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First of all I am so, SO sorry about not uploading in a while. I've been so busy lately between school and sports and...well life. Because I feel so bad about not uploading I'm going to try to get another chapter up by the end of the weekend. Yeah, that's right, that's how much I love you all. (: Anyways, let me know what you think! xoxo
Oh! I almost forgot! This chapter's musical inspiration is With or Without You by U2 (:
By the end of the first semester Alice and I were the best of friends with Jasper, Emmett, and Edward. Rosalie was even making it a point to hang out with us as well since she and Emmett were now officially together. It turns out that they went to camp together when they were told her he had never stopped thinking about her since that summer. Seeing as Emmett is just so big, it's kind of funny seeing him around her because when they're together he turns into a giant teddy bear. Watching them together is the cutest thing ever but at the same time also makes me want to slit my wrist because I know I would never have a relationship as complete and true like them.
Alice went on her second date with Jasper this past Friday. She was so excited; it was all she talked about on Saturday when she called me. It was such a detailed description that if I told anyone about it they'd think it was me who went out with him. It's strange; I've never seen her like this before. She most definitely is not the girl who is all "OMG my boyfriend!", but she is different in a way. Her treats her right though and that's the most important part.
As for Edward, I don't even know where to begin. He's my best friend. I can tell him anything and he's just amazing at everything. I think I'm falling in love with him though which sucks because I already know how it will end if I do. My heart will be broken and he'll be happy with whatever beautiful girl captures his heart. He is absolutely gorgeous and every girl wants him. Lauren and Jessica are all over him but whenever they come onto him he just politely declines, conveniently bringing Mike into the conversation. I'm almost positive she forgets that she and Mike are dating whenever Edward is around. I don't think he realizes the effect he has on anyone. All he has to do is give them his beautiful crooked smile and they'd give him anything he asked for.
I haven't told anyone about my feelings for Edward—not even Alice. Sure she's my best girl friend but I don't want her to feel bad for me when he finally does date someone. Also, if she knew my life would become hell. She would do anything to get us together which would just end up embarrassing me. Why would he ever even look at me anyway? He can have literally any girl he wants and they'd gladly take him.
Other than that though nothing really as gone on in a while except that the Winter Ball is coming up. I already know for a fact that no one will ask me, but for whatever reason Alice thinks otherwise.
"I know someone who wants to ask you, Bella", she said, "he's just too damn shy to do actually do it." I wondered who it could possibly be but knew that even if it was true there was only one person who I wanted it to be. It would never be him though.
"Come on Bella, we're gonna be late." She said and we were out the door to the Cullens.
The Cullen's house had pretty much become my second home over the past few months. Edward's parents, Esme and Carlisle, always said that Alice, Rose, and I were welcome any time. They were too sweet; I love them dearly. Apparently they loved me too because they'd told me on a number of occasions that they thought so highly of me.
We got there and walked right into the house. Rose was already inside sitting on Emmett's lap in deep conversation with him. Once Alice saw Jasper she followed the trend. This left Edward and I to awkwardly pretend like being in this situation wasn't uncomfortable at all.
"Hey!", I greeted.
"Hi Bells," he replied.
"They kind of get irritating after a while", I said, gesturing over to the 2 happy couples.
"Yeah you're right", he agreed, flashing me his gorgeous smile.
"So who asked you to the Winter Ball today?" I joked. Each day there were at least 4 girls who asked if he wanted to go.
"Well both Jessica and Lauren both asked me...again" , he stated, "and then there was this freshman I didn't know."
For whatever reason this made me laugh much louder than I intended to, which of course caused everyone to snap out of their love trances and look at me. I turned bright red and they all started laughing hysterically.
"I'll be right back." I said and then ran off to the bathroom to get a hold of myself. I don't know how he did this to me. One minute I'd be acting like a normal human being and then he'd say something that'd cause me to turn into a tomato.
Once my face was back to normal color, I started to walk back to the living room. Right before I stopped since I heard everyone talking in hushed voices.
"…if you don't ask her to the Ball soon E you'll miss out." said Emmett.
"Yeah", Alice agreed, "she's already got it in her head that no one will ask her so you need to get your ass moving!"
"I want to", Edward said quietly, "but what if she says no." He seemed sad, nervous, but most of all….vulnerable. My heart couldn't help but ache as I heard him speak though, the thought of him being with someone else hurt so bad my heart actually hurt.
"Ha!", Alice said, "I know for a fact that she'll say yes, she really likes you, E! I've never seen her this way about a guy before. It's adorable but at the same time really annoying, you two just need to confess you're undying love for one another and have babies already."
"Okay…the next time I get the chance I'll ask her." Edward responded, "I just hope you're right."
That was when my heart dropped down to my feet. I was absolutely heartbroken. Who was this girl? Did she not realize that she was the luckiest girl to ever live on this planet? I couldn't take it anymore, I had to walk in the room so they couldn't say anymore. I walked in and resume my spot next to him on the couch where I'd been before.
"Oh, I had no idea what time it is," Emmett said, "I'm gonna be late for work."
"I'll give you a ride there babe." Rose said and away they went.
"Jazz, we should probably get started on our project now." Alice said and they headed up to his room. I highly doubted there'd be any studying going on though.
Once we were alone Edward suggested we go upstairs to his room to study for our biology test. I gathered my things and followed him up the steps. I went to put my stuff on his bed and when I turned around he was right next to me, our knees brushing. I stopped breathing.
"Bells, I need to tell you something," he began, "I just..I don't know how to say it."
"Just put it out there, E", I managed to squeak out. I still was trying to recover from his closeness. "You can tell me anything."
"That's what I love about you, Bella", he said, "One of so many things I love about you." He brushed my hair away from my face. I blushed a deep red.
"What are you getting at, Edward?" I asked, hoping he didn't realize my face was so flushed.
"I'm saying that I love being around you Bells", he whispered, "I love who I am when I'm with you, how you make me feel. I don't want someone to come along and say the same things I'm telling you now. I want to be the only person who can say these things. I think I'm falling in love with you Bella. You're my best friend but I want to be more." He stopped to take a breath for a moment before continuing quietly, "I know it's a lot to take in, but I just had to let you know."
I was beyond words at that point. I simply couldn't deal with hearing this. It was like all of my dreams were coming true at once. I didn't know how to respond other than smiling hugely.
"Edward, I don't think how relieved I am to hear you say that." I started "When I heard you taking to Alice earlier about asking someone to the Ball it made me want to lock myself up in my room and cry. I feel the exact same way." I was so incredibly happy, I didn't know how else to express my emotions.
As soon as I said that the biggest smile flashed across his face. He looked angelic. I was almost positive that my day couldn't get any better until he took my face in his hands and looked at my lips. When he brought our faces closer my heart was racing faster than a cheetah sprinting at its top speed.
Our lips finally touched. It was unlike anything I had ever felt before. He brought his hands up to my hair and began kissing me more deeply. I was ecstatic, bringing my arms around his neck. As we went on, I began feeling more adventurous and pushed him on his back but when we went down our noses hit together. In other situations it might have been awkward but we just laughed because that was the type of relationship we had. He pulled back though and kissed my nose, making sure it was okay.
It was perfect.
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