***I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING OF GLEE. SORRY THAT THIS CHAPTER IS SHORT HOPE YOU GUYS STILL ENJOY!***
The rest of the day at school was sheer hell for Santana. Naturally all she could think about was Brittany and how she had let her down once again. In math class, her teacher noticed that Santana wasn't paying attention to the lecture so she asked her simply what 8x8 was, and Santana replied, "To the power of Brittany." The whole day went like that. She couldn't bring herself to focus on anything else. It really was pointless of her to even attend class but soon the day came to an end and she found herself in Glee rehearsal.
Santana was one of the first members to arrive because her last class was literally right next to the choir room. Finn and Rachel were sitting in the front as always being all lovey dovey, 'Vomit' Santana thought bitterly to herself. Santana decided to sit on the other side of the room all the way in the back in her own corner so she could sulk in pity by herself. Kurt and Mercedes walked in and sat next to Santana much to her dismay.
Kurt and Mercedes were the only ones that had witness the debacle earlier. They both smiled at her as they sat down, and Santana forced herself to smile back. Kurt began to talk, but Santana knew what he was going to say and quickly interrupted him, "Nope, shhhhh, I don't want to talk about it." As she crossed her arms over each other.
Kurt got the message and remained quiet and looked straight forward as the rest of the members filtered into the choir room. Everyone had taken their seats, except the only one missing was Brittany. Just as Mr. Schu was going to speak, Brittany strolls in, looks to see where Santana is sitting and takes a seat as far as she possibly could from her. Santana pouts as she stares at the back of Brittany's head.
Mr. Schu notices how quiet the group is, "You guys aren't as talkative as you usually are. Is everything ok?" He notices that the two best friends that everyone knows to be inseparable are not sitting next to one another but he decides not to point it out.
No one responds to Mr. Schu's question, "Ok, well, I won't ask anymore questions." He says sensing the tension in the room. "So for this week's assignment, as corny as it may seem, I want you all to choose a song that fully reflects your current emotions. You will all perform a piece by yourselves. I want the song that you choose to accurately interpret how you feel about your life at this moment. I know that it you all might think that it quite "lame" as you may say, but for some people it is easier to express their feelings through song. This outlet for some may be the only way that they are able to express their true feelings without feeling self conscious."
Rachel is beaming with joy, being that solos were all she ever wanted to do anyways aside from duets that she performed with Finn.
'How fitting.' Santana thought to herself. 'Out of all weeks, it has to be this week.'
Kurt noticed that Santana hadn't taken her eyes off Brittany the whole time, and taps her on her thigh and motions for her to wipe her fake drool of her mouth.
Santana looks and him and pretends to laugh, "Haha, very funny, and shut up, could you not make it so obvious." Santana says angrily.
"Sorry." Kurt says just trying to cheer her up a little.
"Alright guys that's all for today. Start working on your songs, we will start the performances on Wednesday." Mr. Schu states as he closes the rehearsal.
Brittany looks around the room, she already knows what song she wants to perform, and decides that she can't wait until Wednesday to perform it. Before anyone could leave she speaks up, "Mr. Schu."
"Yes Brittany."
Brittany stands up and faces towards the group.
"I would like to perform my song right now if that is okay with you. I can't keep my emotions at bay any longer and I just really want to get this off my chest, plus my cat said that singing is therapeutic for me."
"Of course Brittany, everyone sit down." Mr. Schu said kindly.
"This song is dedicated to my feelings about love." and right as she said love Brittany darted her eyes toward Santana. With that Santana uncrossed her arms and sat straight up in her chair. Everyone looked to see who Brittany was burning her gaze with, and as soon as they realized it was Santana, they're mouths dropped and they all got much more engaged in the situation. Brittany walked over to the band and told them what song she was going to sing and they all nodded in approval.
The introduction of John Mayer's "Edge of Desire" began to permeate the room. Santana began to feel nauseous, she knew this song well, Brittany used to always play this song, not really understanding why she loved it so much, now she knew why.
Young and full of running
Tell me where has that taken me?
