The Bitterness of the Rain
By: Danni Lynn
Chapter 11: Past Revised Part III
~+!Saya's Pov!+~
She stared down at me with those cold eyes, even though the snow trailed lightly around us in a silent frenzy they failed to be more icy than her eyes. I gave her a shaky smile as I lied down onto the ground, feeling winded with age and frozen limbs.
I was hungry like usual but I was feeling a horrible thirst arising within me as I lied near my child, her cheeks were red from bitter weather and her skin was bright and lively meaning she just recently fed. I grabbed my sword and stabbed it into the ground and used it as support to keep myself from falling over.
"So, my daughter what brings you here?" I asked her already knowing she wasn't going to answer. She did exactly that as she grabbed me by the scruff of my ragged and hole ridden dress. She lifted me off the ground with ease and my feet dangled lazily in the air as I kept my eyes locked with hers and just smiled at her with all the love I had held deep in my heart.
I was no longer her teacher, I was just her mother, but it had been so long that she didn't see me like that anymore than as a witch that tortured her and her sister in her life.
She slung me over her shoulder and turned to walk away. "Wait, this will only take a second." I told her, she paused as I whistled loud out into the air. A bark was returned and a white wolf came trotting out from the bushes, panting for air. He plopped down onto the ground and looked at me as he wagged his tail at me. I gave a wave to him.
"Kiba, follow." I ordered him, he jumped up to his feet and gave a playful bark. Victoria began walking again with Kiba in tow but then Kiba stopped and howled high into the air. I laughed as I felt Victoria stiffen at the sudden noise. Another wolf and two pups came trotting out into the clearing.
They all followed behind Victoria silently as I watched them watch me. Kiba was just a pup when I saved him from the river and dried him and gave him food to live. He just kept trailing behind me for a while then he disappeared for a long time and came back with a mate and two pups. I hadn't named them yet but I was going to soon.
I just hung there over my daughter's shoulder letting her take me back to where we had lived all ours lives, leaving behind my home in the woods. The snow crunched under Victoria's feet as her long coat fluttered softly in the wind. The smell of a burning fire was faint coming from the closest village about a mile or two off in the south direction.
My throat tightened at the scent of Victoria's blood as it pumped in her veins, strong and heavy. My body had been starved for so long that even the sight of blood makes me tackle the nearest walking creature. I sighed displeased that I was being forced to leave my only living area where I found tranquility. I had found a peace with the world in the snow and bare trees of the winter, but now even that was being taken away form me.
Though I was starved and a walking corpse I could take Victoria on with only one hand and beat her under five minutes, but I didn't care I just wanted to rest and forget the world and get sucked away into the nothingness of this world.
As I began to close my eyes, I couldn't help but hear Victoria chuckle softly. "Oh, mother when will you learn.." She whispered but I quickly lost interest and fell asleep.
I dreamed of my daughters and nieces laughing at me as they brutally killed me, using human methods on killing by stabbing me in the heart and beating me to death. I could only feel the pain that my heart felt. These were my blood and my family and I betrayed them so in return they were giving me what I deserved. What made it so terrible was that it was the sad reality of the pain that made it hurt so much.
I woke up startled and bit back a scream as a looming shadow peered into my face, but the reaction was gone as soon as it came, the shadow smirked realizing what they had done. I blinked suddenly agitated and leaped up into the air and tackled the foe to the ground, thinking I was still in the forest during the winter (some things you just have to be careful for happens in there).
As light flooded through the curtains and a brisk cool air blew, I caught sight of my supposed attacker but yet the look on their face still made my blood run cold and my heart squeeze in horrible unmentionable agony. Everybody changes it is a fact of life but what happens when you are done wrong to so many times that you, yourself are the wrong doer and you get stuck unable to reverse and move backwards or move forwards and take a step?
When I had trained the girls' I had wanted them to fight with anger and misery in their hearts with a goal to kill me set in their minds but alas that was not the case, I hadn't just destroyed their hearts I had completely obliterated their own souls. In terms they had finally become the perfect killing machines, the ultimate race that Anshel had so desperately wanted to have in his hands, but what lied beneath me was of no exception, this person's face wasn't emotionless, it was filled with hatred. Raw, pure hatred that would cause someone to want to kill another being and make them suffer true agonizing pain mentally and physically that was what I saw through the eyes of my own daughter, Victoria.
She held a knife in her hand with her blood drenched in it, She placed the knife at my neck, threatening me to move to give her an excuse to kill me. I smiled down at her as I sat on her mid-section with my hands around her throat and my nails digging deep into the skin that the wooden floor had already a small pool of blood under her neck.
