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Roxas didn't realize Sora's heart was already going to be occupied when he got there. He didn't realize he was going to have to spend the rest of forever with a guy that looked too much like himself. But Ventus - as the look-a-like had introduced himself - was only one occupant. There was another, one that hid in the darkest spaces of Sora's heart. It looked like Sora but acted more primal, looked like a heartless with it's pitch black coloring and yellow eyes. This thing would sometimes come out of the shadows, hissing what sounded like words, that almost sounded like 'useless' or 'stupid' or 'he doesn't love you' or 'abandoner' or 'murderer.' At first Roxas had thought the words were meant for him but then he realized this thing was hissing about Sora. Those were things that Sora thought about and felt in the darkest parts of himself. Then there were the remnants. There was the remnant of Kairi that said nothing and appeared like a ghost. There were also remnants of a tall, scarred brunet. Another spiky haired blond. A pink clad, brown haired woman that came with the scent of flowers. A short girl with black haired styled almost boyishly. Those remnants didn't do much, once in a while they spoke and Roxas assumed they were only there because Sora cared deeply for them. Ventus told Roxas that he could dig through Sora's memories, find out who the remnants were. Roxas chose not too.
But the 'roommates' and the remnants were all things Roxas could deal with. Roxas could deal with this, he was still technically alive and living in a sort of roundabout way, so he could deal. But then Sora entered that damn portal, and then those fucking Dusks attacked and then there was Axel. Roxas watched through Sora's eyes as Dusks surrounded them, as Axel jumped away and set the place a blaze. Roxas watched through Sora's eyes as Axel faded into nothing. Just nothing. Nothing left behind to ever indicate he had ever existed, but then again Nobodies didn't exist in the first place. Roxas screamed. Wanted to die himself but he couldn't because he was a part of Sora now and Sora was alive. Why did he have to retain consciousness? He couldn't do anything! All he could do was wait around in Sora's heart - that looked an awful lot like a picturesque island (white sand beaches and crystal blue waters and tall, green leaved palm trees.) Ventus was usually sitting on some bent palm tree while the Thing lurked in the dark space beyond the island scene, that looked like nothing.
It's after Sora's journey had come to an end - after Roxas fought for dominance and lost, after he resigned himself to a forever of white sand and blue water - that Roxas sat down next to Ventus and started talking. He tells the other blond about his short life, about his time with the organization, about Axel. And Roxas cries, because he can actually, truly feel now - and he hurts, a ripping, tearing pain that makes it hard to breathe sometimes. After Roxas had said all there is to be said about himself they sit in silence and watch the waves. Sora is back home now and he's happy but the Thing still hisses painful words. But Roxas has grown used to the Heartless like replica of Sora. He's even grown to like Ventus. He doesn't even resent or hate Sora anymore, after all none of it was his fault. In all honesty Roxas is starting to feel at peace with himself - he still hurts sometimes, still misses Axel everyday, still wishes he'd had the chance to say goodbye every second. But despite that Roxas is starting to think this kind of forever might not be so bad after all.
Another one of those pesky ideas I just had to write down even though it was only like half formed. This was originally going to end a bit differently, with Roxas actually fading into oblivion but I couldn't do it...I may write angst people but i gotta have a somewhat happy ending or else i may actually jump.
