trailed of.

"When the human should get ripped to shreds in the process?" Jacob finished what I started.

" Yes." I said in a tensed whisper "They're out there, the sadistic ones, the incubus, the succubus. They exist. But the seduction is merely a prelude to the feast. No one survives." I shook his head the idea revolted me.

"I didn't realize they had a special name for what you are," he spat at me.

I

stared at him. "Even you, Jacob Black, cannot hate me as much as I hate myself." He has no idea how my self loathing is more powerful than his hate for me I've seen worse.

"Killing me now doesn't save her," I said quietly.

"So what does?"

"Jacob, you have to do something for me."

"The hell I do, parasite!"

I kept staring at him felling nothing but self loathing. "For her?" I clenched my teeth together hard.

"I did everything I could to keep her away from you. Every single thing. It's too late." Jacob moved closer, while I stayed put.

"You know her, Jacob. You connect to her on a level that I don't even understand. You are part of her, and she is part of you. She won't listen to me, because she thinks I'm underestimating her. She thinks she's strong enough for this. . . ." I choked and then swallowed. "She might listen to you." I looked down slightly, this was my last hope and if I had to beg Jacob to do it or give him something he wants.

"Why would she?"

I lurched to my feet, my eyes burning brighter than before, wilder. 'I wondered if he was really going crazy Could vampires lose their minds?'

"Maybe," I answered his thought. "I don't know. It feels like it." I shook my head. "I have to try to hide this in front of her, because stress makes her more ill. She can't keep anything down as it is. I have to be composed; I can't make it harder. But that doesn't matter now. She has to listen to you!"

"I can't tell her anything you haven't. What do you want me to do? Tell her she's stupid? She probably already knows that. Tell her she's going to die? I bet she knows that, too." Jacob said now sounding curious.

"You can offer her what she wants." I hate having to say this but if it could make Bella happy then might as well try.

"I don't care about anything but keeping her alive," I said, suddenly focused now. "If it's a child she wants, she can have it. She can have half a dozen babies. Anything she wants." I paused for one beat. "She can have puppies, if that's what it takes."

I met his stare for a moment and I could see the monster in Jacobs eyes his face was frenzied under the thin layer of control. His hard scowl crumbled as he processed his words, and I saw his mouth popped open in shock.

"But not this way!" I hissed before he could recover. "Not this thing that's sucking the life from her while I stand there helpless! Watching her sicken and waste away. Seeing it hurting her." I sucked in a fast breath like someone had punched me in the gut. "You have to make her see reason, Jacob. She won't listen to me anymore. Rosalie's always there, feeding her insanity—encouraging her. Protecting her. No, protecting it. Bella's life means nothing to her."

The noise coming from my throat sounded like I was choking.

'What was he saying? That Bella should, what? Have a baby? With me? What? How? Was he giving her up? Or did he think she wouldn't mind being shared?'

"Whichever. Whatever keeps her alive." I answered his thoughts.

"That's the craziest thing you've said yet," he mumbled.

"She loves you."

"Not enough."

"She's ready to die to have a child. Maybe she'd accept something less extreme." I suggested trying to get him on board.

"Don't you know her at all?"

"I know, I know. It's going to take a lot of convincing. That's why I need you. You know how she thinks. Make her see sense." I was getting the he was considering my offer.

'Wrong. Sick. Borrowing Bella for the weekends and then returning her Monday morning like a rental movie? So messed up.

So tempting.'

'I'd fantasized about Bella that way too many times, back when there was still a possibility of us, and then long after it was clear that the fantasies would only leave festering sores because there was no possibility, none at all. I hadn't been able to help myself then. I couldn't stop myself now. Bella in my arms, Bella sighing my name…

Worse still, this new image I'd never had before, one' - his thoughts were starting to get on my nerves now but I allowed him to continue, Jacob was easy to reason with.

He snapped out of his little fantasy. "Make Bella see sense? What universe do you live in?"

"At least try."

He shook his head fast. I waited, ignoring the negative answer because I could hear the conflict in his thoughts.

"Where is this psycho crap coming from? Are you making this up as you go?" Jacob took another step closer to me.

"I've been thinking of nothing but ways to save her since I realized what she was planning to do. What she would die to do. But I didn't know how to contact you. I knew you wouldn't listen if I called. I would have come to find you soon, if you hadn't come today. But it's hard to leave her, even for a few minutes. Her condition… it changes so fast. The thing is… growing. Swiftly. I can't be away from her now." I gave a soft sigh.

"What is it?"

"None of us have any idea. But it is stronger than she is. Already."

'I could suddenly see it then—see the swelling monster in my head, breaking her from the inside out.'

"Help me stop it," I whispered. "Help me stop this from happening."

"How? By offering my stud services?" I would have flinched at the idea but I was to hateful. "You're really sick. She'll never listen to this."

"Try. There's nothing to lose now. How will it hurt?" I asked

'It would hurt me. Hadn't I taken enough rejection from Bella without this?'

"A little pain to save her? Is it such a high cost?"

"But it won't work."

"Maybe not. Maybe it will confuse her, though. Maybe she'll falter in her resolve. One moment of doubt is all I need."

"And then you pull the rug out from under the offer? 'Just kidding, Bella'?"

"If she wants a child, that's what she gets. I won't rescind." I put on a firm voice to convince him.

'I couldn't believe I was even thinking about this. Bella would punch me—not that I cared about that, but it would probably break her hand again. I shouldn't let him talk to me, mess with my head. I should just kill him now.'

"Not now," I whispered. "Not yet. Right or wrong, it would destroy her, and you know it. No need to be hasty. If she won't listen to you, you'll get your chance. The moment Bella's heart stops beating, I will be begging for you to kill me." I said straight out. I knew none of my family would do so and I wasn't going to Italy either so Jacob was my last resort.

"You won't have to beg long."

The hint of a worn smile tugged at the corner of my mouth. "I'm very much counting on that."

"Then we have a deal."

I nodded and held out my hand.

Jacob swallowed and closed his burning hot hand against my cold one.

"We have a deal," I agreed.

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that's the end of the chapter hope you all enjoyed it the next on might be up on Saturday no later.