Chapter 7:
Theo made it back to his house and found it to be empty. He sat down on the chair and pulled Xavier closer to his body, crying. He had no idea what he was going to do now, he just lost Draco and he was now once again alone. He heard Xavier's breathing slow and knew his son was now sleeping on his shoulder.
Once he had put his son to bed he found himself in his back gardens, sitting on his knees. Everything that had happened that day suddenly crashed down on him and he let the tears flow.
"What have I done Draco. Please. Please" After a couple hours he finally dragged himself back into his house and fell asleep on the couch, to tired to drag himself up his stairs yet again.
He was awoken by a bouncing Xavier, jumping on him. He laughed and picked his son up, throwing him in the air. The little boy screamed and laughed at his father before he was placed on the floor.
"Da. Food." His little boy said as he ran into the kitchen and tried climbing up into his chair. Theo laughed as he picked him up and placed some food in front of the hungry boy. Knocking sounded at the front door and Theo froze. He didn't want to answer it, in fear of who it might be.
"Theo, Theo. It's Hermione are you alright in there?" He heard before he finally answered the door. He was pulled right into a hug from his friend once the door allowed her in.
"Oh Theo I am so sorry. I forgot I had ever told Harry your address. It has been years since we saw him last and I didn't think he would ever show up." Theo pulled away and knew by the look in her eyes she was really sorry.
"It's alright Hermione. I understand why you did it back then. It's over now so let's move on alright?" He asked and smiled when she nodded in return.
"Draco was at our place last night." Theo froze at her words, with his sons cup in his hand.
"Drink, Da?" As he looked down at his son he tried not to cry. Knowing his little man may never see Draco again. He placed the cup in front of his son and moved to clean the kitchen, trying hard not to look at Hermione.
"Are you going to be alright. He told us you two were over." Theo hung his head before he responded.
"I'll live. I'm used to getting my heart broken. It's happened enough over the years, what's one more time. I'm just going to concentrate on raising my son now. He is all I need." He knew his voice was betraying everything he was saying but he couldn't bring himself to care.
Hermione walked up and pulled him into a hug, making him break down and cry on her shoulder.
"Is there anything I can do to fix this?" She asked pulling him back to wipe the tears from his eyes.
"No, if Draco really doesn't want to be with me, all I can hope for is he finds someone that with love him and make him happy." He said before he sat down at the table.
"What about Harry? I know it is hard but he needs to know Xavier." Theo looked at his son and knew she was right, his son also deserved to know his real father.
"I know. Xavier has the right now grow up knowing his real father. I was just hoping Draco would have been apart of his life also. What am I going to do when he starts asking about him?"
"He may not remember Draco by then, you never know."
"No. I know he will remember him. If not he will see the pictures of him and Draco together. I'm not getting rid of them. He'll know he was someone important in his life at one point. I just don't know what to say."
"You have some years before you even have to worry about that Theo. Right now you need to heal." Hermione said as she placed a hand on his shoulder.
A couple weeks had past and Theo refused to go do anything. He knew he was reverting back to how he was when he thought Harry was dead but he couldn't help it. One morning he had no choice but to go to the store to get some food and quickly got Xavier ready.
As they were strolling around the store he froze when he saw Draco and Blaise standing down one of the isles. He had prayed they would not see him but his son gave them away.
"Fa fa fa fa fa fa." He started yelling when he saw Draco. Theo tried to move quickly so the two men wouldn't see him, but Draco spun around fast at hearing Xavier and smiled at the little boy.
"Hey little man." He said as he walked up to the two of them. Theo tried not to look at Draco and looked right at Blaise, who didn't look happy to see him. If looks could have killed, Theo knew he would be dead from the pissed off expression on the other mans face.
Xavier was laughing at Draco when he started to tickle the little boys stomach. He began to stand up when Xavier grabbed ahold of his finger.
"Come home, play with me?" He said looking up at Draco, the other man sighed and knelt back down.
"I'm sorry little man, but I can't. Don't forget I love you alright." He kissed Xaviers head and stood back up.
"Ok" Xavier replied as Draco turned around and began to walk away. Theo stood frozen to the spot, trying to get his voice to work so he could talk to Draco. His heart broke when he saw him begin to walk away with out even one word to him. He didn't want that to happen.
