**I do not own Twilight**
*Present*
Bella and I sprinted to the safety of the porch just before the bottom fell out. We sat on the antique porch swing as big rain drops fell all around. Bella was in long sleeves to cover her bruises from me. From our position on the porch we could see the forest lining. The greenery was still just as beautiful as it was the day we arrived. It had never been a mistake to bring Bella here. That August two years prior was an era of change for the both of us. I was suddenly struggling to learn to live with this human. She had needs and was more emotional than the vampires I knew. She considered it her saving grace. Not the town, but me. She started to live her life the moment I took her away. She has told me many times that she was more of a prisoner while staying with the Newtons, than when imprisoned by me, here. Shackles and all
I looked at Bella as she gawked at the rain fall around us. We had been back in Forks for almost a year now. It was a cool August summer the last time we were here. We left with the realization that we were probably soul mates, or the closest thing to it. Bella didn't bring me to life, but my soul. She turned my life upside down for the better. And I felt it from the beginning. I was protective and much more emotional all of a sudden. We left in a rush to tie up loose ends in Seattle. It took us a year to make it back. Now it felt like Bella and I were supposed to be here. For how long I still wasn't sure.
Carlisle was loved by all at the Forks hospital. He loved making such a huge difference in such a small town. The other family members loved it as well. We were in close proximity to everything we loved. Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Esme loved that Seattle was close by for shopping and what not. All the vampires of the family enjoyed the meal selections. Alaska was closer to us here as well. Irina loved the fact that her other family members were a close car ride away.
Bella and Irina formed a bond very early on. They both had lost parents when they were young. Irina was changed at 19 years of age. She could still act like a teenager at times too. Irina and Emmett brought out a side of Bella that she never got to express after her parents died.
Bella was stuck being a straight laced private school girl. She made good grades and attended all the social gatherings a girl of good standing would. The Newtons made sure Bella knew her place. Always ready to remind her of what they had given her. When in reality all they gave her was a cage with bars.
Bella seemed to fly high when Irina and Emmett egged her on long enough. She was able to let go. Their antics could get a bit out of hand. Sometimes Esme or I would have to intervene.
It was usually during the prank phone calls that we would hear terrible profanity coming from the other end. The trio's favorite prank calls were to return used exercise equipment. This was originally Bella's Idea. They would pretend to be an illiterate moron or an elderly couple, and completely badger the customer service representative.
But they didn't just bond over silly things. Irina and Bella were fond of most pastimes in Forks. They would just walk around downtown Forks and gossip like the teenagers they were. They always stop by the tiny library to make a joke of asking if they had anything new. The whole town loved Bella dearly now. Mrs. Stanley was always trying to get Bella a job at the bank. Mr. Mason tried to interest Bella in newspaper work.
Another link between the two was losing their biological parents during adolescence. They shared stories of how they got through certain milestones without their most cherished loved ones.
A couple of months after the kidnapping Bella came to me in private. She had already started to bond with my family, and I couldn't have been more secretly pleased at the time.
**October~2009**
"I thought all the couples in the family were married already. Haven't you guys been together for centuries?" She asked while the others were out of the house.
"You assumed all the couples were married Bella. What are you getting at?" I ask looking through a car magazine.
"Irina said she thinks Emmett might not ever propose because she doesn't really have a father to ask. I assumed they were already hitched." Bella pulled self-consciously at the tight blue blouse Alice managed to put her in. Her tight white slacks lead to bare feet and freshly polished toenails. "She also thinks he might not be the marring type."
"No, why would she think that. She has Carlisle anyway."
"I asked her about Carlisle, but she said they're not as close, as say, Alice and him are. You and Emmett are like best friends what do you think?"
"Don't be nosy Bella. Emmett will propose in his own time." I say in a cold tone. I look up from the magazine in time to catch the hurt in Bella's eyes. She moved away from the couch and walks over to her round glass dinner table. The Newtons forced her to move out of the lavish governor's mansion after she called to break off everything with Mike.
Bella would only accept so much from Esme and Carlisle. But I was able to convince her to take a bit more. (For the emotional damage I caused from the kidnapping) Most things given were vital like her small condo. I talked her into a car and a large amount of clothing from Alice.
