a/n: so i guess there's no excuse for being so late with the update huh? but oh wells. i gots a life too.
i've been pretty busy with friends/family and boyfriend. everything has been awesome. haha =)
well this ia pretty short chapter, but don't fret there's a lot of goodies in this one.
promise. well enjoy my loves. =)


Both Noah and Cody sat on Cody's bed watching a horror movie. He smiled every time he felt Cody jump in his arms. Noah shook his head and stretched out his limbs when the movie was finally over. His eyes set on Cody who fell back onto the bed face first. He quirked a brow at his actions and shook his head at the boy. He had been wondering when to ask Cody what was up with him in the room a few days ago and decided that now would be a good time to bring it up.

"Cody?"

Cody turned his head to look at him. "Hm?"

"When you threw up that day, does that always happen whenever you pass out or something?" he asked placing his hand on the small of Cody's back.

Cody thought about it and cringed slight at the remembrance of what he was reminded of when he was unconscious. Noah felt him cringe and removed his hand from his back, mumbling a sorry. Cody shook his head and sat up on his knees.

"No, don't be." he said with a weak smile.

Noah could clearly see the pain that filled Cody's eyes and quickly became concerned for him.

"What's wrong?" he asked scooting closer to the boy.

Cody stared at the bed for a moment before he looked back up at Noah with sad eyes. He didn't want to tell Noah, for he feared that the other male would dismiss him and never want to speak to him anymore. He trusted Noah though, so he had to tell him. Cody couldn't keep this a secret from Noah if they were building a relationship with each other.

"If I tell you something...do you promise to not be upset with me?" he asked softly.

Noah looked at him confused, but nodded his head in response. "Why would I get upset with you?"

"Just promise me."

Noah sat back against the wall and pulled Cody into his arms. "Alright, I promise."

He wondered what was so bad that had Cody acting like this. Of course he could promise the boy. Why the hell wouldn't he? Cody has been with him since the beginning of the damn show. He was able to trust Cody with his life. He could also never be upset with the boy. At least not for a long period of time. What was on Cody's mind?

Cody took a deep breath and began to tell Noah everything that happened to him when he was child. How his mother left, how his father began to rape him at such a young age, the pain that he suffered day in and day out. How his aunt ended up rescuing him nearly half a year later. He explained that his father was sent to jail, and that his aunt moved them to New Jersey so he could start over with a new life. He told Noah that she had placed him into counseling and he ended up forgetting everything about his past until Noah had grabbed him just like his father had and he began freaking out, which caused him to pass out and let his memories just flood back to him so drastically.

Once he was finished, he looked at Noah and saw that his face was tear stained his eyes held both anger, pain and regret. Noah quickly wrapped his arms around Cody and held him tightly. He didn't know what to say. His boyfriend was a rape victim by his own father! There wasn't much that could be said. But the emotions he felt did say a lot.

Anger flowed through every vein in his body, as the description Cody gave him on how his father did the most torturous things to him, went through his head in great detail of picture. He wanted to kill the fucking bastard so very bad. Words couldn't describe how badly he wanted to take a knife, gun, his own hands, and kill him with it. How dare somebody, Cody's father of all people, touch his love with such disgusting hands! The thought of his father placing those hands on his body made him want punch something. He held Cody tighter and placed his cheek on his soft brown hair.

He felt pain and regret. He felt the need to just sit here and hold him. He was the one who triggered the memories back into Cody's mind. He was the one who caused him to relive the pain of his past. If it wasn't for him, Cody's memories wouldn't have came back to him in the first place, and it would have stayed that way. It was hurting him that he had let that happen. He let his anger get the best of him and just grabbed Cody...the way his father did to him. Now he knew why he freaked the hell out, and then passed out. He hurt the one he loved and brought back memories that only hurt him even more. What kind of a boyfriend was he?

Noah rubbed Cody's back, hearing him crying softly into his shoulder. He closed his eyes and kissed his head and apologized for bringing his memories back to him, and that they were hidden in his mind for a reason. He apologized for being the one who brought them back.

"You don't deserve me..." he whispered softly into his hair.

