Hide My Heart- alternative chapter 6

Spencer had never wanted to go to her algebra class so much. Ashley was currently sat next to her which was all Kyla's doing and she was now less fond of the smaller Davies sister. Spencer could focus all her attention on the middle aged man doing roll call but every few seconds see could feel somebody looking at her. Getting annoyed Spencer turned her head to the left catching Ashley looking at her but instead of looking away Ashley just looked straight back at Spencer raising a challenging eyebrow. Spencer huffed and turned her attention back to the teacher trying to focus on anything but Ashley Davies.

Ashley on the other hand had no intention of ignoring Spencer and was finding it difficult not to stare at the blonde. She tried her best to tear her eyes away for fear of seeming like some weird stalker but she couldn't help herself. The one time Spencer actually made eye contact Ashley just smirked to show Spencer that she wasn't afraid to look at her but that only seemed to anger the blonde further. Trying a new approach Ashley scribbled a quick note and slid it over to Spencer trying not to draw attention to them.

Spencer tried to ignore Ashley nudging her arm but she was persistent so she gave in and took the note.

I know you hate me but give me a chance to explain…please?

Spencer re-read the note a few times and grabbed her pen to write her reply. She angrily scribbled down a reply while trying to avoid eye contact with the teacher. Passing the note back Spencer resisted looking at Ashley and continued to stare at the wall.

Ashley grabbed the note smiling to her self thinking that she may have made a break through but her smile soon faltered when she read Spencer's reply.

Go to hell Ashley!

Ashley felt stupid for expecting a stupid hand written note to help and figured she would try to talk to Spencer again later and if that failed then she would ditch the rest of the day to avoid the beautiful blonde. Ashley's thoughts were interrupted by the bell signalling that they should make way to first period. Before Ashley could even move Spencer was up and out of the classroom.

Ashley sat defeated in her seat knowing that getting Spencer to be her friend was going to be impossible.

"Come on Ash at least try a whole day of school you might like it" Kyla smiled standing next to Ashley as she dragged herself from her seat.

"School sucks and Spencer hates me" Ashley moaned.

"Look Ashley she can be super stubborn and a pain in the ass sometimes. She just needs some time to chill out." Aiden butted in having no idea why Ashley was so concerned about making things ok with Spencer. They had only known each other a few days but Ashley was acting like they were life long friends or something.

"Why are you talking?" Ashley snapped not meaning to be mean but she hadn't even realised that Aiden was still there next to Kyla.

"Just trying to help Ashley plus I know Spencer better than anybody" Aiden replied with a cocky smile knowing full well not to get in to an argument with a Davies sister.

"How much do you know her?" Ashley asked suddenly interested in Aiden.

"I know everything Ashley but I'm not going to help unless you tell my what the hell is going on?" Aiden demanded but he only made the Davies sisters laugh out loud.

"Never gonna happen jock strap. Thanks for the laugh before Algebra" Ashley laughed as she started to walk off.

"I have algebra too and you know who else does?" Aiden replied following Ashley as she tried to leave. Ashley stared at Aiden for a few seconds until Kyla nudged her into movement.

"Spencer?"

"Yep and I know all her other classes too" Aiden teased.

"Come on meat head lets go" Ashley demanded expecting Aiden to follow which he did after getting a nod from Kyla. Ashley stormed down the hall way knowing full well that she was going to get detention for being tardy but she didn't care as she would never attend detention.

Ashley pushed Aiden into the room first and the teacher looked less than happy but nothing compared the expression on Spencer's face.

"Miss Davies and Mr Dennison I assume" The young teacher scolded them. Ashley turned on her Davies smile and sauntered up to the young teacher that she had never met before.

"We're sorry Miss…..we were helping an old lady cross the road" Ashley smiled making the young lady uncomfortable.

