Disclaimer: I don't own the Mediator books or anything like that. Meg Cabot does.

A/N: I hoped you liked the last chapter.

I'm not going to waste your time with this so on to the chapter.


Previously in Destined:

Julian and I remained where we were for a few more seconds.

I felt a shudder run through Julian's body.

I looked up at him and he looked down at me.

In the dimness of the shadows I saw his eyes widen slightly.

"What?" I asked.

He said nothing.

"Julian?"

He furrowed his eyebrows but still said nothing.

"What's your glitch?" With a pang of sorrow I remembered saying the same thing to Jesse. "Look will you just let me leave?"

He shook his head rapidly back and forth. And said the one word that made my heart hurt more than anything. "Querida?"

(A/N: Ha ha I just wanted to do that)


Chapter 6

I blinked up at Julian. Had I heard him correctly? Did he just call me Querida? I blinked back the tears that were rapidly filling my eyes.

"Susannah? Are you alright?" He asked again.

I was wrong. Julian's sole purpose isn't to get me in trouble; it's to hurt me constantly. "Why?" I whispered.

"Why what? Querida what's …?"

"Stop." I interrupted. "Stop calling me that. You can't call me that."

"But …"

"Julian, just leave me alone." I said and tried to walk away.

Julian grabbed my wrist. "Susannah, who is Julian? Did he hurt you?"

I slowly turned around to face Julian. I looked up at him. He was messing with me. Right? Julian was playing some sick joke, somehow he found out Jesse used to call me that. And then it dawned on me. "Jesse?" I asked.

"Yes, Querida. Are you alright?" He asked.

My hand flew to my mouth as I tried to stop the sob that was building in my chest. I blinked and the tears started falling. I threw my arms around him and I started crying into his chest. He seemed startled but eventually I felt his arms snake around me. He stroked my hair and started muttering in Spanish.

It was Jesse.

I took a deep breath and made myself stop crying. I pulled away and wiped my face. "I'm sorry." I whispered.

"You don't have to apologized for crying, Querida." Jesse said.

"I wasn't apologizing for that." I said.

"Then what were you apologizing for?"

"It's my fault Jesse. It's my fault you left."

"Left? Querida, I'm right here. I haven't gone anywhere."

Oh, my God. He doesn't remember moving on. He probably doesn't remember telling me he loved me. "You moved on Jesse." I whispered.

"No I didn't. I'm talking to you right now."

I shook my head and started fumbling around in my backpack for a mirror. "You did move on, Jesse. Look." I said and held up the mirror.

Jesse took it and stared into it. "Nombre de Dios." He whispered and looked up at me. "What happened?"

"You don't remember anything. At all?"

"I remember seeing you come into your room. You started crying. I to…" He shook his head. Did he remember what he had told me?

"I asked you what was wrong. That's all I remember." Jesse said.

"Remember when I went up to the shadowland to save you?" I asked.

"Yes." He said through clenched teeth.

"And I told you that CeeCee was writing the article about you murder?"

"Yes."

"Well, that article was the reason you moved on. You moved on because of me and I'm sorry." I said as my eyes watered again. "I wouldn't have done it if I had known you would leave, but you had promised. Remember? You said that the mystery surrounding your death wasn't what was holding you here."

"It's okay Querida. I'm back now that is all that matters."

"But you're not back. Jesse, your soul is sharing this body with another soul. This body belongs to somebody else. It's not yours."

"What does this mean?"

"I don't know. Father Dominic is doing research. He's never heard of this before."

"Whose body am I in then?"

"A new guy from my school. His name is Julian Diego."

I saw his eyebrow rise. If this was still Jesse's body I would've been transfixed on the scar that went through it.

"You said his last name is Diego?"

"Yeah, that caught my attention too. But really what are the chances that he is related to those Diego's?"

"The chances are extremely great Querida, especially if he is from around here. Is he?"

"I don't know. I just met him yesterday."

Jesse nodded slowly. "What did he do that made you angry with him?"

"Nothing." I didn't like lying to Jesse, but I wasn't about to tell him that I had made out with Julian. Especially since I admitted to barely meeting him. "Jesse, can I ask you something?"

"Ask me anything."

"When you moved on, right before you were completely gone, you told me something."

"I did? What did I say?" He seemed a little fidgety. I think he did remember.

"You said 'Te amo, Querida.'" I said.

"I did?" He asked again, looking down.

"Yes, you did. I figured out what it means, Jesse." I whispered. "I need to know how you meant it."

"What do you mean?"

"Did you mean you love me like a friend, or like how you loved your sisters? Or more than that?"

"Susannah, I…"

"Please Jesse, I need to know. The truth."

He sighed and ran his hand through his hair. He looked into my eyes. "More, Susannah. It's always been more."

I dropped my gaze as I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. I was about to tell him how I felt, but when I looked up at him he stood there blinking. There was a clueless, lost expression on his face.

He was gone again.

Julian must have seen the tears sliding down my face. He took a step toward me, but I stepped away from him.

"Suze? What's wrong?" Julian asked.

I shook my head. "You have to tell Father Dominic." I whispered.