I got up and walked over to her while she rummaged through her mail. I felt like I was always messing up with her. It was too easy to revert back to my old ways. I was Rosalie Hale and no one got to me the way Bella did.
I stood beside her and from the look on her face she had a number of things she wanted to say. "Why are you always so cold?,or Do you have to treat me like your door mat?" But she wouldn't say anything. She seemed to understand that pointing out my flaws would only make me shield myself more. She stuck by me when I was the most unemotional and cold creature in the world.
So I tried hard to open up, and not act like a jerk to her. I put my hand on her shoulder and spoke carefully. "Emmett will propose Bella. Sometimes I think he is a scared little kid. He wants to do the right thing ALL the time, and be the best he can be for Irina. She should be very grateful that she has as good a friend as you are Bella. I know I'm really glad you care so much for my sister." She let out a sigh of relief. I leaned in to her and placed my lips softly on hers. She had closed her eyes on reflex and put one of her hands on my shoulder blade.
*Present~ August*
I leaned over toward Bella on the porch swing and gave her a chaste kiss.
"Bella do you remember our first kiss?" I asked valiantly.
"Sure I do Rosalie. We were at my apartment in Seattle….." She paused. "You had just convinced me that Emmett would propose to Irina in his own time."
"Do you think that we inspired him to do it sooner, than he would have, without seeing the love we share?" I ask. Emmett had just proposed to Irina three months ago.
"I would think so. We are pretty inspirable huh?" Bella asked jokingly.
"Sure we are Isabella." I repeat. I put my head on her shoulder and inhaled all that surround me. I don't know what I would do without Bella now. Bella and I became official eight months after I kidnapped her. I didn't want to give into that because I knew I would have to give in to more later on. But I had to have her for myself. The Vampire in me wouldn't let its soul mate go. But two months after that there was some issues we couldn't agree on.
Bella becoming a vampire was the biggest one. I was adamant about leaving her human. I thought if she was a little more flexible it would work out. She insisted on pointing out the obvious. Her biggest argument was that she would continue to grow old. She could pass for my grandmother after just a few more decades.
Then there was always the physical part of our relationship. I kept it to chaste kisses in the beginning, like the first one we shared. But she always craved more. I wouldn't let her know that I did too. I didn't want to hurt her though. After all, the last time I had my nose in her neck I meant to ripe into it.
From the time we met in august up until now we have always shared a spark of tension. We were sole mates and wanted to be intimate. I was now able to hope that things would get easier in the bedroom. In any case we still had a year before Bella's scheduled change. Sex and vampire Bella were all in the agreement when we got back together.
Bella had spent a tortures three months in Jacksonville, FL while proving a very good point to me. She would leave if I continued to be a selfish, controlling bi..vampire.
"There coming back tomorrow? Will they know?" Bella asked self-consciously
"That we made love, probably. But I wouldn't be embarrassed. They all have had first times and none were as triumphant as ours." I tried to sound as brave as she needed me to be, but inwardly I was scared to know what they thought. Edward's opinion on the particular issue was the scariest. They would understand more than Bella. They would know how much danger she had been in.
I took Bella back inside for dinner and a movie. We cuddled on the couch as we absorbed a gushy romance. Making love to Bella later that night felt much different. But I suspected that it would be different every time.
Bella was eager to get to the parts she liked. Her whole body was a map of sensitive dips and peaks. She had no problems directing my hands and mouth to those key areas.
She moved her mouth from one of my breast to the other, cradling each in her hand softly. She moved my hand to her core slowly.
I grabbed her hands in an effort to slow the escalating progress. I loved making love to Bella and I wanted to draw it out. She let lout a moan of approval. She seemed to like when I took more control. I pushed her hands above her head and held them there.
I moved to the hollow of her neck and sucked and licked until she cried out. She was breathing hard and completely flushed. Her naked body burned beneath my unliving form. Bella wasn't as experienced so she let her body take control. Her legs managed to move in-between mine naturally. She started to ease some of the tension by rocking her pelvis into mine. Her ribs poked out deliciously and I licked every single one in preparation of my feast further below.
After we were satiated, we talked of our future. It seemed that Bella couldn't wait to be a vampire. She really wanted to be a member of the exclusive Cullen family.