"It's Miss Johnson and that's a lie. I was going to let you both off but for the lie you get detention today after school"

"I'm sorry Miss Johnson but I have basketball practice after school so I won't be able to attend today but I'm happy to do it any other day" Aiden chimed in flashing his pearly whites which seemed to soften the teacher slightly much to Ashley's annoyance.

"That's fine Mr Dennison. Looks like you'll be in detention alone Miss Davies" Miss Johnson smiled clearly already making her mind up about Ashley.

Ashley scowled and made her way to her seat at the back of the room which happened to be one row behind Spencer who was currently looking any where but at Ashley. Aiden managed to get a seat next to Spencer who also didn't seem impressed with him which was probably because he arrived with Ashley.

The class dragged on forever and Ashley managed to take on absolutely nothing other than Spencer likes to chew her pencil, she twirls her hair when she's listening and she likes drawing love hearts on her note book. Ashley felt like such an idiot for staring at the girl but she was taking what she could at this point. She watched as Aiden leaned in and whispered something to Spencer who only scolded him then pushed him away. Aiden seemed quite intent on getting her attention so he tried tickling her under her arm while the teachers back was turned which soon got a reaction from the now annoyed blonde. Spencer's giggles soon stopped when Miss Johnson turned around with a face of thunder.

"Miss Carlin is there something funny?" The teacher asked glaring at Spencer like she was going to kill her at any point. Aiden had distanced himself as much as possible so he didn't get into to trouble.

"Um no…I'm sorry" Spencer murmured going red which only made Ashley smile.

"Sorry isn't good enough Miss Carlin. You can join Miss Davies in detention today after school"

"I didn't do anything" Spencer argued which only seemed to anger the teacher further.

"Would you like to make it 2 days?"

"No Miss Johnson" Spencer replied giving Aiden a look that could kill. After the drama had calmed down Aiden turned and did a thumbs up to Ashley then it finally clicked what he had done. Ashley was impressed by Aiden's plan and now had the chance to talk to Spencer alone in detention.

Spencer couldn't believe that Aiden had played a part in getting her detention, she couldn't understand why her best friend would do something so mean. She decided not to stick around and ask as she was too annoyed. As she had a free period before lunch she decided to go and find a quiet seat on the quad so she could collect her thoughts.

She managed to find a bench under the tree which looked perfect so she parked her ass there and pulled out her book from algebra. She was too mad at Aiden throughout most of the class and she could still feel Ashley looking at her so her concentration was limited.

"Hey lady why you hiding out here?" Carmen asked as she took a seat opposite Spencer.

"Not hiding….just wanted some peace" Spencer admitting smiling for the first time that morning.

"From anyone specific?" Carmen queried clearly concerned that Spencer was annoyed at her as well.

"Aiden, Ashley, Kyla and maybe you too" Spencer confessed hoping that Carmen didn't take offence.

"I'm sorry about what I said earlier Spencer, I guess I'm just a little careful when it comes to those kids but if you're willing to give them a try then I am. You are one of the best people I know and I trust your judgement"

"I'm not sure that I even trust my judgement Carmen"

"You think I'm pretty awesome or at least you used to right?" Carmen asked moving so she was sat next to Spencer.

"Maybe"

"Well I promise that you're right about that, I'm frickin awesome and so are you" Carmen smiled as she noticed just how close she was to Spencer. The proximity had not gone unnoticed by Spencer, her breathing had quickened and she was starting to blush.

"What about everyone else?" Spencer asked looking Carmen directly in the eye and swallowing the non existent lump in her throat.

"Fuck em Spencer….I'm just thinking about you and me right now" Carmen replied gently moving a piece of stray hair from Spencer's face. Carmen didn't want to push Spencer too far but the urge to kiss her was too strong and she was barely controlling herself.

Spencer almost melted when Carmen's hand softly grazed her face as she pushed her hair back into place. Spencer had never been in this situation before and had never banked on it being with a girl but even though it felt new and exciting it still felt natural. In that moment she wanted to kiss Carmen but she had too much going in her life to complicate everything further. She was definitely feeling something towards Carmen but kissing in public when she wasn't so sure so she quickly jumped to her feet. Carmen looked up at the flushed blonde with a confused and hurt expression plastered across her face.