"Tell Father Dominic about what?"

"About you being a mediator."

"Why the fuck would I do that?"

Hearing him cuss reminded me that just a few seconds ago I was talking to Jesse. "Because Father Dom is a mediator too."

"Him too?"

"Yes."

"Anyone else I should know about?"

"Nobody that lives nearby, there are two brothers that live in Seattle." I said, thinking about Jack and Paul.

"You've met them?"

"No, Julian, I have not. I read about it in the mediator monthly newsletter."

"Why do you have to be so fucking sarcastic?"

I shook my head. "Tomorrow you'll tell Father Dominic."

"Why? What if I don't want to?"

"Either you tell him or I will, simple as that. And just so we're clear, I don't want you to talk to me anymore. I mean it this time." I took off running to where I had parked.

"SUZE!" Julian yelled after me.


Julian POV

What the fuck just happened?

One minute Suze and I were standing against the house, and the next thing I knew we were standing on the sidewalk and she was crying. I didn't even remember moving from the side of the house. She was telling me about Father Dominic being a mediator too.

And then she ran away from me.

I am seriously fucking clueless.

I briefly debated running after Suze, but decided to just drop it and leave her alone … for now.

I made my way to my car, trying to sort through what the hell was going on. I had never had a lapse in my memory before.

Damn, Suze is really fucking up my mind.

I drove home listening to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (A/N: I couldn't find any other bands. If you haven't heard of them listen to them, they're awesome.) I tried to keep my mind on getting home and only that. But for some stupid reason I kept thinking of Suze. Where did she go? Did she get home alright?

Son of a bitch! Why do I care? That's a good question. Why do I care? She obviously wants nothing to do with me.

Well, that's your fault, dumb ass. I thought.

"Ugh." I groaned and sped up. I flew down the streets.

OK here's what I need to do, I need to either explain things to Suze or let her go. Just thinking about letting her go made my chest tighten.

See, that!

That is not a normal feeling to have for someone you just met.

I pulled up in front of my house. Before I turned off my car I glanced at the clock. The green neon clock read 3:15AM. I sighed because I knew I had to go to school in a few hours.

Being a mediator sucks. It always cuts into my sleep. I wonder if Suze thinks the same thing.

Damn it! Can't I go five minutes without thinking about her?

Obviously not, I thought.

I hated my parents for making me change schools. I was fine at RLS.

I climbed up the porch steps and was about to walk through the doors when it opened before I touched the knob.

I stood there staring face to face with my dad.


Suze POV

After I ran away from Julian I sat in my mom's car for a while … a long while. I instantly regretted asking Jesse to be more specific about his love for me.

Why?

Because now I know he is in love with me and I can't be with him. It's not like I could've been with him while he was a ghost, but at least we could've seen each other.

I know I told Julian to stay away from me, but I seriously doubt I'm going to stick with it. I don't think I'm that strong.

Anyway, When I finally came around and started the car I almost decided to go straight home. And then I remembered that I had $25,000 in my backpack.

OK, I admit, I briefly thought about keeping it. It was only a second, but I knew I'd never be able to do it.

I headed in the direction of Anthony's wife's house. I debated how I would go about giving the money over.

I couldn't very well knock on the door. People tend to find it weird when teenagers show up on their doorstep, at strange hours, carrying large amounts of money. Trust me, I know. It happened once in Brooklyn.

So here's what I did. I put it on a separate bag. I walked up to a window and forced it open. Of course I forgot that most houses have alarms, a blaring sound resonated through the night. I dropped the bag and bolted.

Smooth, I know. After that I went home

Now here I was, sitting in second period trying not to look over at Julian. I could feel him look at me every couple of minutes.

I was thinking about what to do about Julian. I honestly couldn't just ignore him. If he tried to talk to me I don't think I'd tell him to leave me alone. But what confused me was why. Why wouldn't I tell him no?

Was it because of Jesse? Or Julian?

It's a toss up. Both of them take priority.

Is it possible to be in love with two people at the same time?

Love?

Was I really in love with Julian? I've only known him for a day. Then again, I fell in love with Jesse pretty quickly too.

I was staring, unseeingly, at the front of the class. The teacher had just dismissed us. I was gathering my stuff when a piece of paper slid into my view.

I looked up to see Julian walking away from me. I took a deep breath and opened it as I stood up.

I'm going to see Father Dominic right now. But, I really need to talk to you. Wait for me before lunch, please.

I walked toward my next class.

Should I give in and talk to him?

I guess we'll see.


A/N: Good? Yes? No?

As for the music Julian is listening to the exact song is 'Disconnected' by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, I might put a link on my profile.

I'm thinking about giving Suze a song … any suggestions?

OK so next chapter is going to start off with Julian, a first. It's going to be his conversation with Father D … well that's what I'm planning anyway.

I hoped you liked Suze's conversation with Jesse. I'll admit it, I got a little teary. Yes, I am that much of a dork.

Leave reviews and maybe I'll bring him out again … Ha ha I'll bring him back anyway.

If you want something to happen feel free to tell me, I'm open to suggestion.

Until next time.