A/N: To lighten up the mood, I made this very short fic.. Hope you like it and leave a review? It's very much appreciated. Criticize me (oopps.. I mean my writing ) or whatever? Happy reading everyone! Love you all!
Dear Natsume,
Months passed. To be exact it was 5 months, 4 days, and roughly 3 hours. (I'm not joking! It really is! I'm not assuming figures here hahaha.. ) You know what? I missed you. Still, I remembered you. Okayyy, to be disgustingly honest, I still loved you ( ya hear that?) but as clear as the water, I horribly knew that you would never come back to me. Who wouldn't? I practically saw you and your girlfriend exchange both your unfailing love every time I opened my account in Facebook! Getting bitter, are we? Nope. Heck no. Really, I don't, promise!
I didn't know what still possessed me for not forgetting about you and moving on with this dull life but my heart still ached for you, Natsume Hyuuga, although I was desperately trying to forget all about you. God knows how hard I was truly trying? I deleted your number (don't get mad, okay?) even though it always failed to be erased completely in the recycle bin of my cellphone. (Didn't it somehow imply something? Like it was fate that I couldn't erase it! Joke! I was just getting ahead of myself. Hahaha… chill it was only a joke ). It even came to the point that I thought of shutting all my connections with you and all that was related to you. (That was how desperate I could get. Just like what I was always saying, with a desperate person comes a more desperate measures. Whaattt? Did you get what I mean there? So yeah, I digressed… haha ) Back to what I was writing, I tried uhm… like unfriending you in fb and all your friends and acquaintances there (okay, I was exaggerating here a bit :P ), literally avoiding the college where you are studying (well, that's easy since my college was before yours :D ), avoiding riding on a bus which would only triggered the 'unwanted' memories, and so many silly things that a slight remembrance of you made me want to grow bitter on that person or thing (ohhh, poor thing. The end receiver of my wickedness hahahaha *inserts more evil laugh). But on the second thought, maybe, I was just being harsh on myself and on you and in the process I would only be hurting myself. Also, I was just making things harder, right? Right? So in the end, all of them were just thoughts washed away by my guilt.
Ugghh.. Now that I thought about it, I was rationally getting crazy just thinking about you? See? Are you supposed to be rational when you're literally an insane person? Why? Oh, why? I just don't want to remember you. Is that so hard to do? Actually, as painful as it may seem, IT WAS so DAMN HARD! I didn't usually cuss but just thinki…. Ugh okay, breathe Mikan.. Never mind that I wrote that.. teehee
But seriously, Natsume! What have you done to me? (well.. I was not really serious on that) But seriously as in super seriously, from the time that you left me, I felt that something was also ripped out on me. My emotions? My feelings? (Are both of them just the same? Just stating. On with the story ) my heart? Perhaps it was not something that was ripped out on be rather my whole being. You took her away from me (and I would sue you for that! Again that was a joke! Don't take it seriously ) and just disappeared. Since that day, I changed. My lifeless life took a full turn and never to come back again. I was not blaming you for anything (really, I was not) but still… You leaving me crumbled my stable easy going life. I felt that all the things happening to me were just a dream and I would go as far as taking in things as a joke, taking things for granted. But as reality came hitting me, these were all not. I tried to wake myself and to keep myself from drowning any deeper but I still couldn't forget about you, you know? But I just wanted to let you know that I would not give up on moving on because I know that someday there would be a guy who would sweep me off my feet and love me more than what you did. And for that sliver hope, I would not lose hope. And remember? I promised you that when that time came, I would share it to you, right? So just wait for it, ne? Now that I thought about it, you promise me that you would tell me how you managed to make her your girlfriend. You liar! You didn't even tell me a single thing! (Well, I don't want to start a fight here hahaha…) You broke your promise
Well, this is just I ranting so don't mind what I wrote here hahahaha….
PS.
I do hope that time would not come that you could actually read this because that would be sooo embarrassing on my part and yeah it would be so awkward. Hahaha.. I laugh a lot these days, ne?
Sincerely yours,
Mikan Sakura
A/N: By the way guys, I didn't joke when i said that i made this after several months, days, and hours that passed. I didn't do it on purpose though. Coincidence? Fate? hahahaha I'll leave it up to you :)
Signing of,
allyna-chan :)
