TA DAAA~! I'm back from falling off the face of the Earth! And I have one thing to say...

The pygmys made me do it.

*headdesks* It's been what? A month? I think it's safe to say that I am a horrible updater. (Figures it just had to be on the chapter I left you all hanging. -_-

I once again owe my undying gratitude to SilverSpiritFox for being one hell of an editor.*huggles*

Fair warning to everyone out there: This chapter contains slight Sebastian OOCness, a reference to WillXGrell and yaoi.

I DO NOT OWN KUROSHITSUJI, ITS MERCHANDISE, OR ANY OF ITS AFFILIATES! THANK YOU!


Chapter 5

The Reaper, Shocked

Grell

His glasses were knocked off his face, and all he saw of the person holding him to the ground was a fuzzy outline of a person in black…strangling him. "GAH! G-get…o-" "WHY GRELL? TELL ME!" Grell thought it sounded like Sebastian, but maybe oxygen loss was getting to his head…for once. He didn't need to breathe at all, but with someone on top of you crushing your windpipe, it made it harder to talk. "W-wha-t?" The person pressed harder.

"You know what I'm talking about Grell Sutcliff! Why haven't you given me the order yet?" Yes, it was definitely Sebastian. Grell's face got red, which was unusual for him. Sebastian…was on top of him…pressing him to the ground. He hoped desperately that he wasn't nose bleeding all over the place. "W-what the…the hell," he managed to get out. "WHY GRELL!" Now Grell was starting to get annoyed. What the hell was Sebastian talking about? What order? "Sebas…Sebastian…I order…you…to…get off of me!"

The demon hesitated, then, slowly got off of the shinigami. "Thank you…" Grell murmured softly, so Sebastian couldn't hear the regret embedded in it. "Now," he stuck his hands on his hips, "would you mind telling me what the…WHAT WAS THAT?" His voice cracked in the middle, making it sound less intimidating than he thought it would be. "YOU'RE DRIVING ME INSANE THAT'S WHAT." Sebastian yelled at him. Grell cringed, this was completely out of character for Sebastian. Sebastian had noticed the effect his outburst had taken on Grell, but didn't care. He was on a roll.

Sebastian

"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MY CURRENT LIFE IS LIKE! I'M A BUTLER OF A 13-YEAR OLD! HE MAKES THE MOST UNREASONABLE REQUESTS, AND IS A PAIN, BUT I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM! INCLUDING HIM MAKING ME SPEND A DAY WITH THE LIKES OF YOU!"

He advanced on Grell, who backed up into the red brick of the mansion. Sebastian pinned him again, this time to the wall.

"AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING! HOW CAN I DRIVE IT THROUGH YOUR THICK SHINIGAMI SKULL THAT YOU ARE A MAN. YOU ARE SICK, INSANE, AND GENERALLY ANNOYING. THE ONLY TIME I EVER SHOW AN INTEREST IN YOU IS WHEN I NEED SOMETHING. YOU ARE PERHAPS THE WORST DEATH EATER I HAVE EVER MET, AND THERE IS NO WAY IN THIS WORLD THAT I WOULD EVER…EVER LOVE YOU!"

Grell's eyes were huge, and had tears starting to form in them. "Se…Sebas-chan…" "DON'T CALL ME THAT! THE NAME MY MASTER GAVE ME IS SEBASTIAN!" "Sebastian…" Grell said softly. He closed his eyes as the tears started their path down his cheeks. "Am I…am I really that bad…?" He opened his eyes again to look in Sebastian's. The butler's eyes widened as well. In all of the time he had lived, (which was a very long time), he had never seen someone look like that.

The pain. The pure pain, reflected in Grell's florescent green eyes was overwhelming. It was his soul had been shattered….

…And it was his fault.

"Grell…I…" Sebastian extended a hand to wipe away the tear, but something switched in Grell's eyes. Anger. "You want to know why I haven't given you the order yet? The order to kiss me? I'll tell you." He slapped away Sebastian's hand. "BECAUSE A RELATIONSHIP IS NOT BASED ON FORCING SOMEONE TO DO SOMETHING!"He yelled. Sebastian backed up. Even with the poofy dress, the rage radiating from the grim reaper was intense. "I KNOW YOUR WHOLE LIFE, PEOPLE KEEP FORCING YOU TO DO THINGS, MOST OF THEM THAT YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO DO! I WILL NOT, CAN NOT, FORCE YOU TO DO ANYTHING AGAINST YOUR WILL. THAT ISN'T LOVE, IT'S SLAVERY! AND…I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE MY SLAVE SEBASTIAN BECAUSE….I…I…I LOVE YOU!"

His voice cracked again, and he fell to the ground, on his knees, head bowed, crying silently. All the anger in the atmosphere melted. Sebastian, slowly and hesitantly went up to Grell, and knelt down in front of him. "I'm…s-sorry Sebastian….I…I shouldn't have-" "No…" Sebastian murmured, wrapping the shinigami in a tight hug making the latter gasp. "I'm sorry…I was just..." He leaned back, searching for the right words. "Confused…" he decided. Grell looked at him questioningly, then sighed and looked down at his knees.

