Author's Note: Glee was on X Factor on Sunday! I was so amazed. It's beyond amazing. Cory Monteith was so cute :) And Lea was so pretty! They wore the same clothes from regionals :D. Sorry for not updating. For some reason I can't update on my other story, I shall report it! Anyways heres chapter 2.

Disclaimer: I dont own Glee. All rights goes to Ryan Murphy. P.S I can't believe I'm not seeing them in London! They're doing a European Tour.

Heavy hours passed by, depressing days passed by. Will it soon be miserable months pass by? Why hasn't he called me? Or text? Or even talk to me? Why? I talk to myself and lay there, in bed every night looking at the stuff from my locker. The necklace that he gave me that said 'Finn', our his and her's calendar, and the... The jacket he gave me when we done the Britney numbers. I could smell him everywhere in the room, his scent giving his presence as an illusion, the sweet moisture of his cologne. I missed him. I missed him truly. The thought of christmas coming up. Looks like I will be alone this christmas. I even planned my christmas holidays. I would kiss him under a mistletoe. I would give him a photo album which has pictures of me and him. Even though I am a jew, I would cook for him and go to his house for christmas dinner. But it will never exist. It will never, ever exist. The thought was just unrealistic. But it was a dream. A dream like any other dream. I wrapped my legs with my arms and took the jacket out of the box. I hugged it tightly as my tears started tp rain on the jacket, I would sniff it every now and again just to get that feeling. That tingly feeling that would always comfort my lungs, it would take my breathe away. I close my eyes and visualize him in my head. His cute smile, his bright eyes, his messy hair. That was my world. A world where he would smile at me, where he cared about me, where he made me feel special. But that world was extinct. It was as if nothing was there. Empty. I opened my eyes that was blurred, my eyes went into the box and the calendar caught my eyes. I examined it and saw a circle on today's date. It was his birthday. Was I meant to give him a present? What would be the appropriate present? No. I don't even think were friends. So why bother? I sighed and decided to look at the whole thing for the last time. I wanted to keep it. I seriously did. But everytime I looked at it, it reminded me of him. It would remind me of the happy days, but then it would lead to the colourless days. Where everything just went dark. It was just pain that you could feel. Flashbacks would haunt you at night time and before you know it, you would drift off to sleep crying and nightmares would catch you. My daddies get worried everynight as I screamed like I was being murdered. I would scream till there was no air left in my lungs. I picked up my phone and texted Kurt to meet me at my locker before he went to Dalton and he replied after 4 minutes with only 'ok'. No kisses. Not even a 'how are you?' or 'what are you doing during the happy holidays?'. Maybe I had no real friends. Maybe it was just fake and pretend. I had no one to talk to. I was alone. Again. It was 7.30 AM in the morning, I didn't take a shower. I didn't wear make up. I didnt even bother wearing my woolly jumper or my knee high socks or my cute skirts. I just didn't care. I wore my grey sweatpants, white vest and my black zipped jacket. I then went to school, I wasn't taking any notice of where I was going, I was just walking. That was normal right? But then of all the people that I could have bumped to. It had to be him. Finn. Why him? I dropped all his stuff that was scattered everywhere on the floor from the box and fell down. Everyone got my attention and there was an awkwardness between us. So I decided to finish the awkwardness and started to pick up the things that he gave me. I stored all the tears that crept from the corner of my eyes and just kept doing what I did. But a tear had disobeyed and I wanted to do was just to disappear. Well literally, everyone just wanted me to disappear right? So I just pushed the box in his arms and ran. I ran like a cheetah. I just wanted to run as far as I can away from him, from the glee club, from the school, from my house, from this city. But when you run too fast and get so caught up in your thoughts, you look at the side and your eyes widen. You scream first then boom. You get hit by a double-decker bus.