"Anger? I thought I told you to fight without emotion." I simply stated, Victoria looked away and attempted shoving me off her but I stayed placed on her abdomen, with my cold fingers wrapped around her neck, my eyes blazed a brilliant crimson and my throat constricted with hunger. I leaned forward towards her ear, "Drop the blade or I'll rip your head off." my whisper was low and commanding. She didn't move the blade and I didn't remove my hands from her neck, she watched me with her eyes glowing a blood red, each of our challenges were neither taken or dispatched.
I was hungry and tired, I wanted to sleep next to a warm fire back in the woods with the bitter wind whistling through the trees but being at the mansion was surly a predicament of my fast approaching future. I sighed and got up off her, she stayed put and lowered the knife and watched me warily. "Your useless to your sister and cousins if you let your emotions cloud your judgment, next time kill me without hesitation." I grunted as my bare feet slapped against the red-wooden floor as I made my way to the door.
I shivered feeling the ache of the winter finally settling in my bones. My hair had was waist length and covered my like a veil but it only provided so much warmth. I swung open the heavy door with ease and took a step into the hallway but I could feel the hair on the back of my neck rise and the air scream with the force of it being cut. I turned halfway and bent my head back ever so slightly as I opened my mouth and caught the blade in between my teeth, quickly I let go and let it drop where it went into the floor between my feet.
My gaze flicked towards my daughter, she stared at me stunned. "I did that faster than humanly possible and I'm the fastest out of the entire Elite Force and yet you caught it with so much ease and with your back turned. What have you been doing all this time?" Her voice quivered in fear but the rage never left her eyes. I felt my heart jerk as the invisible blade protruded deeper into the already gaping wound. I clutched the worn cloth of my dress as my body shook with guilt. Yet, I still met her red eyes with my own, both glowing a freakishly bright ruby. One coursing with a lifetime of regrets, sorrow, and ever lasting misery, the other was beating with an over flowing amount of rage that would never be quenched even if the the one who started it payed the price.
"You shall never know what true pain feels like, Victoria, even though what you know is the closest you'll ever get. I wish you'd just killed me, but we both know you won't so don't even tease me with such an invalid relief." I lightly ridiculed her like a mother would do to a child that had made a mistake, but she certainly didn't take it that way.
In an instant she was holding me by the throat with my back shoved forcefully against the wall. "How would you know? You aren't us. You never know what we went through. How we had to go through hell everyday and still got treated like shit! Do you even care what you did to your family, Saya?" Victoria's eyes lost their shining red glare and was dimmed to a brown rust like color as tears brimmed the corners of her eyes.
I stared at her and with all the pain in my guilt ridden heart, it rolled out of my face, my eyes, my body language, the true agony I had known. "Atonement is not a thing easily given, but I pay for what I had done everyday, you can't even begin to imagine the torture I put myself through without remembering holding you and your sister in my arms when you were just little things, born new to the world, smiling and happy then realizing what I done. Atonement is absolutely a level I can never achieve. So I give my body and soul in hopes that I can die at your hands, but knowing this now you won't give me the pleasure will you?" I laughed as my own tears dropped down from my chin onto Victoria's skin.
"I hate you." She whispered as she let me go and disappeared from sight, the wind stirring slightly. I closed my eyes and gave a small smile, she hated me, what a joke she didn't hate me, she didn't even see me, I was dead to her, we both knew. I was simply an obstacle for her achieving the complete state of being emotionless like her sister.
She didn't want those emotions that hurt her like so. They're a curse to be reminded of the one thing you cannot have, humanity.
I was hollow inside, my heart was constantly bleeding, my soul already torn to shreds, my mind just an empty void of a past that shouldn't be there.
When a snowflake falls from the sky it is it's own being, looking completely different from all the other flakes, it was granted its own freedom, a right to live a life it could control. My bloodline was not of the same case, we all looked alike, we all bore the same misery, we were no more different from one another than one drop of water is a body of water.
"Miss Saya are you alright? You look a bit pale." A light tapping on my shoulder broke me from my infernal musings as I snapped my eyes open to watch a young maid bending over and peering concernedly into my face. Her heart thrashed wildly in her chest and I lifted my hand up and caressed her cheek, feeling the strong pulse of blood flowing through her. I smiled gently and reclined my hand away from her as not to scare the fragile being that stood before me.