"Will I have to be on lock down when I'm first changed?" She asked running her lips across my jaw line slowly.
"Yes, we will probably go to will be easier to stay away from other civilians. Can I ask a question?" I ask at the energy she still has. I'm laying on my back while she lays next to me, propped up on an elbow, looking down on me. She smiles coyly and nods in the affirmative. I smile and ask "What makes you do that? Run your lips over my skin. Isn't it cold?"
"I like the feel, smooth, cold, and familiar." She says with depth in her eyes. But she is right. We have gotten very familiar with each other. "My lips are extra sensitive and your skin just feels to damn good." She pulls her lips over mine slowly. Then she surprises me with a quick nip at the lower one. Her teeth dart out then are back in.
She liked to talk about our future romps in the bedroom also. She would start off by asking if I had tried a particular act, then if I hadn't she would ask if I wanted to next time. The answer was always yes. I was open to sharing many firsts with Bella since she let me be hers.
The next morning we went into town for Bella to get some fresh donuts and coffee. She spoke politely to the towns people, who we passed going to the counter. I carried a cup of orange juice as a prop. We moved together to a seat by the window to watch for rain. Bella reached bravely for my hand across the table.
"You're worried aren't you? They won't blame you. They will know I've asked for it over and over." We laughed a little at the memory of her trying to seduce me for months before.
"I know, but it's silly I guess. I just don't want them to think I put you in danger, specifically Esme and Carlisle. They see you as their daughter more than any of us. You're almost like their very own human offspring." I whisper across the small blue café table. She smiles at the thought.
"We should head back I think the sun might actually show today." She says peaking up at the sky. We hop in Bella's custom Chevy and slowly peel away from the curb.
Last Christmas I surprised Bella with the white mammoth. I rolled it out of my garage and I added a small red alder in the truck bed. Later that day we planted it in the back yard where we could watch it grow from our swing. The Chevy was just right for Bella. It represented her perfectly. Bella was timelessly beautiful, unhurried, and cautious. I painted it pearl white so it would go well with my red BMW. The car that was more similar to me fast, powerful, and alert.
Later that evening the family returned and all in high spirits. Esme and the girls were in first as the guys unpacked the cars.
"Helllooo Bella" Alice exclaimed the minuet she was through the door. Bella looked at the girls forgetting why she should be embarrassed. To be human has its advantages. She stood up from the couch, just before Esme swept her up in a huge hug. Esme was always delighted to return to see Bella still with us. Part of her was truly crushed when Bella left.
"How are you girls?"
"We ..er fine." Bella replies and from the look on her face she had finally caught up to what Alice was saying before.
"Have you eaten lunch?" Esme asks looking at me and Bella.
"I haven't" I say and turn to Bella. "I'll be back within the hour." I kiss her check softly and squeeze her fragile hand. Leaving I heard Alice teasing Bella more while Esme headed for the kitchen.
I was full within thirty minutes of hunting. The late summer breeze brought out deer like nothing else. I came to a slow jog as I entered the grassy meadow around the cottage. The weeds and grass still grew so charmingly around it. The pine trees directly behind it made for a great back drop.
I was sure that Esme would start to trounce the lovely foliage as soon as Emmett and Irina set a date for their wedding. They too would want to return to the cottage. It was built for them decades ago. But I didn't want to see the change. The landscape was stunning as is. I was prepared to stay out of the house in hopes to avoid Edward some more, but I promised Bella I wouldn't be long.
I didn't even have to face Edward when they first got home. He went right up to his room without anyone noticing. Sometimes I felt bad for him, like Bella was pushing him out of the circle. Then I thought if only he could find someone, he could join in again. The even number is what we needed. But I knew it wasn't that easy. Edward was complicated, and finding a compatible mate was complicated. But it was Ironic thinking of how similar Edward and Bella were. They didn't socialize much beyond civil politeness.
Edward was like an estranged friend to Bella. He insisted on not getting close to her for her own good. Carlisle thought he might be jealous. Of me or Bella, he wasn't sure. But Bella was a softer version of Edward. The man I was turned for almost 100 years ago. They shared almost the exact same chestnut colored hair. Where Edward's jaw line was angular, Bella's was a softer version. They were both sensible and self-assured in their talents. But Bella wasn't as grieve or pensive.