Cody heard this and pulled back away from him. "Don't say that. It wasn't your fault. You didn't know. And neither did I at the time."

"Yeah, well I feel like a complete ass for it. Cody I brought back the most worst memories in your lifetime! What kind of boyfriend does that?" he shouted. "I hurt you!" he said grasping his shoulders and looking him deep in the eyes. "Don't you get that?" he whispered.

"No, Noah I don't. You didn't mean to do it! I know you didn't!" he yelled back.

"Cody...my god." Noah was about to say something and then groaned letting go of Cody and got off the bed.

Cody looked back at him. "Where are you going?" he asked with small tears in his eyes.

Noah groaned and held his head slipping on his flip-flops. "I'm going to go and get some air." he said walking over to the door opening it and walking out, closing it behind him.

Cody stared at the door and broke down into a fit of sobs. Noah just walked out, like he predicted that he would. He just left. Cody fell back on the bed and stared at the ceiling for a minute, before turning on his side, curling up and crying into a pillow that he pulled close to him.

Noah walked down the halls wiping his eyes and shaking with anger. Not at Cody. But at himself. He growled and punched a wall hard. He hated himself right now. He couldn't stand the fact that it was him who was causing him this much pain. He stood in front of the elevator tapping his foot impatiently. Would the damn thing hurry up! He thought becoming more irritated.

The doors opened and Justin stood there smiling. The boy's smile dropped quickly seeing Noah's teary eyes. He looked at him confused. He had never seen the sarcastic boy breakdown into a crying fit. He stepped out and placed a hand on his shoulder.

"Dude, are you alright?" he asked with concern in his voice.

"Fuck off."

Noah pushed past Justin and walked into the elevator pushing the button for the doors to close. He was not in any mood to be dealing with anyone at the moment. Justin stared at the elevator and shook his head. Something was seriously wrong with guy. He shrugged. He'll figure it out on his own. He thought as he made his way down towards Cody's room. It should be pretty easy to get Cody to make out with him. He smiled as he stood in front of the boy's room. He was raised his hand to knock on the door, then stopped hearing the soft sobs coming form inside.

He had a look of confusion and worry, written across his face. Instead of knocking on the door he automatically opened it and walked in to see Cody hugging a pillow close to his body. He closed the door and quickly made his way over to him. What could possibly be troubling his poor Cody? He wondered as he laid next to the small brunette, wrapping his arms around him.

"N-Noah?" Cody said opening his eyes, seeing tan arms wrapped around him.

Noah? Why would he expect Noah to be holding him? Justin thought to himself and shook the thought away for now.

"No. It's Justin." he said softly.

Cody's eyes widened and he turned around in the older boy's arms to look up at him. What was Justin doing in his room. Let alone holding him like this? He let the thoughts fade away as Justin held him a bit closer and began to rock slightly, back and forth.

"What are you doing here?" Cody asked relaxing in the older males strong arms.

"I came to see if you wanted to go out to lunch with me, but when I got to your door I heard you crying." he said looking down at him. "What happened?" he asked running his fingers through Cody's soft brown hair.

"Noah and I got into an argument." he whispered softly looking down at the bed.

That would explain why he was crying and so pissy. "What happened?" he asked beginning to rub his back softly.

"I told him something and he ended up getting upset. I don't know if it was with me or with himself." he said sniffling trying to stop himself from crying.

Justin rubbed his back and kissed the top of his head. "Just let it out Cody." he whispered, feeling Cody begin to let out his sobs into the older teens chest.

Justin held Cody in his arms as he cried. Whatever it was that Noah had done to upset Cody he was to pay for what he did to him. He sighed deeply and kissed Cody's head once more continuing to rock him.

Noah sat under one of the fake palm trees and leaned against it he felt hot tears brimming his eyes, and he closed his eyes tightly, refusing to let them fall down his face. He groaned and opened his eyes, blinking and staring up at the sky. He closed his eyes once more and began to take deep and even breaths so he could calm down. He was in no condition to do anything but sit there and breathe in the fresh air.

"Hey Noah!" a voice said to him.

His eyes shot open and he growled seeing a familiar red head above him hanging upside down from a tree.