"I'm sorry" Carmen muttered.

"It's not you Carm" Spencer replied pausing at the lameness of her words.

"Jesus Spencer please don't use that line" Carmen half joked half snapped.

"I'm just not ready for that yet...I don't even know if I'm gay" Spencer explained.

"Do you even like me?" Carmen questioned shyly.

"Yes" Spencer whispered.

"Then that will do for now Spencer" Carmen replied with a genuine smile.

"So are we ok?"

"Yes, in fact do you wanna hang out after school?" Carmen asked shaking off the rejection hoping that Spencer would see her as more than a friend at some point.

"I can't I have detention" Spencer admitted.

"You have detention? You must be lying" Carmen joked knowing full well that Spencer Carlin had never had detention before.

"Nope Aiden decided to be a jackass during algebra and I got the blame"

"Damn that sucks…..I can wait for you if you like?" Carmen offered smiling again.

"That's really sweet Carm but it's cool. We can hang tomorrow after school" Spencer answered wanting to reassure Carmen as much as possible. With some hesitation Spencer closed the small gap and hugged Carmen feeling the shorted girl relax into her embrace.

Ashley had spent most of her lunch hiding in her car so she didn't have to explain to Kyla why her mood had gone from bad to really fucking bad but her luck was running thin that day. Kyla was now stood by the window looking less than impressed that Ashley had opted for turning the music up rather than letting Kyla in. Ashley gave in after a while and opened the door so Kyla could get in.

"Hey Miss sunshine why you getting all emo in your car?" Kyla asked turning the music off much to Ashley's annoyance.

"Before lunch I saw them having a special moment" Ashley replied with a pout.

"Who?"

"Spencer and fucking Carmen"

"Special moment?"

"They nearly kissed and then they hugged for like a really long time" Ashley shuddered at the memory.

"Do you have like super sight or something?...Wait are you stalking Spencer?"

"I wasn't stalking her or anything. I was on my way to bathroom during class, I spotted Spencer on her own so I was going to head over but Carmen beat me to it. They looked so fucking cute together and she was smiling like really smiling" Ashley whined.

"Ash if you like her this much just go for it"

"It's not that easy Kyla and you know that"

"You have detention with her today so just use some of that 'charm' you have…..just be patient"

"I hate this, I hate Jim and I hate the people at this school. I hate Mom for marrying that idiot and I hate Dad for dying" Ashley cried at her sister, hating that she was so weak sometimes. Kyla held Ashley and reassured her that everything was going to be fine.

The day had dragged beyond belief for Ashley and she was now heading to detention so she could get Spencer to at least look at her. Heading into the detention room Ashley couldn't help but smile when she spotted Spencer sat on her own by the window listening to her ipod.

Ashley tried to talk but Spencer hadn't even realised that she was in the room. She was too busy singing along under her breathe to her music. Ashley approached the blonde and tugged the headphones out of her ears. Spencer's eyes shot up to stare at Ashley.

"Sorry you were in a world of your own" Ashley stated still bending in front of Spencer.

"I'd rather be there than in any world that includes you" Spencer snapped taking her headphones out of Ashley's hands.

"Harsh but I'll take it" Ashley replied holding her hands up in defeat.

"Whatever" Spencer muttered refusing to look up at Ashley.

"There is no excuse for doing what you did" Spencer finally snapped breaking the silence.

"You're right there is no excuse but there is a reason"

"What possible reason can you have for bullying somebody just because they are different from you? I thought you were different to all those other idiots but you're not. You're way worse because I was starting to like you, I actually thought that we would be friends"

"We can still be friends Spencer" Ashley argued with a sweet smile and hopeful eyes which seemed to get Spencer's attention for a moment.

