I looked at my ceiling. I had been staring at it for minutes now, but I didn't feel obligated to move to get ready for school. It was another Monday, the morning after the whole drama with my mom and the incident with Shikamaru. It was also the morning where I scolded myself for falling for a guy so easily. I can't fall in love because there's no such thing. I don't want what happened to my parents to happen to me…
I groaned and stood up, finally getting the energy to get dressed. I slipped off my oversized Redline cheer shirt and put it back into my pajama drawer. I stood in my underwear staring into my closet, deciding on what to wear. Oh I know! A polo. Hint the sarcasm. Since all we could wear were button shirts with collars then my choices were simple. The only thing we could wear besides polos and blouses were spirit shirts.
I grabbed a small pink polo pulling it over my head. I then grabbed a pair of dark wash jeans and pulled them on. After tucking in my shirt, I put my torn, tattered, and old belt on. I grabbed my smoky gray converse and a pair of socks and slowly headed downstairs. I sat on the couch and put my shoes on. I turned the TV onto my favorite music channel and listened to it as I pulled my hair up into my four ponytails.
I listened to the music and let my thoughts drift. I wonder what today will hold. All I know is I have to confront Shika since today is an A day. We had block schedule meaning you had four periods every day. On A day you had certain classes then B day were the rest. I had cheer both days unfortunately.
I trudged to the front door and grabbed my shoulder bag that was lying near the door. After positioning it comfortingly on my shoulder I opened the door and walked out. Since Gaara woke himself up and walked with his friends to his school, which started an hour before mine did, I didn't have to bother with him in the mornings.
The air was cool and I was glad for the wonderful weather. I loved cool weather, but when it got cold I couldn't stand it. I slowly walked down the sidewalk, listening to the soft thud of my converse connecting with pavement. I didn't pay much attention to my surroundings, just the thoughts running through my head. Love isn't real. It isn't real at all. There's no such thing as love in this world. I kept those thoughts in my mind as I continued trudging to school.
As my thoughts subsided when I neared the major streets, I paid attention to everything around me so I wouldn't get run over. I felt a presence of someone near me, but I ignored it and thought it being my paranoid mind. I was getting to where I had to cross the road and I looked around me to make sure no cars were in sight. Then did I see the lone figure across the street walking.
I froze in my spot, contemplating whether or not to approach him. If I approach him, everything will be awkward because of last night. I just ignored the idea of talking to him. I waited till he was a ways ahead of me and then did I cross the street. I felt so bad by ignoring him, but felt even worse when I was near him. I didn't want to have feelings for him or anyone because I couldn't stand it if I was ever heartbroken. I may seem strong and heartless, but the truth was that I was very fragile inside.
I reached the high school soon and walked into the cafeteria. I spotted my friends sitting around hanging out. I sat down and stared at Kiba Inuzuka, one of the male cheerleaders on our squad. He was sitting there with Naruto Uzumaki, the mascot. I turned to Tenten. "Why are they sitting with us?" I asked. It wasn't that I didn't like them, Kiba was a senior and Naruto a junior and I assumed they had friends they would rather hang out with.
"I don't know." I turned to Kiba and stared at him.
"Don't you have any other friends?" I asked him. We had this thing where we joke fight. We would playfully banter at each other, but we were somewhat friends.
"No." He said with a smile on his face. I laughed at him, but not in a mean way.
"Why are you sitting here?" I asked him. He just shrugged and turned to Naruto and they started talking about God knows what. I turned to Tenten, but she was in a conversation with Hinata. The only people close to me were Kiba and Naruto (who were talking to each other) and an empty seat. I sighed and placed my head on the table.
I hated when my friends just ignored me and talked to each other, but I was used to it. I was always disregarded to the side. I sighed low enough for only me to hear. I pulled my phone out and checked my email and pretended to not be bored. When the bell rang I was so relieved I wouldn't be bored out of my mind.
I walked with Hinata and Sakura, not paying much attention to the conversation. I usually liked my first period because it was Algebra and I love math, but it was also my period with Shikamaru in it and I wasn't ready to confront him yet. When we got to the class I sat in my normal spot, but when Shikamaru came in he sat all the way across the room from me.
"What's wrong Temari?" Sakura asked. I looked at her with a raised eyebrow.
"It's just that Shikamaru isn't sitting by you." Hinata explained quietly. Oh. I looked at them and gave them my best fake smile.
"Nothing's wrong. We don't spend every day together. We're not even a couple. I don't care if he sits somewhere." I told them. Lies. All lies. I groaned as my mind tried to convince me otherwise. I didn't like him.