Her heart rate slowed and began to calm as I made no move towards her. She smiled warmly and held out her hand, such a simple act of kindness surprised me but it was quickly discarded from my face. "You could catch a cold lying there on the floor like that. Come Miss Saya, to change out of those hideous clothes." She clucked at me like as if she was of the older of us two but we both knew that was not it. I took her hand and stood up, feeling the world spin frantic around me for just a slight second, then it stopped and my sight came into focus.
The maid was just about my height with a slim waist and light brown hair, her gray eyes swept over my body with genuine curiosity and I grinned at her naivete. It was reassuring not everyone looked at me with hatred and fear in their hearts. Clearly my absence in the mansion might have something to explain for the odd reactions.
She led me away from my current room and down many halls, each decorated with its own theme and attire, pretty soon my head was spinning from all the confusion.
Eventually, she opened a thin narrow door, that was white as the flesh that was of my own. The door creaked with age as its hinges were burdened with its own weight. The room was bathed in sunlight as the curtains were drawn back from the arching windows that scoured the ceiling high above. I raised an eyebrow at the maid amused as Anshel came strolling into the room from a door that led away from the grand size bedroom on the left far wall.
His coat was black as it trailed behind him in a wavy fashion, his pants were long and fit him like a glove. His hair was slicked back and his beard trimmed and cut. His eyes ; that was what had captured me the most when I had a heart big enough to withstand a gruesome emotion such as 'love'. They were bright blue, like newly fallen snow, and were more if not as icy as the cold winter itself. They always held a balance of a detached interest and amusement, every now and thin they would flicker with hate, occasionally sorrow, and rarely of all happiness.
The emotion he wore now was just simple curiosity as he stared at me with that god forsaken smirk of his. If I had coin for every time I smacked that pain in the ass grin of his off that annoyingly adorable handsome face, I'd have been one hella poor assed bitch. Though, I was going to get rid of it one day. Hopefully soon.
"Why Saya what brings you here?" He asked, though we both knew that answer but weren't going to say it in front of the innocent house maid that stood before us with her cute little shaky smile. "To see the tailor and get a new dress." She replied for me, Anshel peered over her shoulder and looked at me for a comply I just shrugged.
"Fine, on with you then." He waved the maid away but before I could pass him he grabbed me by the arm, the maid stopped waiting for me to follow suit. Anshel glanced at her with a scornful face that sent her fleeing into the other room after she gave a quick bow of respect. "Fool doesn't even know her fate yet." He chuckled darkly under his breath, I just gave him a sickly sweet smile.
"I need you back here for a little while, for that I need you to do me a favor~" Anshel paused for the amusement of watching me cringe at the unsuspecting horrible news that I was about to get, my face went solemn and my eyes went cold. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. "Don't fall asleep tonight." He whispered with a light of predetermined doom hidden in the depth of his blue irises. I smacked him on the arm, frustrated and flustered that this was his 'bad news' and laughed. "That's no way to treat a guest that you so rudely kidnapped." I teased lightly but I stopped smiling as soon his cold desolate eyes watched me with a stern expression.
"You are not a guest." He simply answered but as his feet clacked away on the wooden floor and it echoed around in the empty bed room where I stood, I couldn't help but understand the heavy meaning of what went unheard and thus my heart began to squeeze with the unmentionable agony of my life.
Later, the maid called back into the room and got me to stand on a little stool, where a tailor came in and took my measurements. It was infuriating to have such a low leveled mortal human cluck with disgust at my skinny and slender frame, but I smiled sweetly at her every insult of disapproval, she would pay.
After that the maid brought me back to the original room where I awoke in, she stood in the doorway asking me what I wanted for lunch. I raised an eyebrow at her, as she gave me a gentle grin. Humans could be so naive at times, that I couldn't help but laugh at their arrogance.
"Child, tell me your name." I answered ignoring her question with ease. She looked at me startled for a few seconds but it soon gave way to passionate warmth. "Sue." Was the short curt reply and I got up off the edge of the bed and took her hand, leading her away from the doorway and into the room.
"Please, lay down." I politely commanded her and she did just that and I could feel her embarrassment and wavering confidence as I closed and locked the door.
I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed, leaning over her and peering into her face. "I'm sorry but I'm not like that." She pushed me away a little and wiggled a bit over to get some distance. I laughed kindheartedly at her statement and shook my head in amusement. "I believe you must understood me, Sue." I whispered to her in a low voice. She sighed in relief and gave a shaky smile, which I returned with a feral, malicious smile.