"Your cute smile and pretty eyes won't get you out of this Ashley. I won't be swayed by your good looks and money so just leave me alone" Spencer raised her voice at the end of her sentence to get her point across but her harsh words seemed to have no effect on the now smirking brunette which only annoyed Spencer further.

"Why are you smiling?" Spencer asked trying to hide how much it was annoying her.

"No reason" Ashley answered still smiling but not looking over at Spencer.

"Just answer me smart ass" Spencer demanded at which point Ashley stood up and moved over to where Spencer was sat leaning into the blondes ear.

"You think I'm hot" Ashley whispered letting the words roll gently off her tongue knowing full well the effect her raspy voice had on people. Before Spencer could reply Ashley was already heading out of the classroom. Spencer just sat and watched her leave as she tried to fight the blush taking over her face. Spencer mentally kicked her self a few thousand times for accidentally admitting to Ashley that she thought she was hot. The brunette would now have something to hold over Spencer.

Spencer spent the rest of the detention wondering how all this had happened on the first day of school. She had almost had her first kiss, her first almost lesbian experience, her first detention and had now realised that her year was about to get complicated and all because Aiden went to basketball camp. Slamming her book closed Spencer stormed out of the classroom knowing full well that no teacher would turn up with only 10 minutes left. Getting in her car Spencer drove over to Aiden's hoping that her best friend would be able to help her even if that meant admitting everything to him.

She pulled into the Dennison drive way and headed straight up to Aiden's room knowing that his parents wouldn't be there. Pushing the door open Spencer couldn't help but wish in that moment that she blind. At first she thought that she had caught Ashley and Aiden making out but it was in fact Kyla and Aiden. Spencer slammed the door shut and stood on the other side of it looking slightly shell shocked.

Aiden appeared looking red faced and flustered as he pulled his shirt back on.

"You were on a date with her sister like a day ago" Spencer reminded him as he smiled shyly.

"I only went on that stupid date for you Spencer. Ashley is hot but she clearly had no interest in me"

"But didn't Kyla mind you going on a date with her sister?" Spencer quizzed as she tried to understand.

"Trust me Ashley is no threat to me" Kyla chuckled as she exited the bedroom. Standing on her tip toes she kissed Aiden on the cheek as they shared a giggle.

"See you later Aiden...bye Spencer see you at school"

"My head hurts" Spencer whined.

"Come on Carlin you need ice cream" Aiden advised as he pulled Spencer down the stairs.

Ice cream in hand Spencer started to relax more and remembered why she had popped over to Aiden's place in the first place.

"So I've had a really weird day" Spencer sighed.

"How so? Other than catching me with Kyla"

"Why did you come on that ridiculous double date?" Spencer asked changing the subject slightly.

"I told you Spencer. I figured that you might like Dan but I guess I was wrong"

"I only went because I thought you really liked Ashley...I really don't like Dan"

"But you do like Ashley right?" Aiden interrupted hoping he didn't end up with ice cream on his head. Spencer eyed her best friend and tried to figure out what he had just suggested. She hadn't considered that, she had only known Ashley since the weekend but things were already weird between them. All things considered things were very intense between them already but Spencer had never entertained the idea of Ashley being gay. The older Davies sister had seemed to show some genuine interest in Aiden at the beach party but then again she had spent most of the evening with Spencer. Spencer shook away all thoughts of Ashley before anything got too complicated.

"We got on okay but there is no chance of us being friends" Spencer answered innocently which only made Aiden smirk at her in a knowing way.

"Alright Carlin we will have this conversation another time" Aiden admitted defeat for the moment knowing Spencer far too well and knowing that he shouldn't push his luck.

"Did you hit you head during your make out session because you're speaking in riddles" Spencer questioned.

"Tell me why your day was weird" Aiden replied ignoring Spencer's comment.

"It doesn't matter. I've got to go...see you at school" Spencer left the house without looking back and headed back to her room.