Just a great figure eight or a tiny infinity?
Artie was singing along with Brittany for her loved the song as well. He took notice of deep her facial expressions were and he stopped singing to look and her gaze was still locked on Santana, and in that moment he began to understand that they're relationship was much more than just hooking up as everyone had mistakenly understood.
Love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me
For all my trying, we still end up dying
How can it be?
After Brittany sang those lyrics, all Santana wanted to do was cry. Brittany took notice of Santana's facial expression and knew that Santana was clearly getting the message. Mr. Schu looked over at Santana and noticed that it looked as if Santana was near tears. Mr. Schu at loss as to what was going on between the two girls.
Don't say a word, just come over and lie here
with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything
I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I
believe
There I just said it, I'm scarred you'll forget
about me
As Brittany sang this part of the song she imagined Santana and her just lying in bed all day. Not worrying about the world outside of the windows, not having a single care in the world. Just simply being with each other, listening to each others' heart beats.
So young and full of running
All the way to the edge of desire
steady my breathing, silently screaming
I have to have you now
Santana started to hate herself for not being able to be strong the way Brittany needed her to be. Brittany had always been there for her, never did she fail to be at her side when she needed her the most. They're gazes never left each others'. Brittany's emotions were growing stronger, and soon she felt tears running down her cheek.
Wired and I'm tired
think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
or maybe this mattress will spin on its axis
and find me on yours
Don't say a word, just come over and lie here
with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything
I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I
believe
There I just said it, I'm scarred you'll forget
about me
The song ended and the room was eerily silent. No one spoke. No one had ever seen Brittany sing with so much emotion. Everyone was well aware of her dancing genius, but they weren't aware that she also had such a strong singing voice. Everyone literally felt her poor her heart out into that song. Santana was so mesmerized by Brittany's performance that she hadn't noticed that she was also crying until she felt a tear drop onto her hand. "I'll never forget about you, even if I tried." Santana blurted out loud thinking that she was just saying that to herself. Brittany looked up, and couldn't help but flee and ran out of the choir room.
Rachel decided to cut the tension and started to speak, "As much as I don't usually show praise for other members in the Glee club for their singing abilities, being that my talent is just simply incomparable, Brittany's performance was honestly quite moving and to my disbelief, good, really good."
Mr. Schu spoke next, "Yes, that was really amazing, ummm I really think that someone should go and check up on her though, she seemed really upset guys."
Everyone turned to Santana, and as much as Santana wanted to say something bitchy to everyone and deny that Brittany was singing that song solely to her, she knew that she had to run after her. She quickly got up and ran out the door. She looked up and down the hallway and found Brittany nowhere in sight. She ran out the schools' entrance out toward the parking lot and scouted for Brittany's car. It was gone. She looked toward the main street exiting school and noticed Brittany's Silver Prius darting fast down the road. Santana put her arms over her head in defeat. 'This day literally is one of the worst days of my life.' Santana screamed to herself. Kurt ran out the front doors of the school until he landed himself right next to Santana.
"Did she leave already?" Kurt asked.
"Yup." Santana replied sadly.
Kurt knew that Santana was dying inside and was thinking of a way to try and cheer her up. "Well at least you don't have to come out to the group anymore, being that Brittany practically came out of the closest for the both of you with that song." After saying that he knew that was totally the wrong thing to say and tried to redeem himself while protecting himself from a blow from Santana's fists.
"I meant..." Kurt started, but before he could continue, Santana just broke down and fell into Kurt's arms. He was surprised but her put his arms around her, she was shaking from crying.
"Kurt, what am I going to do!" Santana said through her tears.
"We'll figure it out sweetie, shhhh." Kurt said sweetly while he kissed Santana on the head, "Everything will be ok."
Santana closed her eyes and just hugged Kurt tighter. 'I will never forget you' Santana said to herself.
***HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED READING. I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING IS MESSY RIGHT NOW BETWEEN SANTANA AND BRITTANY BUT THINGS WILL START TO LOOK MORE POSITIVE.***