"Okay. So guess what?" Sakura asked me enthusiastically. I replied and pretended to be interested in whatever gossip she was telling me, but I couldn't help but feel guilty. I was wondering what Shikamaru was feeling and if he was angry at me. Even though I didn't want to have feelings for him, I didn't want to not hang with him.
"Temari are you even listening?"
"What?" I asked as Sakura's question brought me back from my thoughts. She groaned and turned to Hinata complaining, saying something about how I was 'totally not in my right mind.' I rolled my mind at her choice of words.
When the teacher came in I turned to the board and did the problems easily. Math usually takes my mind off of things. That is until I finish all of the problems. I glared at the last problem on my paper, wishing it was harder so I could think about it more and not other stuff.
I looked up to notice that everyone was struggling on the first few problems. I looked back at my paper and noticed I had completed all twenty or so of the problems no sweat. I looked around the room. Even Sakura was struggling halfway through the problems. Continuing my gaze around I spotted Shikamaru napping on his desk. I rolled my eyes.
I looked at his peaceful face. His hair was pulled back into his regular ponytail. His lips were slightly parted and soft looking. Almost in an inviting kind of way. I shook my head of those thoughts. No Temari. Don't go to those thoughts. My gaze still lingered on him for a while.
"Turn in your papers." Kurenai-sensei told us. I passed my forward and chanced a glance at Shikamaru. He woke up, looked at his paper, and gave it to the teacher. I turned away and kept my thoughts from thinking about him.
"That was hard wasn't it?" Sakura asked me. I looked at her with a raised eyebrow.
"What are you talking about? That was easy." Maybe I was too smart in the math department because when it came to my other subjects I wasn't very good at them.
The bell rang and Sakura and I started on our way to the next class. I stared at my feet and wasn't paying attention to people around me. I accidently bumped into a few people, but I didn't feel like apologizing. I guess today's one of my sad days. "Temari are you even listening?" I looked up at Sakura confused.
"Huh?" Sakura groaned.
"You're not paying attention at all today. What's wrong with you?" I looked away and sighed.
"Nothing. I'm just tired." I always got asked that whenever I was in a depressing mood and I always came up with the same answer. It was getting tired, but I didn't want to have to tell my friends. They wouldn't understand or even care.
"Okay so like I was saying…" I drowned out her voice as I spotted the pineapple hair I loved so much. You don't love him. You don't love anyone. I took a deep breath and watched him walk. I wanted to so badly go up to him and talk like we used to.
"Why did I have to kiss him?" I muttered to myself.
"Who did you kiss?" Sakura asked me. Well she practically screamed it. I looked up to notice half of the hallway was looking at me, including a certain lazy boy. He turned away and continued walking as if I wasn't even there.
"No one." I told her, trying so hard to get her to drop it, but it's Sakura we're talking about.
"Who? Who? Who? Who did you kiss?" Sakura was practically pleading me to tell her.
"I kissed Shikamaru. Are you happy now?" Sakura gasped. I rolled my eyes and picked up my speed, trying to avoid the pink haired girl. Unfortunately for me we had the same class next. Also unfortunately we sit right next to each other.
I walked into class and sat in my seat glumly. Sakura came bounding in after me with a silly grin on her face. She was bouncing up and down and giving me a goofy look. I glared at her.
"What are you smiling at? I didn't mean to kiss him. It was an accident and I regret doing it." I told her glumly. She rolled her eyes as our teacher came in. He walked over to his desk and sat on it.
"Okay class. Today we will continue with reading Romeo and Juliet." I gave a little smile. No matter how much I hated the idea of love, reading the story was interesting. I know when we get to the part where they kill themselves because they are in love I won't like it much anymore, but for now the story was interesting.
"Turn to page 813." Kakashi said. I turned to that page and stared at it. "Okay Benvolio (A/N: Romeo's cousin) take it away from where Montague and Wife take exit."
Sasuke rolled his eyes and began to read. "Good morrow, cousin."
"Is the day so young?" Neji, who was Romeo for this, said.
"But new struck nine." Sasuke replied.
"Ay me! Sad hours seem long. Was that my father that went hence so fast?" Neji continued reading. This is getting so confusing. I stared at the page and continued to follow along.
"It was. What sadness lengthens Romeo's hours?" Sasuke continued on. I was wondering if many of the students, like myself, were getting confused.
"Not having that which having makes them short." Holy shit! What the fuck did he just say? Too confusing. I held my head as I tried to comprehend the confusing words.
"In love?" Sasuke questioned.
"Out-"
"Of love?"
"Out of her favor where I am in love." Neji finished before Kakashi stopped him.
"So class, does anyone know what he was just saying?" Most of the class shook their head, myself included. "Benvolio was trying to find out what was wrong with Romeo, who was depressed. Romeo was telling him that he was in love with a girl and she didn't return the favor." A few girls in my class gasped.