"This day was horrible," he said softly. "William made me work for most of it, you didn't say a word at dinner, and now we fought. I'm sorry it went so badly Sebastian…" The demon started laughing softly. "What?" Grell asked, now annoyed. "It went better than I expected." Sebastian laughed. "Sebas-chan! You're so meeannn~!" Grell exclaimed, playfully shoving the butler, who was still laughing.

"Well," he coughed to stop himself from laughing, "Is there any way I can make it better?" Grell looked at him, searching his eyes for…something. "No." He said flatly, breaking eye contact. He started to stand, but Sebastian caught his shoulder and brought him back down to his kneeling position.

"Sebas-chan what are you..?" Without a word, Sebastian leaned forward and kissed him.

Grell

His entire body went numb, and his cheeks flushed. How many times had he imagined this? Dreamed of it on cold lonely nights? And now, it had happened. He felt something wrap around his waist. Either he had died and gone to shinigami heaven, or he was hallucinating. He never wanted it to end, and he wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck; kissing him more fully.

Sebastian

He didn't know what he had been suspecting-probably to be disgusted-but whatever he had been suspecting, this wasn't it. For the first time, he actually felt helpless…to his own will. He opened his eyes slightly to see the reaper's reaction to this. Grell was standing stock still, every muscle tense as his fluorescent green eyes stared straight ahead in shock. He laughed silently in amusement between his affections, and wrapped an arm around his waist. Grell visibly relaxed and cocked his head to the side.

Something in the back of his mind was appalled at what he was doing, but he didn't really care. It was impossible for a demon to get drunk or high, but this is what he imagined it would feel like, having no control whatsoever over his actions. He pushed these thoughts to the corner with his conscience and followed his instincts.

Grell

He wished they could stay like this, entwined for all time. Being both somewhat immortal, they didn't have to come up for air. Never parting…just…love.

"GRELL SUTCLIFF!"

He violently jumped, knocking Sebastian to the ground in a very… interesting position. "Honestly Sutcliff…one would think you'd like to be fired." Grell scrambled off of Sebastian, much to the former's disappointment. "William," The red shinigami exclaimed as he embraced his superior. William T. Spears put up a hand to stop him. "You know you can't fire meeee~!" Will sighed. "I've asked," he muttered, a touch of remorse in his voice. "I've come to collect the paperwork for the souls today." Grell's face blanked. "What souls?"

Sebastian

Will pushed his glasses up his nose in a sign of annoyance. "I'm going to take that as a n-" "Mr. Sutcliff's paperwork is right here." Sebastian said smoothly, holding up the stack of papers. The superior shinigami's nose wrinkled in disgust. He extended his scythe to take the papers from Sebastian at a distance, and turned to Grell.

"I honestly don't know what you see in that…trash. We are a superior species to those animals, and I don't think headquarters will be very happy when I inform them that you are showing affections to it."

Sebastian stifled a laugh, if he hadn't known better, he would say that William was-

Grell

"WILLY? Are you jealous?" His face flushed. "No, what are you talking about Sutcliff?" Grell tossed his hair, and sauntered up to Will, who kept his face impassive. "You're very handsome William…yet you're too stiff…" He leaned into Will's ear, whispering so Sebastian wouldn't hear. "Perhaps…after work sometime, I could teach you in the art of,…pleasure…"

Will shuddered and brushed Grell off of his shoulder like a demented lady bug. "Now if you will excuse me," he nodded, and ran at an incredible speed in the other direction. "YOU CAN'T FIGHT WHAT YOU FEEL INSIDE!" Grell yelled after him. "One day, I'll get a night with that man," He pouted. "I am still your butler…I could…" Sebastian murmured directly behind him, catching him off guard. "Sebas-chan! No! Of course not..Sebastian, this is your night with me."

He smiled, revealing shark-like teeth. "Now…where were we…."


...Ok, I admit it, I cut some parts out... I'm not yet comfortable posting any farther yaoi. Anyone who wants to get the FULL version of this chapter, leave it in the review and I'll PM you the "deleted scene".

Ok, guys One more chapter to "gooooo~ha ha ha ha ha hu hu hu hu hu I'm so bloody bloody excited!" (name where that's from and you'll be rewarded) And I would like to ask all my lovely readers which fanfic of mine would they like next:

The Reapress: Once, every couple hundred years, a human girl is born with the soul of a shinigami. Hatshepsut was one. Joan of Arc was another. And Angelina MacKay is about to discover that she is one too. NO YAOI. T for violence. GrellXMadame Red

Second Chance: Dimentio is doomed to an eternity in the Underwhere for his crimes, or so he thinks. Everything changes when a masked warrior breaks him out, saving him from death. And did we mention she's a girl? DimentioXOC DimentioXMimi

Aka-ka~? Kuro-ka~?: It's team Aka VS team Kuro as my co-author Dee and I battle it out with the cast members of Kuroshitsuji for the ultimate prize. Dare fic.

All of them have the first chapter done, so tell me which one, and it shall be done. (I didn't make it rhyme on purpose :P)

~FW17