Title: Why Be So Forward?
Author: Miriam A. Wade
Categories: Romance, slight Humor
Rating: T
Pairing: Danny and Lindsay
Season: Season 3, hint: Just imagine that Slight Out of Hand (or anything starting from Love Run Cold) hadn't happened.
POV: First and second chapters are Lindsay's 1st person point of view, the third chapter is a combination of Lindsay and Danny's 1st person point of view and the fourth chapter is 3rd person omnicient.
Summary: Lindsay is losing an internal battle with herself and the immediate recipient is. You guessed it, Danny.
Disclaimer: I'm not sure if I have to do this for each chapter, but I'll do it 'cause you never know. I don't own anything.
Archive: Please do not archive anywhere without the author's permission. But if you do, I really don't care.
Copyright (c) 2010 Miriam A. Wade
Author's Note: I know I promised to update a few weeks ago, but I've been busy with school and traveling with no computer... But Thanks for sticking with me and being muy paciente! :D
*nycl= New York crime lab= their email system
*IMS= Internal Messaging System
*italics with quotations are thoughts
Chapter 2: The Email
To: .ims
From: .ims
Sent: April 26, 2006
Subject: Just Something I Thought I'd Tell You
*Please just read it…
Fw: Fwd: FWD: FW: FW: FWD:
"A Few Reasons Why Guys Like Girls"
"Quite a Few Reasons WhyI Love You."
1. The way you hardly ever wear cologne, yet always smell amazing.
2. The way you always run your fingers through your hair and make it stand out in different directions.
3. The fact that you have a motercycle, leather jacket, the altogether "Macho Man" appearance… and glasses.
4. That look you seem to only give me that makes me wanna die right then and there.
5. The way you get mad when you can't figure something out.
6. The fact that you're always hungry.
7. The fact that you used to play baseball.
8. That you can come over and watch marathons of Bill Nye the Science Guy with me.
9. The fact that I can always count on you to call me Montana.
10. The fact that you'll always be my best friend. Hands down.
11. The fact that your hubris is through the roof.
12. The fact that you make me feel like a lovesick teenager.
13. The fact that if I had left the "FW: The Reasons Why Guys Like Girls" in the subject box, you would have deleted it immediately. (insert evil laugh here :])
14. The way you make it your personal mission to make sure that I'm never cold.
15. The half smile smirk thing that only you can pull off.
16. Your smile. Period.
17. You can hail a cab in two seconds flat.
18. The fact that you think there is no point to decaf coffee.
19. The fact that no matter where I am or what I'm doing, all my thoughts lead to you.
20. You make me smile, laugh, whatever and everything, even though you annoy the crap out of me.
21. The fact that you always find new ways to piss me off. :P
22. Half the time I don't know wheather to kiss you or kill you.
23. The way you try to subtly sniff my hair. (It doesn't work.)
24. You're a pain in my side, no matter what you do.
25. The way I can flirt with you and think nothing of it.
26. The way you like to pretend that you're all tough, but you're relly just a big softy. Don't you dare bother denying it.
27. The fact that I can't wait for our next banter session.
28. The fact that you are so oblivious to the fact that I'm in love with you, that you still wouldn't know it if I got it tatooed on my forehead.
29. The fact that I trust you with my life.
30. The fact that I don't think twice about coming to you when I need a shoulder to cry on.
31. The fact that this list could go on forever.
32. The way you make anything look sexy, you gorgeous, gorgeous man.
33. Because you're you.
34. Regardless if whether I love you, hate you, wish you would die, or know that I'd die without you, it matters not. Because once you entered my life, whatever I was to the world, you became my everything; you're everything to me. When I look you in the eyes, traveling to the depths of your soul and you say a million things without even speaking, I know that my life has been consumed by my love for you. I'm in love with you and it's an indescribable feeling.
Post Script: You don't have to reply back if you don't want to. It was just something I was thinking about and said, "Why the hell not!" The only point to this was to bring my "lost" feelings ashore. The sea is now at peace and I can finally see the rainbow. I'm not looking for anything in return, except, maybe things to not be awkward between us? That would be cool, although I think I just ruined the chances of that with this email. Ugh! Why is this so difficult! You make me argue with myself over EVERYTHING, you know that! "Smack him. Don't smack him. Kiss him. Don't kiss him. Call him. Don't call him. Tell him how you feel. No, it'll just scare him off."You know what? I'm tired of it and I don't care. I just don't care anymore. Well, my mom always says, "Never do something if the risk is greater than the reward." It kinda puts it into perspective for me. You are definitely greater than the risk and you are now up to speed on everything that is going on in this stupid head of mine. My favorite quote is, "When in doubt, duck. When certain, don't bother, 'cause you're already screwed," Which is what I'm doing. I am certain that I love you and am no longer ducking. I'm completely prepared to get hit in the face, whatever the outcome.
Not quite thinking clearly,
Montana
I sat there for a minute contemplating about what I just sent him; and did so for the next half hour or so. My thoughts followed me all the way to the lab, where Mac had me processing new evidence, which is where I am now.
I keep on thinking to myself, "Am I reallyTHIShopeless?"I mean, I couldn't even tell him face to face. "Oh God! He's going to think I'm such a loser."Seriously. Who does that? Sending an email telling someone they love them; it's purposterous. I honestly don't think I'd be able to do it face to face or even over the phone anyway. That would have required the ability to form coherent words that did NOT come flying out of my mouth as hurried mumbo-jumbo. Also, his reaction would have been near instantanious, and I definitely wouldn't have been able to handle that. So, in reality, I did choose the most benificial path for me. I suppose I could have done absolutely nothing as well. "Yeah, and lose myself in the depths of despair? No, thank you." Like they say, "There's no time like the present," and when there is a hill to climb, I shouldn't think that wating will make it small.
I'm just happy that I have time to think about all of this because 1. Danny doesn't check his email daily and 2. We don't work on the same schedule 'til two days from now, so I should be right as rai…
My mind went completely blank as I watched Danny come off the elevator and make his way towards me.
Author's Note: I edited my mistakes on this and the first chapter, it was mostly on the email thing and how I was going to show that fact that he would have to scroll down to see what she actually wrote, so you'll just have to bear with me while I go over the third and fourth chapters. So… Suggestions, comments, etc. Do your thing :)
