Guardian Angel
Chapter 5: Lost Time is Never Found Again
Misaki's POV
I can only imagine what Sumi-sempai thought of me when I came to his house that night. A wreck as I was, and with the issue of my pride, I couldn't tell him why I couldn't stop crying. The reason why I was there was obvious. I had no where else to go, and he knew that. He mentioned nothing of it, asked for no explanation. It was daunting, the knowing look in his eyes.
Ever since that day, I've wondered why I did it. Why did I punch him? Isn't that what I wanted for him to take me? Sure, if it made him forget about my brother and move on. He's touched me like that before, so why did it bother me so much this time; why did my heart palpitate so painfully? This was a big pitfall in my objectives. I was supposed to make him fall for me, but I was only pushing him away. Why did I have to go and mess things up when they were finally going well?
And why did I care?
I sighed and rolled over on the mate Sumi-sempai had laid out for me. That was obvious, because I'm his guardian angel. My chest hurt and I didn't want to think about this anymore. I didn't understand it at all…
"Hey, Misaki," Sumi murmured from the door. I didn't give any sign that I had heard him. "You hungry? I fixed breakfast." There was a pause before his footsteps signaled his leave.
I laid there for a few minutes longer. I didn't feel like moving and my stomach didn't react well to the thought of food. I got up anyway, Sumi might think I dying in here if I don't come out. He wouldn't be exactly wrong though.
The smell of food hit me before I saw the lay. Any other day I would have be jumping at the chance to try Sumi-sempai's cooking, but today wasn't like any other day. Today food was just sickening. I sat across from my friend on the floor.
"No, thanks…" I was careful not to make eye contact and he eyed me curiously, or was it suspiciously?
I looked around at Sumi's home, it was nice, a lot cleaner than I expected. This is the first time I've actually looked at it since I arrived here yesterday. And that brought up another question, where was I going to stay after this? I didn't want to impose on sempai, he'd already been much too kind to me than I deserve. I didn't want to bother Takahiro I Okama; anyway, I had to go to school. I couldn't go back to Usagi's place. I didn't want to see him. I don't know why, but I think I'll die if I ever see him again¾no, that's wrong, I'll die if I never see him again. This is much deeper than mere emotions run; it's law. It wasn't my decision whether or not I ever laid eyes on the man again. Some way or another, we'll get pulled together, like two ends of a magnet. Of course, if I were to still resist, I would have failed in my duties as a guardian and most certainly have to return the life that was so graciously given to me. I would die for the last, and final time.
Was it worth it?
"Misaki, are you ready to tell me why you've been sulking around here like you dog got killed?" Sumi asked.
"More like my rabbit needs neutered…" I mumbled, seriously considering the latter option.
"Huh?"
"Oh, nothing," I said hastily, fearing he had caught the meaning behind my words. If he had then he showed no sign of it.
"I don't think it's possible to get a rabbit fixed," he murmured. "Now, why don't you tell me what's really bothering you?"
I sighed and reached for a biscuit.
I shoved it into my mouth and chewed slowly, avoiding Sumi's almost annoyed gaze.
"So…?"
I swallowed. "'So…' what?"
He exhaled a steady stream of air in frustration, but to my good fortune let it drop. After a while, he stood and said, "We had better be getting to school now." Sumi lent me some clean clothes and we took the train to school. I was fine, well, as fine as I could be, and calming down a little. That is, until Kamijou-sensei walked into the room. I remembered yesterday and almost started crying again. I couldn't stop thinking about Usagi, and by the end of class I had no clue what the lesson was about.
As I was packing my unused books, Sumi was looking at me like he had this morning. "Oi, you sure you're all right?"
I flashed him a smile. "Yeah, I'm just a little distracted is all." When he just stared at me with incriminating eyes I knew he didn't believe a word of it. "Seriously, no need to worry."
He said something after that, but I didn't hear it, for suddenly, a loud ringing filled my ears that blocked out everything else, painfully. I flinched as my senses exploded into those that were not my own. The vision I was seeing blurred and swirled dizzily. I felt my body being battered all over, then something snapped in my leg, then in my chest. I could scarce breathe, able to draw in air but unable to release it. A strained, involuntary scream tore from my throat. Then my head spun in a myriad of colors, but the pain was delayed. When I could finally feel it, it was agonizing. My lips moved in silent screams as the pain in my limbs and chest suddenly peaked all at once. Then, it was over.
I quivered with relief and removed my hands from my ears, the pain was gone, but my ears hurt from holding them so hard. I opened my eyes and stared at the floor, wondering why it was so close. Then, I realized I was on my knees and everybody was staring at me. The room was quiet and no one moved. Someone tapped me from behind, making me nearly jump out of my skin.
"M-Misaki?" Sumi asked hesitantly, wide eyed. "Are you okay?" I nodded blankly. I wasn't expecting that to happen again so soon. I knew what In as feeling, it was Usagi's pain, or the pain he was about to feel. I was supposed to be mad at him, but I forgot that. There was no way I wanted him to go through the pain I had just experienced. I felt my body pulling away from myself. It was an instinct, my sixth sense. Whenever I sense that Usagi's in danger, an uncontrollable urge takes over me. I have to go. It's like a drug. If I resist, it's like I'm going against the law of nature, and you just don't do that.
"I'm sorry, sempai. I have to go," I said quickly before jumping to my feet, regaining my balance, and dashing out of the room. Before I had even got off the campus, my head ached tremendously in another warning. I ran as fast as I could. I have to hurry. I have to hurry. With each second I wasn't there, the headache swelled and the pain spread. With every step I took, anxiety rose and the distance seemed to widen. Soon, I weakened to the point of stumbling. Finally, I made it to the apartment building. Breathing a small, breathless sigh, I leaned against the side of the elevator. By the time the door opened, the torment of the initial paroxysm was back. I looked down at the keypad, unable to make out the number through eyes gone bleary with pain. I hurriedly attempted to enter the pass-code. It beeped error. Then it was too late.
And... Cliff hanger!
Crap, I'm so sorry that this took so long, I can't even tell you. On top of that, it's so short! Gomen! DX This is just one of those slow chapters that I hate writing, hence why I'm so late posting it, to keep things moving along. No mater how boring it is, it's necessary to keep the story moving along. I promise it'll get better (hopefully).
Thank-you to all of my readers and reviewers! XD
Please review! Maybe if I get some feedback i can get inspired to write the next chapter quicker (and longer).