Carlisle's original plan was for me to be with Edward. Now Bella was meant for me. Her light mood went with my, not so light one, very well.
I suddenly imagined Bella meeting me at the altar instead of Edward, or any man for that matter. The idea made me nervous. I had spent all my years before Bella imagining a handsome man professing their love for me in sweet nuptials. Edward would be a very handsome groom, but I couldn't imagine Bella taking his place in a black and white suit. Now I wasn't so sure wedding and a marriage was what I wanted. I couldn't even imagine how it would work. Would Carlisle walk us both down the aisle? Would Bella and I both have bouquets? Would we both wear dresses? Who would take the garter off my leg, like Alice had jasper do? Would I be as happy calling for my wife rather than husband? All the questions, no matter how unimportant they were before Bella, now seemed more significant somehow.
I went sprinting back to Bella and slowed when I realized she was upstairs with Irina, Esme, and Alice.
"….Alice will be the wedding planner. And well Bella I was hoping you would be my Maid of Honor?" I heard Irina ask nervously. I flew up to her window shoving the frame out my way.
"You know that will be impossible Irina. Bella can't even be a guest at your wedding. What if something were to happen? She could trip and hurt herself. There would be two dozen vampires to fight off!" I exclaim trying to get my point across. She looks at me a little startled
"Rosalie I can't miss their wedding. This is such a big day. Not just for Irina and Emmett but for the whole family. I'm a part of the family now." Bella states while standing from the couch in Irina and Emmett's room. Esme and Alice both look between us concerned.
"Between Edward and me, she should be completely safe Rose. We will keep her in our circle of protection. She won't be let out of might sight, either of them I promise." Alice says walking over to fix the window pane.
"That won't be enough. You know you miss things all the time. How could YOU fight off dozens of vampires anyway?" I ask going to Bella and putting my arm around her waist. "Bella I'm sorry, but most of these wedding guests won't be vegetarians like us." I look to the others "And then there is always the Volturi. One of our guests could be offended that Bella is even there, and run to them for retribution."
They finally comprehended the dangers and I could feel them starting to peel away from their original idea. Well Esme and Irina at least.
"What if Bella only stayed for the ceremony. She could walk down the aisle and after the vowels and a little piece of cake one of us could drive her up to a luxury hotel in Seattle. The party would be much too loud for her to sleep anyway." Alice says trying again.
"I could drive myself. I know my way to the Hyatt." Bella says looking at me with big, brown, hopeful eyes. "I wouldn't even have to be around them until I came down for the wedding march. The vowels shouldn't take longer than twenty minutes."
"There" Irina said calmly. "Bella won't even be around the vampires for an hour."
I look to Esme and she looks hopeful. "What do you think Mom?"
Everyone then turns to Esme. They are all desperate for her approval. They know she wouldn't put Bella in a dangerous situation.
"We should ask Carlisle." She says still unsure of the danger. I carried Bella to Carlisle's office swiftly behind the others. He looked up anticipating our question.
"I don't see why she wouldn't be able to stay for the ceremony. The reception will go on much longer than she can handle anyway." He smiles at Bella. "As for the guest we can have Edward screen them. See if we will have any problems bringing her down. He can help me explain her and Rosalie's relationship, and if anyone has a problem with it we can go from there."
As usual Carlisle was the voice of reason. The whole group was happy with the end resolution.
"Have you been thinking of dates?" Carlisle finally asked.
"Well I'm talking it over with Alice. She seems to think she can have everything together in three months, but I'm okay with putting it off for as long as we need."
Everyone looked at Alice. She was always behind big ceremonies in the Cullen house hold.
Later that night I held Bella tight as she fought away sleep. She was extremely happy for Irina and Emmett, and didn't seem to want to rest. She kept looking up to me after a tough bout of fighting it off and smile. At one point she asked
"Would you ever want to get married Rose?" She kept her eyes on me while blinking away sleep.
"You mean to you? I'm not sure I haven't given it much thought." I lied as I kissed the top of her head in order to break the haunting stare.
"umfgh" was all Bella got out before sleep completely took over. Sleep for Bella was a time when her mind and body got to rest. Although her soul was ever present. Even on those rare nights that I escaped her clasp to hunt, I felt her soul. It would try to tug me or my soul back to her.
