Disclaimer: Mediator belongs to Meg Cabot. The plot is all mine

A/N: So yes, I suck for posting that last chapter. But I will make up for it.

I promise.

This chapter changes POVs quite a bit

Let's get this show on … whatever … here's chapter 10.


Chapter 10

Julian POV

I spent all night perfecting the first half of my get-Suze-back plan and I'm hoping like hell that this will work.

Today I would get things started. I'm not 100% sure it will work, but one can only hope.

I was leaning against my car in the parking lot. There was still 10 minutes before assembly started and I wanted to catch Suze before.

I am aware that I am acting like a pathetic idiot. But I don't care, because I'm in love.

I saw Suze and her step-brothers pull into the parking lot.

Well, here goes nothing.


Suze POV

I was so not looking forward to school. Alright I was so not looking forward to seeing Julian.

I know if I see him I won't be strong enough to resist him.

I'm weak; I'm ashamed to admit it.

But it's not my fault. It's Julian's. It's him and his damn eyes, the eyes that can make me melt … just like Jesse's eyes.

Oh my god, I'm so damn confused.

I sighed as Dopey pulled in to the school parking lot.

And so starts another day of drama.

I got out of the Land Rover and was headed for the courtyard when I heard someone call my name.

Ok, so it wasn't any 'someone' I recognized Julian's voice. I wanted to act like I hadn't heard him. I wanted to keep walking and ignore him. I wanted to throw my arms around his neck and kiss him senseless.

I stopped and waited for him.

Pathetic, I know.

I watched as he jogged over to me. I ignored the thudding of my heart and tried to focus on something, anything, else.

All my thought flew out of my mind as soon as he smiled at me.

"Hey." Julian said.

"Hi." I said. Oh my god monosyllabic answers. Amazing aren't they?

"So, good morning?"

"So, why did you ask that like a question?"

"I, uh, wasn't sure if you were going to talk to me."

"Well, I am. Do you need something?"

Julian laughed nervously. "I wanted to give you something."

"Okay."

"Yeah, so here it is." He held out a clear CD jewel case to me.

I took it from him and looked down at it.

"I made it for you and I really need you to listen to it." He said.

I looked up at him. "You need me to listen to it?"

"Yeah, please. I want you to forgive me."

"So you give me a CD?"

"It's not just any CD. It took me all night to get the right songs. Each song reminds me of you and how you make me feel."

"Oh, I'll listen to it tonight."

"No. Listen to it as soon as possible. Please."

Julian was begging me? He must really want me to forgive him. Why does he feel this way about me?

Does it have something to do with Jesse? Was Jesse's soul the only reason for the connection between Julian and me?

"Ok. I'll, uh … I'll find a way to listen to it at lunch. Okay?"

"Okay." Julian said with a nod.

Julian and I stood there in silence for a few awkward moments. I had a new thought to sort through.

Why does Julian want me?

This was too confusing.

"We should go before Assembly starts." I said. "I don't want to get detention." And I walked into the courtyard.

The day seemed to drag. Each class felt like more than an hour. And during each class the CD in my bag was calling to me.

Where was I going to listen to it?

I needed to find some place where I could be alone.

I was headed to the courtyard for lunch, when I thought of the perfect place.

I looked around for Dopey, I was planning on listening to the CD in the Land Rover. It was a pretty obvious choice, yet it took me a few hours to come up with the idea.

I found him sitting surrounded by all his friends, which included Julian.

Great, I had to go toward that area and ask Dopey for the keys.

Well, here goes nothing.


Julian POV

It was lunchtime, Suze was supposed to listen to the CD, and I was about to have a heart attack because I was fucking nervous.

Where was she going to listen to it?

What would she think of it?

Would she like it?

Would she forgive me?

Why was she walking toward where I was sitting?

I saw Suze headed over to the table I was sitting at. Holy shit, had she listened to it already?

She didn't look mad or anything, mostly she looked determined.

I couldn't help but stare at her as she walked. My heart was thudding against my ribs, and I thought it would burst out.

As she got closer I sat up straighter, but then she walked past me and went to talk to Brad.

I watched in curiosity as they seemed to argue over something.

Finally Brad made a face and dug something out of his pocket. He handed it to Suze.

With a quick glance at me, she walked toward the parking lot.

I sat at the table practically bouncing with nerves. I was positive she was listening to the CD in the Land Rover.

Holy fuck is it possible for a seventeen-year-old to have a heart attack? If it is I'm pretty sure I'll be dead before lunch is over.

After thirty minutes I couldn't wait any longer, I had to go see if she was done listening to it. I just couldn't wait, it was driving me to the brink of insanity.


Suze POV

I sat in the front seat of the Land Rover. I was hesitant, I didn't want to push play. On one hand I really wanted to listen to it. On the other hand I really, really didn't want to.

Suck it up, Suze! I yelled at myself. I snapped out of whatever fear-induced immobilization I was in and pressed the play button quickly, before I could change my mind.

The music of the first song was up beat and had a strong rock vibe to it, I wasn't so sure it would symbolize the way I made Julian feel.

That was until I heard the chorus. It said something to the effect of 'don't hang up on me cause I'm hung up on you', I actually started laughing. I remembered that day Julian called to my house and I hung up on him.

I listened to the songs, the third through six songs were slow and made my eyes water. I recognized one of the songs as 'Addicted' by Simple Plan. I laughed through my watery eyes.

The songs after that were like the first song, up beat and rock-ish. It wasn't until the last song that I actually cried.

Yes I, Suze Simon – kick ass mediator, was crying over a song. I knew I had heard it before but I couldn't, for the life of me, remember the name of it. The chorus went like this:

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The song finished and I tried to compose myself before I stepped out of the car. I wiped my face and was heading back toward the courtyard when Julian stepped in front of me.


A/N: So that was chapter 10. I hope you liked it.

I am already half way done with chapter 11. I will try and post it soon, but since I'm staying with my brother right now I hardly get time to use the only computer with internet (it sucks big time).

For those of you who don't know the last song on the CD is 'I'll Be' by Edwin McCain.

Here are all the songs on the CD

Disconnected - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Only One - Yellowcard

The Sun and The Moon - Mae

The Ocean - Mae

Return To Me - The Last Goodnight

This Is The Sound - The Last Goodnight

I Can Wait Forever - Simple Plan

Addicted - Simple Plan

Memory - Sugarcult

Over - Sugarcult

Counting Stars - Sugarcult

Candle (Sick and Tired) - The White Tie Affair

Always Be - Jimmy Eat World

Collide - Howie Day

I'll Be - Edwin McCain (If you have clicked the link on my profile for the playlist you know that this song wasn't on there. It was a surprise)

Don't worry Jesse will be back. He's obligated to come back.

Next chapter has a steamy kiss … very steamy.

Until next time.