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She looked so small. Led in that bed. Hooked up to so many machines. White bandages covering her entire chest. She looked so small. That was the first thing Tony noticed when he stepped inside her hospital room. Taking slow, calculated steps he cautiously approached her bed.

"Hey Zi." He greeted softly. He stood at the foot of her bed and took in every part of her: from her hospital blanket encased toes to her beautiful hair matted with her own blood. He looked away, unable to see the latter anymore. His face crumpled as he sat on the floor, facing the wall. "I'm so sorry Ziva. I should have been better, I should of stopped him, this." Tears started to fall down from his tired eyes. "Please don't leave me Zi. I can't do this without you. I won't go on. The world will stop turning, time will just stop Ziva. I can't do this. I can't. I, I love you too much Zi. You are my world; please don't take that away from me." Tony turned his head towards the ceiling. "Do you hear me? Don't take her. Please! I need her in my life! I don't have a life without her." He screamed in despair.

Gibbs heard his senior field agent's screams, dropped his coffee and ran towards the room.

"Tony?" He asked bursting through the door. He stopped dead and saw the son he never had sat on the floor sobbing his heart out, shaking with fear at loosing the light from his life. The older man quickly crossed the room and dropped to his knees, taking the young man in his arms. "It'll be okay. She'll pull through." Tony sank into Gibbs' chest and sobbed openly.

It was more than an hour when Gibbs' pulled his agent up with him.

"Tony, I'm going to get someone to stay with you tonight."

"I'll be fine." Tony replied through softening cries. Gibbs' eyes locked onto his and held them for a moment.

"Okay. Call one of us, if you need anything. Family's are good at crises, especially ours." He smiled softly. "I mean anything Tony."

"I will boss." The two men exchanged small smiles before the silver haired agent left the room and Tony sat in the chair next to his partner. "I will." It took barely an hour for him to be asleep, listening to the lullaby of Ziva's heart monitor.

"Beep, beep, beep, beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…"