"Dr..Draco." He finally got out. The other man froze, whispered something to Blaise and continued to walk away. Blaise turned around and walked right up to Theo, looking like he was going to kill him.
"Just stay away from him alright. He doesn't want anything to do with you any longer. Fuck I had told him before to just leave you, that you didn't love him. He wouldn't give up on you, said you would say it in your own time. I knew he was just kidding himself. He told me to tell you we will only shop here on Friday's, so if you could make sure not to come here then everything will be fine." Blaise started to walk away then.
"I do love him. I wrote him a note after he left me telling him how I felt, even told him to his face. I love him so much Blaise." The words were cut short when Blaise spun around staring fiercely at him.
"Stop lying to yourself. If you loved him so much you would have told him sooner, you would have told him you knew Potter was still alive and would have reassured him that Potter was not a threat. Just leave him alone." Blaise left then leaving Theo still frozen to his spot.
Theo tried to take calming breaths to prevent him from crying but it wasn't working. He left his shopping basket on the floor and went home. He knew he needed the food but he couldn't make himself stay in the store right now. Once he had them home he quickly put Xavier up for a nap and called Hermione. He told her what happened and asked her if she could please get him the things he needed. She agreed and showed up an hour later to Theo crying on the couch.
"I thought I could do this. I really thought I could. I can't though can I?" He stated as she sat down next to him.
"Can't do what Theo?" She asked wrapping an arm around his shoulder.
"I can't do this alone. I can't even go to the store with out seeing Draco, I can't go out of the house without thinking I'm going to run into him. I have Xavier to think of and this isn't how I want him to be raised." Theo stated worried about what might happen.
"You need to get out Theo. There are things you can do and places you can go that you wont see him. Take Xavier to the park, fun places for kids that you know Draco won't show. I'll go with you when I'm not working. How about now, there is a park right down the road, let's bring him there." She looked at him with hope in her eyes.
"Alright. I'll go wake him up." Moments later they found themselves at the park, Xavier running around like a wild child, playing with other kids his age. Theo smiled at seeing his son having so much fun.
"Thank you Hermione."
"No problem, he needs to be able to play and make friends." Just when Theo started to relax and enjoy his time out here it had to all just go wrong.
"Theo, Hermione?" They both turned around to see Harry holding a little boy in his arms. He placed the boy down and watched him run off with the other kids.
"Who's kid is that Harry?" Hermione asked.
"Ron's. He's my god-son so I thought I would spend the day with him."
"In Muggle London?" She asked again feeling Theo squeeze her hand from next to her.
"I saw this park when I was here before and hoped one day I would run into Theo and Xavier if I came here." He said looking over at Theo, who still refused to look at him.
"Theo, please can we talk." Theo turned and looked at Hermione
"I'll go play with Xavier alright, I'll only be over there." She said before getting up and leaving.
"What do you want Harry?" Theo said without looking at him, watching his son and friend play.
"I want to have my family back." Theo felt Harry try to grab his hand and quickly moved it into his lap.
"No, I will let you get to know Xavier, he deserves that. But that's all the family you get from me." A smile played on his lips as he saw Xavier run over to the little red headed boy Harry had brought and grab his hand.
"I want to be with you too, I love you Theo, I miss you." Harry moved closer and placed his hand on the back of Theo's neck, gently rubbing. Theo stood quickly and faced Harry, anger edged into his expression.
"No, you have no right coming here after three years and saying these things. I was happy, finally moving on with someone I had fallen in love with and for the second time you come and think you can move right in. I'm not in school any longer, not falling after you like some love sick puppy. You ruined everything making me think you were dead and then finding out you were alive, only to tell me you didn't want me or our son. Your lucky I am even giving you the chance to be in his life after that." Theo stood there with his hands clenched at his sides, trying not to hit Harry.
"Fine, I'll take what I can get for now. I'm not going to give up on us being together. When can I come see him?" Harry finally asked
"I have to talk to Hermione. I don't want you alone with him. I'm sorry Harry but after your disappearing act I don't trust you not to run off with my son." Theo walked over to where his friend was sitting, watching Xavier play with the red head.