"I'm just going to have my lunch." I grabbed her by the arm and pinned her down as I clambered on top of her. As my weight bore down on her stomach, she gasped as the wind was knocked out of her. I bent forward towards her ear, "Don't make this more painful for yourself." I calmly told her as my head lowered from her ear to her neck. I breathed in deeply as I smelled the fear that swelled from her very body and the gentle scent of flowers. "Please, let me live." She croaked out, tears streaming down her panicked face. I got up and took a hand to wipe away her tears form her face as I sadly shook my head. "You need to eat meat and vitamins to keep yourself healthy and from dying, what I have to do is no different. Humans kill animals without a thought, I merely do the same." I explained in a wary voice, suddenly feeling very tired and very ancient. She hiccuped and cried with every second that crawled by. "I am far more than hungry, child. I am starved." I sighed as I wasted no time in sinking my teeth into her neck, they broke the skin and was lodged firmly into her jugular main vein, she moaned in pain but as her life essence flooded into my mouth, granting me the blessing far greater than the Divine itself, I took no regret in taking her life.
The moon shone brightly through the clouds as they peered down and into the room, causing the pale face of the maiden Sue aglow. She lied in my bed with her hands resting upon her chest and her face expressed in a serene style. Her brown hair appeared black in the night becoming nothing more than the background itself. I sighed as I brushed a strand of hair away from her face, the night. Time to get Anshel's message.
I grabbed my sword and headed outside, chasing the shadow I glimpsed through my bedroom window out into the courtyard. Cobblestones were slicked with snow and ice but I had long since grown accustomed to the cold. His back was too me but I knew who it was. He turned to look at me, with a sad smile placed on his lips. I wanted to slap it off him so much that it hurt to not try.
"So...Your here." He said as he snapped his fingers. Instantly he had four petite shadows in line right behind him, their swords glinting in the light. He motioned to them, "This is your test Saya. We need to know what will it take to push a queen to the edge of their mental and physical capability. Have fun." Once again his fingers snapped and he was gone.
There stood all of them. Isabella who's eyes shined a bright blue as she stared at me no emotion but pure hollowness, I wanted to cry. Victoria's eyes blazed crimson but burned with a passionate rage, I couldn't help but cringe. Katherine, she had had such a strong personality that it had been extremely hard to break her but her empty gaze left me feeling guilt all over. Aurora, she was such a gentle straightforward girl, I felt sick.
The wind howled and the night wore on. This was a test I hadn't wanted to have, but Anshel made it so. It his will was the past, present, and the future.
Time stood still on a pendulum that swayed back and forth. Back and forth. I had the patience that could stretch out into centuries but I didn't like attention. Diva had tears rolling down her face as Nathan instinctively held her in his arms glaring at me. Solomon was so quiet, it was like he wasn't even in the very room. I walked over and bent down towards Diva, she pulled away from me and clutched Nathan for dear life as she buried her face in his shirt. "Your a monster. Your a monster." She whispered to me in a shrill voice, I sighed and shook my head. "I am. Diva, your daughters were great, fine children. They loved you dearly." I spoke towards her, she sobbed even harder.
"Stop it!" Nathan roared as he pushed Diva aside and came at me with his chiropteran hand. I didn't move, I stood up slowly as he stabbed me right in the stomach with his very arm. I didn't even flinch. He gave me a startled look as I wrapped my hands around his arm. "Wha-?" He didn't finish as I twisted his arm and snapped it right off. He screamed out in pain and fell to his knees tightly grasping his severed arm. I took out his limb from my stomach and tossed it to his feet. "Cruel, I am Nathan. Please, don't make this worse." I answered him as I took a step back letting him have his space. I stretched my body and sighed heavily.
I glanced Solomon's way and and noticed his petrified face, I walked up to him and cupped his face in my hands. "You couldn't even begin to imagine what I could do to you all. Don't ever push me to the edge you could pay dearly. You never thought that you would be the servant of a true monster now did you, Solomon?" I asked him as I made my way to the door. "What happened to them? My children. Our daughters." Diva hiccuped, I only gave a sad smile as a reply as I made my way down the way to my own room. I was tired. Exhausted from memories and the tension of all the hate. I just needed rest, I decided as I made my way to my bed, closing the door behind me.
As I scrambled into bed, I instantly feel asleep. As soon as I was captured in dreamland I was unaware of the tears that flowed down my sleeping face.
I was a monster. I had done all that shouldn't be done.
But, oh how I regretted it. I regretted it indeed.
Good, or what? What is the test, and what happened to Saya's and Diva's daughters? Review and tell me what you think.
-Danni
