Disclaimer: I don't own the Mediator Meg Cabot does. And, to a lesser extent, she owns me.
A/N: I hoped you liked the last chapter.
I'm not sure if this chapter is all that good, but I had slight writer's block.
I'll apologize right now if this chapter really sucks.
Chapter 7
Julian POV
Damn, I feel like I'm about to confess to murder.
I've gone almost seventeen years without telling anyone I can see ghosts now here I am … about to tell a priest.
If I was being honest, which I rarely am, I'd admit that I am more nervous about talking to Suze after this.
Yeah, how messed up is that? I'm more worried about talking to her than I am about telling Father Dominic I am a mediator.
I haven't spoken and neither has Father Dominic. We are basically sitting here staring at each other.
I wonder how Suze told him. How she found out he was a mediator.
I sighed and Father Dominic cleared his throat.
I guess that's my cue.
I took a deep breath. "I'm a mediator." I blurted out. It actually came out sounding like nothing like that.
What? I was nervous.
Father Dominic shocked the shit out of me when he spoke. "I know." He said.
"What? You knew? How?" I asked "Did … did Suze tell you?"
"No, Susannah did not tell me. You told her?" Father Dom asked.
"No. We ran into each other last night while mediating the same ghost. How did you know I was a mediator?"
"The same way I knew Susannah was a mediator. I suspected that she might be one of us when I first heard her mother speak about her and her problems at her old school. I got the same thing from your mother."
"So you automatically assumed I was a mediator." That was a statement, not a question.
"I assumed, yes, but I was waiting for solid proof. With Susannah, I introduced her to Heather, the ghost of a young girl who attended this school."
"Did Suze freak?"
"She was surprised that I was a mediator." Father Dominic said.
"What did she think of the ghost? What did she do?"
Father Dom frowned. "Susannah's mediation methods need refinement," was all he said.
"What does that mean? What did she do?" I asked again.
"She punched Heather."
I snickered I could totally see Suze punching a ghost. I had never resorted to that, but it had come pretty close.
"Does she do that a lot?" I asked.
"Unfortunately yes she does."
I laughed again. "Father D … who's Jesse?" I asked.
Father Dominic's eyes widened and then he looked slightly angry. "How do you know about Jesse?" He asked.
"Suze had said I, uh, reminded her of him. She said he was her friend." I explained.
"Yes, Jesse was a good friend to both Susannah and I." Father Dom said.
"Yeah, I got that. I know Suze was in love with him, but it seems like there's more to it than that."
You should ask Susannah about it."
"I have. All she tells me is 'it's complicated'. Will you tell me Father D?"
Father Dom sighed. "It's not my place to say anything. If Susannah wants to tell you then I will leave that up to her. But Julian, please don't pressure her into telling you. Let her do it on her own. Let her decide."
"You're really not going to tell me."
"No, I'm not. Is there anything else you need?"
I took a deep breath. "There's one thing that I want to know."
"What do you want to know?"
"Dud Suze ever … have sex with Jesse? That's all I want to know, the rest I can leave alone. Just … not that."
"Julian, that …"
"Please Father Dom, I need to know." I was so close to getting on my knees and begging.
"Would you think less of Susannah if she did?"
What kind of question is that?
Would I? I thought.
"No. I just … I want to know how close they got. To know if it would be hard for Suze to, you know, get over him."
It was the truth. I wouldn't think less of Suze. It's just that I already know Suze loved, or loves, but it would be harder for her to love someone else if she and Jesse had been together in that way.
I know I asked Suze if she and Jesse had been friends with benefits, and she said no, but she had never said they had never done it.
She told you that he only saw her as a friend, My inner voice said.
So, friends have sex with each other all the time, I thought back. Am I seriously fucking arguing with myself? Well, at least I'm not doing it out loud.
"Julian, you should know that if either Susannah or Jesse confided that information to me I would not be able to tell you." Father Dominic said.
I slumped down in my chair, defeated. "They did, didn't they?"
Even if Suze forgave me, we won't be able to work. She's too attached to Jesse.
I never stood a chance, I thought.
"No Julian, they did not." Father Dom said.
I picked up my head. "They didn't?"
Father Dominic shook his head.
Yes, I thought.
Maybe we'll work after all.
Suze POV
I decided to wait for Julian
Yes, I am pathetic.
I can't help it. Okay? Julian is, for lack of a better word, gorgeous. And if I can get a chance to talk to Jesse again I'll take it.
I felt like an idiot as I waited for Julian. I had been waiting for five minutes. I decided to wait a few more minutes.
I knew he was talking to Father Dom, and that can sometimes take a while.
I was leaning against the wall and I started wondering what, exactly, Julian wanted to talk to me about.
Maybe he just wanted to ask me about my being a mediator. I think I'd die if that was all he wanted. I was planning to give him a chance to explain.
I know what you're thinking. You're thinking that I only wanted to fix things with him because I wanted to talk to Jesse again. You might be right. I'm still not sure.
I know I'm attracted to Julian. That's a definite. But again, is that just because of Jesse?
Maybe I shouldn't try to fix things with Julian. Just until I can sort through all the crap in my head.
Yes, Suze, walk away. I thought. Now.
I stood up straight and was planning on leaving when I noticed Julian heading straight toward me.
Too late.
A/N: Sorry. I know this was so short.
And again I apologize if it totally sucks.
Yes I gave you a little cliffie. I planned on making this chapter longer but I just really wanted to leave you hanging.
Quick question. Should I have Suze forgive Julian right now or hold off for a few chapters?
You decide.
