Last month I had found out that I had terminal cancer. It scared me but I soon was able to come to accept that I could not get treatment for my disease. Doctor Cullen did everything he could and even tried to convince me to stay on chemo. I knew it was useless and did not want to spend my last few weeks in pain. I had an amazing boyfriend Edward who I had yet to tell yet. The one thing that is holding me back is that Edward had never said three little words to me. I told him a couple of times but every time I had he would frown and say were too young to say things like that, and we had plenty of time when we get older. I didn't want to put this kind of burden on him if he didn't love me.
So I waited in till Christmas vacation which was two weeks after my diagnosis. I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible.
I walked into the Cullen house, a few days after Christmas, and was greeted warmly by Dr. Cullen and his wife Esme. They have always been kind to me. I love them almost as much as my parents.
I knocked on Edward's door my palms sweaty and my heart racing. He opened it looking as amazing as usual. He gave me a sweet kiss and a tight hug.
"Are you okay you look a little pale?"
I smiled weakly, I have been feeling weak as of late but I would just ignore it.
" I'm fine just a little tried."
We sat down on his bed and talked for a little bit and listened to music. Finally I got up the courage to ask him.
"Edward I need to tell you something really important and I need you to be completely honest with me. Do you love me?"
I watched as his face fell and he ran a hand nervously through his hair.
" Bella were still so young, and are going to be going to college next year. If we get so attached now and then meet someone new at college were going to want to be free."
I let out a same gasp, it hurt so much to hear him say this to me, and I could feel the tears welling up.
Edward let out a sigh "Bella I think we should break up, it is obvious that you need more then I can give you right now. But there is always later right, we are only seventeen."
I slowly walked over to his door "No, not everyone has time Edward."
After Christmas vacation.
I decided to go to school for my last weeks instead of staying at home or at the hospital. I pulled up to school in my old truck that I love and got out ready to say goodbye to everyone and bracing myself to see Edward.
I walked down the hall to my locker, but I took me a minute to remember my combination because of the drugs I was on. I looked up to see Edward making out with Tanya a girl I was always self-conscious around because she was hot and was always trying to get with Edward. Edward always told me I was crazy. I felt the tears running down my cheeks and at that moment Edward looked up and saw me. I swear I could see the guilt in his eyes before I turn and ran.
Edward's Pov
I felt sick about Bella's and my break up, but over vacation Tanya turned up and one thing lead to another and we were dating. I missed Bella the way she laughed, the way she smiled, and how she was just so innocent. I'm sure we would get back together soon, we did have all the time in the world.
I didn't see Bella for the rest of the week and I was slightly worried, maybe she was just sick. On Wednesday night after a date with Tanya, I walked in to see my dad silently crying with my mom.
"Is everything alright?"
"Son, please sit down" my dad said.
He looked at me and in a broken voice told me something that would change everything for me. "Edward, Bella passed away today, we are so sorry."
"What do you mean she passed away? She was fine last week?" I could hear the hysterical note in my voice.
My dad was sadly shaking his head " no she wasn't she had terminal cancer and asked me not to say anything, she found out about a month ago."
I couldn't believe anything he said. Bella was fine right? She seemed fine! Then I thought about the pale skin, the needing to know if I loved her, and her rapidly dropping weight.
With my thoughts confirming my dad, I took off running anywhere hoping I would find her, eventually I collapsed and screamed hoping she would come back to me because I did love her damnit!
Seventy years later.
I lived a long time after Bella's death I went to college, became a doctor, but I never fell in love. Sometimes I could feel Bella there with me, like when someone left a baby at the hospital, I could almost hear Bella saying take her home, love her. So I did and my daughter Isa reminded me so much of Bella it hurt sometimes but I loved her, and she was my pride and joy. As I slowly fell asleep I could feel my soul slipping away.
I opened my eyes and looked down, and there was my 17teen year old body again! I ran my hand through my hair and it was all there! I looked up and saw what must be heaven's gate, and Bella standing beside it. I smiled and ran towards her and gripped her in a big hug.
"I loved you Bella even then, I loved you so much."
She let out a giggle, "I know Edward, I have been watching 70 years isn't that long up here."
She smiled up at me and I finally felt home, we turned and walked into Heaven's gate ready to spend eternity together.