*Glee!*

"Rachie! Ray-ray! Darling! Rachel wake up! It was just a nightmare" I opened my eyes and I noticed that I was panting and sweating, my eyes were full of tears. I looked at the man in front of me and realised that it was my dad. "Rachel are you okay? Do you want to talk about it? Did he hurt you bad?" I really wanted to, I wanted to talk to somebody. Anybody. But it would just rip my heart out. I started to whimper and cry on my dad's shoulder. "It's okay dad... It's nothing really. I promise". Promise. That word made me want to puke. Promise. A word that i don't have faith anymore. Promise. A promise that he broke. A promise that shot me. A promise that was betrayed. I continued to sob and pour all my sadness on my dad's shoulder. "Okay darling.. But just remember, we are always here for you". My dad started to pat my back which soothed my emotions. My eyes started to fall and soonly after I fell asleep.

*Glee!*

The sunlight was hitting my face, it had hurted my red, puffy eyes so I rubbed my cold, sad eyes. I looked around my bedroom and once my eyes focused on my wardrobe. It was time for a new me. So I jumped out of my bed and started to get changed into my black skinny jeans, plain white top and my black leather jacket. I then wore my black military shoes and took my purse and my phone. It was time to change and to move on. I needed to listen to other music, something that wasn't totally me. I got in my little pink car and drove to the music store. Then a rush of memories came;One was when I met Jesse for the first time and we sang 'Hello', suddenly words started to echo through my head... "...I'm not just some guy who you met at the music store you can just blow off. I dont give up that easy...". Finn. As I parked next to the music store my phone rang. It was Kurt. "Hello?" I answered my phone. "Rach what happened? You and Finn have broken up? How come I didn-" I interupted him because I knew that name meant nothing to me anymore. Or atleast I thought that it didn't mean anything to me anymore. "Kurt it's okay, ask Finn not me. Okay? Bye". I hung up, closed my phone and sighed. That was rude but I couldn't take it. After a few minutesI opened the door and walked of to the music store not to mention that I didn't care if someone stole it. I entered the music store and saw a paper that said 'Classic Rock' and it reminded me of the song 'One'. Then I remembered me and Finn singing it. The look in his eyes, the things he helped me get through when I had laryngitis. When he sang 'Jesse's Girl'. No. Bad idea to go to classic rock. I walked pass each section and found Katy Perry's song, 'Firework'. This song meant alot to me, it taught me things, there was a meaning behind it. I started singing where there was many people.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?

I felt worthless, maybe I am worthless because I have messed things up badly. As in messed things up BIG time, with ne and... him. I didn't dare to say his name because his name just hurts me too much. It burnt me. And I wish I could take all things that I have done wrong. I regretted it. I regret kissing Puck. I regret argueing with... him. I regret it. All of it. The thing I hated the most was that I loved him. Way too much.

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing

Yeah so he broke my heart, like three times: One is when I found out that Quinn was pregnant with him but then I found out that it wasn't actually his, the other one is when he dated Santana and Brittany and the last one is... Well the final break up. And the worst thing is that everyone seems to be against me, no one wants to hear my annoying problems even though I try to not be annoying. Rachel what are you talking about? Stop thinking like that! But still... He left a deep cut in me. He scarred me. It kills not to see him smile at me.

Do you know that there's still a chance for you?
Cause there's a spark in you

Will there be any more chances of me and him? Anymore of me and him laughing together? I miss him. i really can't think of anything other else than him. Maybe I should just try again? But what if he rejects you again? What if he hurts you again? Will he be there if you fall? Will he disappoint you again?

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced

What if I am a waste of space and time? Everyone in glee club hates me. They all want me to quit glee club so they can have the solos that I deserve. But after all... I am replaceable aren't I?
You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Rach, you have to stop thinking like this. You're better than all of them. You will be a star. You have to move on. Because once you are the star, they will be amazed. They'll be saying sorry while you're on the stafe alone, people applausing. Rachel think positive! I'm going to show them that I can move on!

After finishing the song, people started to clap and I started to flash red on my face. I've never sang alone by myself in public. I should really get used to it though, because this is the beginning of a new age in Rachel Berry's life! i was about to exit the store when I saw a familiar man reading a show choir best songs book. An idea entered my mind and I knew that this was a right decision.

"Jesse? It's me. I want to join Vocal Adrenaline".

Author's Note: Was that good? I was trying to improvise as I went along. Finchel all the way! Can't wait for tomorrow's episode! I hope Finchel are together again! :( still depressed. Please Review :)!