It was truly a beautiful experience. She looked gorgeous in her sleep. The tranquility she felt emanated from her being.
The thought of marriage was still puzzling. I didn't know that I believed in it any more. Irina and Emmett have been together for years and yet they were fine before the proposal. I felt like they were only doing it for tradition's sake.
Maybe that's what Bella wanted, a crisp white dress and a promise in front of her friends and family. There was only one way to find out. I had to talk to her about it, but more than that I had to be honest with her. I was confused and I knew she could help.
I was so lost in thought I didn't realize when Bella woke up hours before she should. I could tell she was still mostly asleep when she mumbled "You're uneasy"
She knew so much more than she let on.
"yeah" was all I could say to her perceptiveness. She started to kiss her way across my check then my lips. "Bella" I tried to get her attention and wake her up some more. But once her lips were completely smothering my own I gave up. It wasn't until her hand found my left breast that I decided to remind Bella that the family had returned. I didn't want her to be more embarrassed the next morning.
She opened her eyes and pulled her hand out from under my night shirt.
"Oh yeah" she frowned a bit then darkened a shade or two.
"It's still very early you need more sleep." She pushed back against me and rested her head in my neck. She fell back asleep after some humming and a smooth back rub.
She was so precious to me. She truly understood me. One of the most positive things about being a vampire was that you remember everything. I could remember all the good times Bella and I shared. Like the Christmas I gave her the truck. I remember the feel of Bella's happiness radiating off her. She was never happy about gifts. The Chevy was different because I built it, and she knows how much I love building automobiles. Then there was our favorite tree on the back.
But one of the negatives is being able to remember all the time without Bella. The time before I met her wasn't so hard. I didn't know what I was missing. The three months she was away I never felt worse.
She left in June. She had given me an ultimatum which I refused to take. My family set her up with a nice home in Jacksonville Florida.
We stayed back in Seattle. The first month I really tried to get over her. I even joined Seattle University. I participated in bio labs and study groups. Only for that one month did I try to trick myself.
I decided to study medicine like Carlisle. I wanted to thrust myself into something difficult. The whole family really tried not to show their pain from the loss of our charming Bella.
**June 2010**
Bella was off to the airport within twenty minutes of my answer or non-answer as it was. I told her that I would not consent to her becoming a vampire. I felt her absence in a horrendous way. My whole being once alive was now undead once more.
She had Esme clear out her most important belongings. Mostly it was things that she could send with her on the plane. I had heard the hush hush talk of Bella's plan if we didn't agree on a compromise. Now the ever persistent Bella was putting all her plans into motion.
Once her car was gone I went straight to the garage that only I ever worked in. I started to take apart a new Lamborghini. It only took fourteen hours to take apart and completely clean every finger print and smudge off every part. The inside of the car was more complicated than any American car, but it still wasn't as complex as every single emotion that was running through me.
While putting the car back together the only thing on my mind was the look of Bella falling into Carlisle's arms. She had managed to hug Esme without the break down. I think she knew what she was doing to Carlisle by upsetting Esme so.
The moment she relented and let the tears come it sunk in that I would never again be able to comfort her as I wished to do then. I worked slowly and meticulously to put the automobile back together.
Even after I finished with the car I didn't come out the garage for another 48 hours. The house I walked into was very grave and murky. The family was trying to be normal, and for the most part they were. There was just a very important member missing.
After flubbing some medical school transcripts at Seattle U, I went to Bella's red alder. It still held a three foot perimeter of yellow caution tape. The alder brought back bitter sweet memories. The tilting piece of landscape resembled my fissured heart. So I moved on from the tree.
At home I began to put my time into every medical book I could get from Carlisle or buy online. The clinicals I signed up for were hard. Seattle had a large hospital and there were hundreds of patience with free flowing wounds.
None of it mattered though. My thoughts were still filled with Isabella Swan.
If this chapter is hard to follow at all please let me know. I have been sitting on it for a while just because I thought it was a lot. I don't want to downplay your intelligence but I know when I read I don't like to have a large amount of information to analyze. I'm kind of an over analyzer. Lol I didn't want to separate it just because I thought it worked best as one chapter. THANKS FOR READING !
