Realization

"I can't keep this up" Jane Rizzoli thought tiredly as she clipped his gun and badge swiftly to her belt and headed out to her new station, readying herself for another long day of teaching mingled with murder.

She rested her head against her steering wheel and sighed as she once again went over her current situation of what she had to do in order to still hide from Frost back in Boston, smirking at how he would be the only one who would be looking for her electronically. "If he is still even looking for me, It has been five months." She thought quietly and sighed again at the situation she was in.

Gathering herself together she drove quickly to the station, readied herself again for another long day of work and headed into her new workplace. She walked with confidence toward her classroom and got everything ready for what the class would be studying, laughing to herself when thinking of where she was now and what she was doing.

Three months ago she had realized she couldn't keep up with not doing anything but going to the gym and looking around at the sites. Dallas to her was the same as Boston just with a different climate and architecture, so the sightseeing had grown old before she had ever really tried it out.

Knowing that her love for being a cop would never go away, she found a job that allowed for her to be a detective and stay under her old friend Frosts radar.

Jane was technically a teacher, not a detective. Her job title didn't even have the word detective in it, and who back home would ever have thought that Jane would take a teaching position? No one. In her mind, she was golden. She got to do what she loved and wouldn't have to worry about her friends catching her and coming to drag her back to Boston. Still though, a part of herself that she kept hidden clung to the thought that they'd find her and drag her back home, though as the days passed that part of her grew smaller and smaller.

A chorus of Morning Ma'ma broke her from her thoughts and caused her to look around at the almost full classroom and all of the youth populating it. She couldn't hold back the smallest of smiles at seeing how many "kids" there were that loved to do what she did, loved knowing that she hadn't been the only one who when they were a child wanted nothing more than to be a cop.

"Alright, let's get this over with so that we can go shoot something." The class laughed at her blatant display of her distaste for the academic side of cop business and her favor for the action part.

A few hours later

"Hey Rizzoli, wanna get a beer after work?" Jane's head shot up at hearing her name called and her roaming eyes landed on her fellow female cop in the locker room running the question through her mind again weighing if she really wanted to go out tonight. She looked at the woman who asked her and was fondly reminded of Maura. Her name was Aurelia and she was part of the narcotics department. Jane couldn't help but think of Maura as she looked at the woman standing across from her, Aurelia had the same hair color and style as Maura and the same pale skin tone, though she was a few inches shorter then Maura. Gazing at her, Jane got lost in her memories of Maura and remained silent.

Aurelia smirked, misinterpreting Jane's stare as one of interest instead of what it actually was, a stare through her and all the way to Boston to a certain Medical Examiner. Shutting her locker loudly, pulling Jane from her reminiscing, Aurelia sauntered over to her and coyly winked at her still form before cockily saying "I'll see you at seven," And walking away out of the locker room.

Jane for a moment was horrorstricken at being so openly flirted with in front of so many of her co workers and mentally prepared herself for the inevitable ragging about her being a dyke. Silence filled the room as everyone just shrugged at the scene and went about their business, finding the interaction between the two women very uneventful. Shocked at the lack of a reaction, Jane all but ran out of the locker room and hauled ass back to her apartment.

Grabbing a bottle of water from her fridge she paced in her living room trying to understand what really upsetting her about the scene that had transpired. She thought hard, asking herself why she was so taken aback when no one at her work seemed to care about whom took an interest in her, and very slowly enlightenment graced her mind.

"I'm not from around here. They have no idea who I am, they don't really know jack about me and so why should they care who I date? I mean for once I don't have to watch what I do around women because I don't have to worry about it getting back to my Ma." Jane's mind slowly broke what she just realized down. For the first time in her life she could be whatever she wanted. She could date anyone she wanted without fear of family disowning her or an unhealthy amount of reprimand from her male co workers if she liked an insanely hot women "Like Maura" she thought distantly.

Absently she took a sip from her water bottle and glanced at the time, it was 5:30. "So I have an hour and a half to decide if I want to go have a drink with the women, I think her name is Aurellia." She thought quickly. Shrugging her shoulders slightly she decided to at least take a quick shower.

Thirty minutes later Jane emerged from the bathroom, clean and dressed only in a towel. Slowly she went over to her closet and grabbed out a nice black button down shirt, laying it gently on top of her bed then went to her dresser and grabbed her black lace undergarments and her only pair of nice dark jeans. She laid out her clothes and wondered if what she was thinking was a good idea. "What would Maura think if she knew?" She thought quietly before squaring her shoulders and slipping into the sexy array of clothing, thinking defiantly "It doesn't matter what she thinks, she has Frankie."

One Hour Later

Jane shyly walked into the unknown bar and looked around for the narcotics officer. Spotting her at the pool table, Jane walked confidently over to her and watched her pool for a few moments. Aurelia having noticed immediately when Jane walked in, immediately shifted her low cut shirt, pushing the sleeves down so that it showed her shoulders and made sure her hair looked alright. Seeing that Jane was coming over to her, she quickly went back to her pool game, trying to look as desirable as possible.

Feeling Jane's eyes on her she stood slowly and cockily looked over at the brunette, speaking almost arrogantly "Knew you'd come" for the second time that day she winked coyly at Jane. Jane for her part smiled nervously and slowly moved over to the women once she finished her game "May I buy you a drink?" She asked politely and blushed when Aurelia smiled broadly and responded "I thought you'd never ask". Quickly they made their way over to an empty table, Jane having waved a waitress down and ordered them both a beer.

As the strength of the alcohol increased between the two women, Jane especially making a beeline for the tequila, Aurelia steadily wormed her way closer to Jane, using every opportunity to touch the woman anywhere she could. After two hours drinking and much superfluous and superficial conversations, Aurelia slyly leaned into Jane and whispered in a sultry tone "Wanna head back to my place?" Her lips barely grazing the shell of Jane's ear. Jane shivered and looked at her with alcohol clouded eyes unsteadily nodding head and followed the forward women out of the bar as best she could. Aurelia glanced back at the inebriated woman and smirked, knowing tonight was definitely going to be a good night.

The last clear thought Jane had as she clumsily climbed into Aurelia's car was the hope that after tonight she should be completely over Maura, knowing in her heart that such a thing would never happen. Looking over at Aurelia, she jumped when she already felt the woman slowly rub her hand up and down the inside of her inner thigh. Again Aurelia leaned into Jane and whispered hotly in her ear "I can't wait to see your clothes on my floor." Jane's stomach twisted at having this woman touch her in such a way but ignored the sense of disgust bubbling in her chest. She wanted to have a good night and it seemed Aurelia was going to give her one.

"Here goes nothing" Jane thought as Aurelia drove crazily through downtown Dallas, rushed her up to her apartment and pushed her into her apartment room. "Yeah, here goes nothing" Jane thought tiredly as she let Aurelia have her way with her.