"Poor Romeo. He loves her, but she doesn't love him back." Karin said. I laughed. Haha Romeo. That's why you don't fall in love. His whole situation was reminding me of someone. Shikamaru loves me, but I won't return the favor.
"Exactly. So now Romeo is sadden." Kakashi said. "Now Benvolio continue." I tried to pay attention to what was being said, but my thoughts kept roaming to Shikamaru and our situation. I'm just a bitch. I shook my head of those thoughts and turned back to the story.
English continued on with Romeo and Juliet and after that we went to our third period. That period was a little bit exciting, but I had finished early so I played Solitare the whole period. When the bell finally rang I let out a sigh. Thank God. I was so bored I was about to die.
I followed Sakura to a table and placed my stuff down. We both walked to the lunch line, conversing about our previous periods. We were still talking when we both sat at our table. I took a bite of my sandwich and tried to eat it slowly, but I couldn't. I was never a slow eater.
"So what are you going to do about your situation?" Sakura asked me. I raised an eyebrow at her as I took another bite of my sandwich.
"What do you mean?" I asked after finally swallowing my sandwich. She stared at me while I ate some soup.
"You know. With you and Shikamaru." I nearly choked on the soup. I was hoping this would be one of those things that she would forget. I wasn't granted with that wish.
"I don't know. Just ignore it probably." I waved my hand in the air, gesturing to her that this was no big deal.
"You can't ignore it. You know you love him." Again I almost choked on my soup.
"You know I don't believe in love." I told her nonchalantly.
"Well, then you like him." I shook my head. I was tired of this interrogation and couldn't believe she actually thought that I loved him. "You need to find love. It's out there. Stop watching people with envy. You know you secretly want love."
"The game was ne'er so fair, and I am done." I quoted Romeo.
"What?" Sakura gave me a confusing stare. I laughed at her look.
"No matter how much enjoyment may be had, I will not have any. Romeo said it. Meaning I will watch people have their fun, but I won't join in." I sighed and looked down. I muttered to myself, "Because if I do have fun then it'll turn out hurting me in the end."
"Stop being so depressing Temari. Give love a chance." I shook my head at Sakura's suggestion. It was absolutely absurd so think of that.
"I have to go to the bathroom." Sakura pouted as I stood to leave. I didn't give her a single glance as I walked away from the table. I walked around the corner and to the water fountains. Someone was out to get me that day because as I was about to make it the fountains, someone came out of the bathroom. That someone happened to be the same person I didn't want to see and was talking about a few seconds ago.
We stood there staring at each other awkwardly for a second. I gave him a little smile. "Hey Shikamaru." He nodded, but didn't reply. "I'll see you later?" I was hoping for a reply.
"I guess." He shrugged and walked past me. I shot my arm out and grabbed his shirt.
"What's wrong Shikamaru?" He looked at me with a bored expression on. He shrugged my arm off and turned away.
"Nothing. I'll see you later." I watched him leave and just stood there. I couldn't turn away or go after him. I was shocked. Finally getting over the shock, I made my way back to the table where Sakura was waiting for me with another goofy grin on her face.
"You're back!" She said excitedly.
"Yes I am. What's gotten into you?" I raised an eyebrow. Whenever she was like this she always had a plan or something super exciting happened and she couldn't wait to blurt it out. I was guessing the latter.
"Oh nothing. By the way, I was told to give this to you." Sakura said while holding out a note. I took it and stared at the paper. It had my name scrawled on it. I sat down and slowly unfolded it. I was shocked as I recognized the writing.
"Shikamaru." I gasped out. I read the paper.
Dear Temari,
Sorry about last night. I don't know what I was thinking. I hope we can forget about it and still be friends. Just forget this whole thing happened.
Shika
"Isn't it sweet? He still wants to be friends after you totally dissed him." I glared up at Sakura.
"Why did you read it?" She gave a fake gasp and put a hand over her heart.
"Me? I would never! How could you blame innocent old me?" She said, her tone dripping in fake sarcasm.
"Whatever." I folded the paper and put it in my bag. "Just forget it." I mumbled. I didn't know if I was talking to Sakura or was just repeating was he said.
Why am I such a bitch?
A/N: I do like the story Romeo and Juliet, but I swear; how can you fall in love in just a few days, then die? How can you fall in love in just a few days? It's absolutely absurd. The story starts on a Sunday and they die Friday. What bull crap. I am not dissing Shakespeare. He was a wonderful writer. I just don't like the idea of Romeo and Juliet.
Anyways. Hope you like the story so far. Review if you feel like it.
