Justified By You Chapter Three

I curled up in my couch holding my knees to my chest as I cried. Why now was the only question on my mind. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. The only thing that I could do was hold to myself and cry. I slowly went up to my bath room and turned the water on as hot as it would go scrubbing my skin till it was blood red. I curled up in the tub under the shower spray crying till the water ran cold before I got up and fell into my bed passing out.

He was gone, I had finally set him free. I curled into my filth covered bed. I could still smell him on it as well as my skin. I was lonely but I knew that I would get used to it. Before Naruto, Kakashi, and Sakura I didn't have any friends. I closed my eyes letting Naruto's sent surround me and calm my aching heart. The one thing that I had to figure out was how to make sure that he didn't come back, that he listened to me and lived his own life. The only thing that could keep him away from me it seemed was to kill myself. Then I realized that's what I'd have to do so he could stop killing himself by coming here every day and not moving on. But how was I going to kill myself here? The only thing that I had was my bed with my one dirty, dry rotted blanket and my spoon that they let me eat with. I looked over my cell trying to think of what to do.

I was woken up by someone knocking hard on my door. I sighed dragging my body out of bed and pulling on a pair of pants and a shirt on my way downstairs to the door.

"Naruto, come quick. Sasuke's tried killing himself, we don't know if hes going to live or dye yet but they have him in the jail's medical ward."

I didn't know what to think or do. Here in front of me stands one of the guards to the jail telling me the only person I love in the world tried killing himself and may die. I thew on the first pair of shoes I could find and ran out the door with out even closing it. Hoping, praying, and wishing with all my might that he would live. Please, please just let him live.

It wasn't long before I ran in to the jails medical word and their on one of the clean freshly pressed beds was Sasuke. Laying their his blood running down from wounds that seemed to be every where on his body and staining the white sheets. He was their nude, pail, lips turning blue, unmoving, and his chest hardly lifting and falling with his breaths. 'Oh dear god. What have you done to yourself, why?' I slowly walked over to him falling to my knees at the side of his bed, tears running down my cheeks. I gently retched and tuck his hand in mine, It was already getting cold to the touch.

"W-why Sasuke? Why did you do this?" I knew I wouldn't get an answer but the words just slipped though my lips before I could stop myself. To my surprise tho I felt him stir and his eyes opened ever so slightly.

"Y-you shouldn't be her kit." His voice was week and sounded as if it hadn't been used in years and it caused the tears to come that much harder.

"Why Sasuke? Why did you do this to yourself? I looked at him confused softly petting his hand, at this moment I was happy that the room had no one in it. How would it look for the man that he raped sitting her at his bed side holding his hand and crying over him hurting himself. Crying because he was dieing. But then again I wouldn't have cared who was watching me right now really the only man that I loved, that I had ever loved was dieing. He smiled at me thin bringing my hand to his hart as tears started dripping down into his cheeks.

"Because I love you, but I cant keep holding you back any more. Please... You need to move on Kit. I've done you wrong for to long and you need to be happy. I'm holding you back from that. How are you ever going to heal from what I did to you that night if you don't stop coming to me every day. You wont stop yourself I know you to well to even thank that you'll do that. So I don't the only thing that I could do. I'm taking myself away so that I cant hurt you any more and you can't hurt yourself any longer. You'll get over me little one, I promise kit. Just promise me you'll look for someone else now. It doesn't have to be today or tomorrow. But try some time before the next year for me kit I just want to see you happy."

I sat their stunned for a moment the tears flooding my eyes till I couldn't see any more. I didn't think I just leaned up and kissed him fully on the lips with out thinking anything about it. He was freezing and clamy, but I didn't care I loved him.

"I don't want to... b-but I'll try. I love you Sasuke. Why couldn't we have just been together?" He smiled and lifted his hand softly running his fingers over my cheek. I leaned into it knowing this would be the last time that I would ever feel his touch.

"I don't know kit. Things just happened this way. So it must have happened for a reason. I love you too kit. Now get out of here before I kick the bucket little one. I don't want you to seem me like that. Just remember me from when we were team mates. Not after I raped you." He petted my hair one last time and smiled at me. I nodded standing trying to hold back the tears as I leaned down and kiss my one love for the last time before leaving him their. Leaving him their to die.

Weeks latter their was a funeral and I watched as they placed him into the ground. And I done as he asked me, it tuck me months but I started dating. None of them ever worked out but I tried, and eventually I went off to look for some where else to be because the village reminded me to much of Sasuke and how things could have been. That's when I ran into his brother. What was even more surprising was that he was living a normal life in this small hidden village, and he cried when I told him what his brother had done. He tuck me in and after a few years he and I got together. I've never been happy tho and even tho I care for him I only love his brother. I know it bothers him, but he never complains.

I love you even tho your dead. Why is every thing always seem so justified by you Sasuke.

A/N: And that's the end. Sorry for tacking SO FRICKEN LONG. Just a lot of life crap to deal with. I hope you all liked. Please read and review my muse bunnies need food.