"Go the fuck away!" he said throwing his arms up and began shooing her away. She laughed playfully and swung her body right down in front of him

"Hey what's wrong?" she asked staring into his red teary eyes.

He glared at her. "I'm not in the mood for questions. So get the fuck away!" he shouted growing angry again. He hated when people tried to figure out what's wrong with him. It bugged him to no return.

She looked at him with weird expression and shook her head. "No damn way am I leaving you like this." she said gesturing to his sitting form. "You look horrible. You and Cody get into your first fight?"

Could she read him like a damn book?

"Yeah. We did." he answered softly groaning, grabbing his hair and pulling at it slightly.

Izzy grabbed his wrists and pulled them away from his head. "You're going to pull out your hair." Noah set his hands in his lap and stared at her. "Now, exactly, what happened?" she asked softly.

"We got into a fight about who started something." he said staring at the concrete below him.

"And what would be that something?"

"He told his horrible past to me, and I told him that I'm the one who triggered it. Which is completely true!"

Izzy shook her head and placed a hand over his. "What was his past?" she asked softly, with compassion in her voice.

"He was raped by his father from the age of eight to nine." he said with rage fueling in his veins again. He clenched his teeth and glared at the ground.

Izzy looked at him with wide eyes and held her head. "God, how do you think triggered something like that?"

"I grabbed him the same way his father did...he started freaking out about it and then passed the fuck out. Which in result gave him his memories of his wretched childhood. I caused this!" he shouted.

"I'm not going to lie to you. It does seem to be your fault that this happened. And let me guess, you tried telling him that it was and he denied the fact entirely. Which is why you two got into an argument?"

"Bingo sister." he said in a monotone voice.

She shook her head and stood up pulling Noah to his feet. He looked at her and growled. She rolled her eyes and dusted him off. He groaned at this moved away from her, to get her to stop.

"Look, go back and talk to Cody. I'm sure that he'll understand why you were upset and left. Because I'm pretty damn sure that he's a bit disappointed that the guy who's dating him left in huff."

Noah sighed deeply and stared at the ground for a few moments before looking back up to see that Izzy was nowhere in sight. He looked around him and still didn't see her. He would never understand that girl, but she was right. All he needed to do was talk to Cody and just explain to him how he felt. The tan boy nodded his head began to make his way back into the hotel, to Cody's bedroom.

An hour passed and Cody had fallen asleep with Justin still holding him. The two of them held each other peacefully as they slept. Cody snuggled closer into Justin's chest feeling the sweet warmth emitting off the boy. He smiled and took in his sweet scent. Cody's nose filled with a chocolate scent and he moaned softly in his sleep.

The door opened and Noah walked in to see his boyfriend snuggled up with Justin. His looked at the two with shock and then rubbed his eyes to see if he were dreaming or not. Nope. This was real. And he was pissed. He slammed the door, causing a loud bang, waking up both of the boys, watching them jump. Noah shook his head searing with anger. How could Cody just go ahead and lay into some other guy's arms. Let alone that other guy be Justin! Cody sat up and looked at Justin then at Noah, seeing the rage in his eyes.

"What. The. Fuck...is going on?" Noah shouted slightly.

Cody cringed slightly at the anger in his voice and stood to his feet. "Noah, I can explain!"

"It better be good, because I just saw my boyfriend, snuggling with another guy! What the hell is there to explain?" he snapped.

Justin stood up and looked at the both of them. "Boyfriend? As in you two are dating?" he questioned with a shocked look on his face.

Noah stormed over to him and grabbed him by his collar and got into his face with a raised fist. He had all the right mind to beat the fuck out of Justin. He just started dating Cody after loving the boy for over a year, and now he catches Justin holding his boyfriend in his arms. He tightened his grip on his collar and drew his fist back getting ready to punch with all his might.

"Yes. We're dating." he hissed glaring darkly at Justin.


whoa snaps! an angry Noah is always a sexy Noah...especially when he's jealous! :) haha!
hope that you all liked the chapter. i'm sleepy right now...but hey!
i brought something for you guys to be occupied with.
meh new story Kiss of Death is up, and i hope you guys enjoy that as much as you do this. =)
~MizzRawr :D